Mainay kal apnay aapko dekha tha apni ammi ankhon may
Yeh aina mujhay boorha nahi batata
(The above language is a mixture of Urdu and Hindi.)

English Translation

I saw myself in my mother's eyes yesterday
And those mirrors don't say that i'm old

Agar zindagi kay samundar may
Kabhi toofan na atay
Kya hum kabhi zindagi ki kashti koi chalana seekh patay
(Urdu and Hindi.)

English translation

If there were no occurence of storms in the sea of life
Would we ever learn to steer the boat of life?

Alone we have come
And alone we shall go
As long as we're here
Let's try and do some good
And put on a show

Zindagi may itnay gham saha hoon
Kay abtoh ashqon say dosti ** chuki hai
Ab inhay kuch kehna bhi nahi parta
Jabhi koi mauka hota hai
Yeh khud ba khud meray say mulaqaat karnay chalay aatay hai
(Urdu & Hindi)

English Translation

I've experienced and borne so much sadness in my life
That now tears have become my friends
Now i don't even need to tell them anything
Whenever there arises an opportunity
They just come out on their own and meet me

Ey meri mehbooba
Teray baray may sochkar apnay baray may sochna jurm hai
Tujhay yaad rakhna mera ek jurm tha
Tujhay bhool jana mera doosra jurm tha
(Urdu & Hindi)

English Translation
O, my lover
To think about myself after thinking about you is a crime
To have remembered you was a crime
To have forgotten you was my second crime

Teray bin may jee nahi pa raha hoon
Teri yaad mujhay murnay bhi nahi deti
Jau to kaha jau?
Kisko apnay dil ka haal batau?
(Urdu & Hindi)

English Translation

I'm not being able to live without you
Your memories don't let me die either
Where do i go?
To whom do i describe my heart's condition?

In life,i have seen many highs
And seen many lows
I've had good moments
I've taken many blows
I've seen friends turn to foes
I've been hurt by those i loved
My trust has been broken many times
I've been humiliated
I've slipped into depression
I've cried many nights
I've experienced loneliness among a sea of people
And when it all seemed lost and gone
And there seemed to be no hope
A little voice in my head told me-
'Don't disgrace the human spirit by giving up and not even trying
You are a fighter.Fight it out'
And so i still keep fighting
I keep trying
I keep working
What my future holds..only GOD knows
It is my duty is to put in all the efforts i can
Give my best in everything i do
And to never give up...
...no matter how adverse the situation
I owe this much to myself
I will not depend or rely on anyone
I alone will fight my battles

You've stolen my heart
You've stolen my peace of mind
You've taken over thoughts
You've embedded your existence deep into my soul
Your love has painted its vibrant colours all over the canvas of my heart
The taste of your lips has merged with mine
And created a magical flavour
Your intoxicating fragrance has spread its roots all over my senses
Your charm has made its way to every nerve in my body
The softness of your skin has registered itself with every pore in my skin
Your sweet voice has spread itself to every nerve in my ears
Your image keeps lingering in my mind all the time
You've become a habit now
A way of life
A daily routine
My eyes only want to see you
My skin only wants to feel you
My ears only want to hear you
My lips only want to taste you
My heart only beats for you
You reside within me now
I can feel you in every inch of my body,mind and soul
Our existences have now truly interwined
....Till death do us part

Jin raaston pay kabhi chala kartay thay
Aaj wohi raastay kaatnay ko daurtay hai
Jinhay kabhi apna samajhtay thay
Aaj wohi hamay paraaya kar chukay hai
Tanhai kay siva ab kuch nahi bacha
Zindagi ab ban chuki hai ek sazaa
(Urdu & Hindi)

English translation

The roads on which i used to walk once
Today they seem to bite me
The one who i used to consider as my own
Today that person has made me an outsider
There is nothing left now save for solitude
Life now has become a punishment

It's funny
But it is among the ruins of our love that i found to strength to move on
Perhaps we were both in a state of disillusion
Guess we were never meant to be
It's just that we thought we could cure each other's lonely nights
I must admit we had some great times
But i guess some things are best left incomplete

Being without you is like consuming arsenic in small doses
Slowly but surely it kills me with every passing day

I can't decide what's worse....
....the fact that i truly loved you
....or the fact that you never really loved me?

