imagine yourself,
seating alone in lonely black empty room.
listening to the echoes,
thinking and wondering why,
you cry to yourself,
and you feel super lonely.

how I wish I could read
what's on your mind,
what's in your heart,
trying to think
and
trying to feel.

talking to you is way different,
talking to other people is way different too.

who can I choose to be with?,

I want to choose you,
but I'm undecided yet,

everyday I kept pray and pray,
to show me the right path,
but it's undecided yet again.

no matter what I'm trying not to give up again.

maybe I want to choose you over him.

what if him come back again,
but I still going to choose you.

maybe yes or maybe not.

You cant hide feelings,
Even you already show them;
But;
Theres no move or respond;

You thought that it will work;
With doing something;
But no;
It wont;
Because that person will never want to make a move;
Even you did show them;

That person shows nothing;
question mark?;
Who has been question mark which is you!;
Not that person;
Because you've been wondering and asking;
It to yourself a question of why, what and how?;

........... to continued ..........

at times,
day or night
summer or winter
silent or noisy

we feel lonely
with full of sadness
in our mind

where we need to take
Time,
to cool down our mind off

thinking when does this
feeling and pain want
to end.

listen to sad songs,
just makes you sinking
more and more..

the man that you love is your ex
but he still have feelings for you
even after 6 months than he came
back in your life again.

he can't move on,
he kept dream about you,
he kept thinking about you
but so do you also did the
same thing as him.

the only way is both parties have
chance to be back together
but we as a women
feel the hurt again and again before.

you trying to open for someone stranger,
but your ex came back to you again.
that stranger are the same thing as your ex
chasing you but you don't know which one
to choose
but obviously you gonna choose your ex because
you love him so much and you love everything about him
you even can't move on even you tried
you tried to be happy from the outside
but from the inside your sad and hurt as hell..

and now you don't know whether your ex still
wanna talk to you or not.
and you are still waiting for him,
how busy is he.
you are still waiting
like a mad women but
you're being patient and calm...
always remember that

you are so confused and lost,
the only thing is you don't want to hurt both side
and remain them as your friends.

your heart just lost and wondered around..

to be continued....