When I needed some one to lean on
You stepped away and watched me fall.

You said you would always lift me up
When I was crashing down you did nothing at all.

Any time you needed a sholder to cry on
I was the first in line to be there.

When tables turned and I had to cry
My sorow was too much for you to bare.

You cut me deep, my soul left to bleed
With your lies and wicked schemes

I don't need your fair wheather friendship
You take two-faced to a whole new extremes.

You left me, with no notice no warning, in an instant you were gone and now I have no home.

You were the one that could, at least for a moment, make me forget all the interference and now I'm all alone.

How selfish am I to cry out for you to stay, to beg you not to leave me despite the agony you must feel .

I watched you softly release your last breath, as the life left your beautiful green eyes I kept thinking this can't be real.

You think you will feel like all the cliches, so much to say, so young,  so much time ahead, but as for me I felt this hole.

This wretched space within began growing, consuming everything ; my heart, my passion until it finally reached my soul.

You taught me to be strong, you showed me that I can endure anything but my heart aches with despair and inside I feel empty and forlorn.

The nights mesh into the days but I keep pretending I'm ok, I will be strong,  between my sad reality and my false bravado for the moment I am torn.