It's been quite an effort on my part to forgive you and accept you back in my life...please don't make me put in that effort again...'coz honestly this time around i won't be able to do it.

No matter the number of moments of joy and happiness i might have had in my life....i still believe and constantly keep telling myself-'the best is yet to come.'

I don't just love you
I live you
I breathe you
I feel you
I experience you
....every single second of my life
Your love just doesn't leave me
....not even for a moment
It is what has kept the monster inside of me dormant
It is what helps me sleep
Ever since it's been there...i am always happy...i never weep
Through every up
And every down
You taught to smile
And never put on a frown

What would i be without you?
Nothing
Where would i be without you?
Nowhere

You are the best thing that has ever happened to me
You complete me from every aspect of my life
And a lifetime isn't enough to express my deep gratitude to you
THANK YOU for always being with me

The moon hasn't come out tonight...perhaps it knew that you were coming and it didn't want to feel this sense of inferiority complex...'coz it's beauty pales in comparison to yours.

I wanted to share with you all of my secrets
Instead you became one of them

There are more than a million constellations in the galaxy...but i only look at you..'coz your love shines so bright,that it puts all the other stars in the shade.

Slowly but surely i'm falling for you
And i can feel my heart pounding with excitement
And my soul dancing with enjoyment
It's been a while since i've felt this way
And to be honest it feels pretty awesome
But i'm a bit scared as well...
....i've been hurt before
But the adamant fool and fighter that my heart is...
.....it just won't give up
It's been broken before
...but it still won't give up
It wants to feel that same old special again
And when it comes to my heart...
....i'm pretty helpless!

Our eyes met
Smiles were exchanged
Souls collided
Hearts embraced
Strange fluttery feeling experienced
The mind became blank
Our mouths didn't speak
Our hearts communicated
Every nerve in our bodies pounded with excitement
Sparks flew
And in that one moment of magic
I fell for you
And you did too

Loneliness had always been my friend
It had always been a part of me
Isolation had been my strength
And to be fair...isolation did have its perks
But then you came and messed it up in the most beautiful manner imaginable
Now i can't picture a moment of my life without you by my side
I guess this the impact that love creates...
...Makes one feel both strong and weak at the same time
Strong coz you have the assurance of having someone by your side
And weak coz you are afraid of losing that person
Love indeed is quite the complex puzzle....
It is question which has no proper answer
Why does anyone love someone??
What does anyone love in someone??...
........And so and so forth......

Woh bhi kya din thay
Kya thi woh raatay
Hoti thi kitni baatay
Hoti thi kitni mulaqaatay
Na kisi cheez ki parwa thi
Na tha koi darr
Rangeen hoti thi shaamay
Raatoy ko sota tha tumharay kandhay pay rakhkar sar
Ab na woh waqt raha
Na raha ** mahol
Ab kissay guftagu karoon
Ay meri tanhai..tu hi bol
(Urdu and Hindi)

English translation

What days those were
What nights were those
There used to be so many conversations
There used to be so many meetings
We didn't care about nothing
Neither was there any fear
The evenings used to be colourful
In the nights i used to sleep resting my head on your shoulders
Today that time doesn't exist
Neither does that atmosphere
Now with whom do i have a conversation
Oh my loneliness...you only tell

