Live music is a numbing, healing thing
The music is so loud you can't talk to the people around you
So you all wade around each other
Satisfied with just....being
And let the vibrations sink into you

I just needed extra love today
but there was no one around to give it
and i realized that's my life
I am the one who gives extra love
Not the one who gets extra love given to her

I look at you
across the room
a smile on your face
like a dozen rays
of sunshine

You see my stare
you fix your hair
glancing over
at me

it makes my heart
beat
pretty **** hard

make me love
make me laugh
i wanna feel that
with you
only you
just you

Maybe if I was older,
Maybe if he lived closer.

Maybe if I died my hair,
Maybe if he didn't still love his ex.

Maybe if I wasn't so shy,
Maybe if I could actually talk to him in person.

Maybe then we would be perfect,
Maybe then I would be complete.

Because I think maybe without him i'm lost,
I think maybe he's my hope,
I think maybe he's what I've been waiting for my whole life.

Maybe he loves me to.

Maybe I'm lying to myself.

Love ME
Hold ME
Adore ME
Spoil ME
Just ME
Only ME
Always ME

I'm sinking
I'm loosing sight
Of the colors
Of the light

Late nights at school
Cheesy Goodness
Surrounded By friends
Listening to coldplay
This is happiness

Just tell me that you love me one more time
and I'll try to find solace in that

I just sit
I sit and I beg
I beg for something to be right
I beg to be happy
I beg to be loved and held and kissed
I beg for forgiveness and I beg to be worthy
I beg for things I cant not have and can not be
Not right now at least

Feel me in ways others forget to

Im feeling manic
and Im gonna be honest for a second
I dont know how to write poetry
I dont think Im any good at it
I dont know for sure why anyone likes the things that I smash onto this web page when Im feeling emotions that I can only comprehend through words like these
But when I get even one notification
When I am informed that just one person liked something that I wrote
It makes me feel seen. Known.
It makes everything I feel a little less heavy
Because maybe someone understood or cared or felt a little okay about themselves too
I dont know how to write poetry or think im good at it
But it means a lot to me to be able to put words on the internet and have people read and respond to the things I say
Thank you

I could be blinded by the light
And see a thousand things unknown
I could be sheltered from the storm
I have your love to keep me warm

You could be rescued from the edge
And fall no further than the stone
Holding on like stars tonight
Call the universe your own

Held within the walls you find me better than before
A love, a loss, a coin to toss away
Lost in altered states a heart that finds the end surprising          
You made my sanctuary safe

They are misguided in the night
Stumbled blindly into faith
Feeling words and walls unfamiliar
They are the lost in the day

You could be kinder than the rest
And know the furthest they will go
With a hand upon my chest
Call the heart within your own

I have so many secrets hidden in me
Behind my eyes
In my ears
So many it brings me to tears
When it becomes too much
I etch them on my skin
With shiny little razor blades
I hope thats not a sin

I found her
Lying on the side of the road
She looked lifeless, pale
Breathing shallow breaths she was
So I drug her
I drug her back to my van
And I gave her water
Gave her life
As she laid in my arms, I whispered in her ear
I said "You'll be mine, and I'll be yours"
"You owe me that much"

She is a warm summers breeze on the back of my neck
She is the ****** of laughter echoing through the halls
She is the smell of rain just after it showers
She is a flower of the most exotic kind
She is silence in its best moments
She is art made from the finest hands
She is the color blue, rich and beautiful
She is the answer to the longing i have

She's a hipster, i'm in love.

I know some of the things i say are cheesy
I know i'm too romantic
I know you don't want my love
But **** i want to give it
I want to give it all to you
I believe it's what you deserve
To me you are the perfect girl
Your wrongs are always Right
Your flaws are your perfections
In every single way
You just continue to hurt me
But I love you anyways

You must be somewhere in London
You must be loving your life in the rain
You must be somewhere in London
Walking Abbey Lane

I was locked up
No fresh air
No good food
They called it a mental institution
It felt like a boot camp
Go in crazy
Come out sane
I don't think they fixed me
Not all the way

my lungs can only take so much before i drown
tried to call 911 but my fingers forgot how
now I’m swimming in a sea of troubles
there is no escape
my white flag was torn to shreds by the wind that's whipping my face
calling for help is useless now
my throat is raw from my screams
eyes are getting foggy
if i sleep I’ll awake from this dream

It's like tasting sugar and then being shocked with salt
Your words are sweet but they're all lies

He is the sunshine floatin' down
Feel him on my face when there's no clouds
He keeps warm, safe and sound
Rainy days can't hurt me now

I was forged from the fire
I'm hot to the touch
No one could love me
They were afraid it'd hurt too much

Then he came strolling
Into class one day
Freezing everything
That lay in his wake

He sat next to me
The only one immune to his cold
Gave me a smile
That's where our story unfolds

you want to be pretty
but your soul is stained by ugly things

It's like woah!, I can't even comprehend it.