Sometimes i feel trapped in a maze of suffocating thoughts.Every now and then they keep popping up in my head and just cause total havoc.Sometimes i keep hearing these voices in my head.These voices criticize me,demean me and humiliate me...they shout out loud...'You are a coward.Your life is and will always be a failure and there's nothing you will even do about it...'coz you're too scared.' I feel like i'm drowning in a sea of self-doubts.My fears are overpowering all of my senses.My confidence is taking a beating on a daily basis.The people who mean a lot to me keep hurting me.When i need their support they seem to desert me.I'm not sure as to how much more of this my fragile soul can take.I'm losing track of my life.I'm losing my mind..insanity looms large.There have been times when i wished i was dead or never born.What am i doing with my life?..where am i going?...what do i want to do?...when will i achieve success?...will i ever find love?...who are my friends?..what is the essence of my life?...what will be my legacy?..so many unanswered questions...these questions strangle me on a daily basis.The mirror is my only companion.Its been with me through every high and low.Its never seen me smile.Its been a witness to my eternal tears.Unlike others it has never betrayed me.
What will i be?...i don't know.Where will life take me?...i don't have a clue.I just keep drifting along the current of life.Who am i?...just a nobody who wants to be somebody.You and me...we're no different.Just like you i too have my dreams and aspirations.At times it feels a bit weird that inspite of my life being so miserable i still dare to dream and aspire.Perhaps its a sign that things are bad but there is hope.
May be i should give myself a chance,give one final effort...one final push..and prove those voices in my head,wrong.Its now or never.I have this one chance...this one opportunity to dispel my misery forever and i can't let it slip.I alone am responsible for my future and it's brightness depends upon me.So i have decided to do whatever is needed to be done to make it better.I can't go to my grave with the regret that i didn't try.

Thank you Almighty for providing us with aunts and grandmas....life would be so very incomplete without them.

I personally can't imagine my life without them.I wouldn't be even half of the person i am today without their undying love,support and encouragement.They are who made my childhood enjoyable.My nights wouldn't end without their stories and my tongue wouldn't feel good without tasting their food.

A big thank you to both my maternal aunt and maternal grandma.I've had some of the best memories of my life at my aunt's and grandma's place.They along with my mom are the holy trinity of my life.Whatever little goodness i have in my heart is because of them.I am nothing without them.I consider myself very lucky to have such wonderful persons in my life.They along with my mom have not just had a positive influence upon me...they've shaped me into the person i'm today.

Some people are together 'coz they don't want to be alone..while some are together 'coz they want magic.

Teri rooh ki saadhgi
Teray chehray ki raunak
Teray ishq ki ahaat
Teray hotho ki muskurahat
Teray zulfoon ka jadoo
Dil may ek ajeeb si shararat paida karti hai
Zehan ka darwaaza mano bandh sa ** jata hai
Aur sirf dil ki sunnay ko mann karta hai
(Urdu and Hindi)

English translation

The simplicity of your soul
The glow of your face
The sound of your love
The smile of your lips
The magic of your hair
Creates a strange sense of mischief in my heart
It's as if the doors of my mind get closed
And i only feel like listening to my heart

When i'm with you
I just don't want the day to end
I just wish for time to be frozen
'Coz the times i spend with you
Are the most serene times of my life
Times filled with sheer magic
Times i feel fortunate to experience
One day we both will merge with the earth
Our bones will become dust
Our names will be lost in time
But the times i've spent with you
They shall forever remain etched in my memory
'Coz the times i spent with you are immortal
Forgetting those times is not an option

In my humble opinion,the most beautiful sounds in the world:-
1)Dewdrops falling from the leaves
2)Birds singing
3)A baby's laughter
4)A child saying 'mom' or 'dad' for the first time
5)Your special one saying to you those three magical words you've been dying to hear
6)Moments of silence

I'm a traveller lost in an unknown land
I'm looking for love
Even a little bit of it will do
Can anyone tell me where i'll find it?
I've been searching for it for years
I've been craving for it
I've been longing for it
But no luck so far
Whenever i think i'm getting there
I sadly realize that i'm far off
What seemed like a reality was actually a mirage
My soul is aching
My level of patience is breaking
I'm going insane
I don't know how long i can keep trying
Oh love!...where are you hiding?
Is there something wrong with me?
What is it that i lack?
What am i doing wrong?
Will i ever find you?
I'm not a bad person
I try so hard to be good
You know...one can take isolation only for so long
I thought i was strong
But i was wrong
I can't make it through life all alone
On those dark and gloomy days..
...i wish there was someone to share my pain
...i wish there was someone to listen to me
...i wish there was someone i could lean on
...i wish there was someone to comfort me
...i wish there was someone to catch my tears
Oh love!...why are you so heartless?
Just grant me a moment with you
That is all i ask
Just let me experience you once
And then i can die peacefully

I don't fear death
I fear life....
Getting through each day is such a challenge
Will i ever fulfill my dreams?
Will i achieve my goals?
Will i ever find love?
Am i destined to be alone?
Why am i so misunderstood?
Why am i betrayed by those i love?
Who am i living for?
What am i living for?
Questions like these torment me on a daily basis
Every minute of my existence ****** me like a thorn
The hours just make it worse
Sometimes i wish that death rescues me in my sleep
'Coz honestly waking up and facing the day is so hard

Many people have come in my life
But you're the only one i've wished for to stay
'Coz no one has captivated my senses quite as you have
None have captured my heart quite like you
None have aroused my soul
And made it feel the way you have
None have made me feel as important as you have
You're all over me
Save for you nothing else can i see
My heart is half full with your love
Please stay
Don't leave me this way...
.....incomplete,unfulfilled and unfinished
Comfort my heart with the warmth of your love
It's been cold for far too long
Give it that healing touch...
....it has long been longing for
Only you can ressurect me
Every nerve in my body feels a sense of connect with you
With you around life just seems so much more bearable
Imagining even a moment without you is a nightmare
And it's something i can't bear
So please always stay with me
I have no other shelter

You are the most beautiful dream i've ever had
You are the most incredible person i've ever met
It's been months since we've seen each other
But the taste of your lips still lingers in my tongue
You have pretty much made your own place,both in my mind and heart
I was an empty vase of sorrow
And then you came and filled it with the most beautiful flowers of happiness and joy
I've tried so hard to decode you
But have failed each time
You on the other hand read me like an open book
Do i really give away that much?
Truth is you've given me the best years of my life
I'm just a shy and humble creature deeply indebted to you
Thank you for always being there for me
Thank you for putting up with my insanity
Thank you for always being the way you've been
Thank you for believing in me
Thank you for giving me hope
Thank you for giving me a new lease of life
Thank you for everything

Inspired by dreams
Made by determination
Ready to work hard
No lack of motivation
Propelled by criticism
I always try and avoid cynicism
A soul filled with love
One who constantly prays to the Power above
My life is governed by certain values and rules
Resilience and faith-these are my primary tools
Emotions are a part of me
More often than not...it is through the eyes of my heart that i see
I am the best of me
And at times the worst of me
At times i am a bit unsure of myself
What do i want to do?
What do i want to be?
I am a human capable of so much more
I haven't yet taken a proper dip into the sea of life....
....am still stuck at the shore
I have my flaws
I have committed many mistakes
But i've also done some good
I have done things i'm proud of
But i have the potential to be better
I can always improve
And i need to keep trying...
And i will...
There will arise many obstacles and hurdles
And i will have to suffer as well
But i'll never give up
I'll keep fighting till the very end
...'coz that is what defines a human
And i'm no different

The heart is not a toy
Once broken it can't be repaired
It is very fragile
So please handle it with care

Don't toy with someone's emotion
Respect their love and devotion
Value their commitment and sincerity
Respect and love them and your life shall be filled with prosperity

Open the doors of your heart and let love in
Let the healing of your lonely heart begin
I know sometimes for a mighty long time you have to wait
But it's never too late...
....to find the right healer for your heart
Don't have any pre-conceived notions
Love is not always what you read in books or see in movies
You can find love in the most unexpected places
And in the most unexpected persons
And when you do find that someone who loves you for what for you are
Who makes you feel like you matter
Who respects and cherishes you
Who tells you things which makes your heart go crazy in the sweetest manner
Who fills your soul with hope and positivity
Who does the most beautiful things for you
Who completes you from every aspect of your life
Cherish and value that person
Don't let that person out of your heart and life..
...in this dark and pretentious world
...Gems like them are rare

Hatred has never been my cup of tea
I have always been drunk on love
Right from the day i was born
Till right now...
...uptill this very moment
It is love that has kept me going
Helped me survive
Kept my heart beating
Has kept burning the lamp of my spirit
Once i got a taste of it...
...i just never let it go
It's sweetness
It's strength
Just blew me
I will admit though that there have been moments
Moments when i've doubted whether love alone is sufficient
Whether love will always stay by my side
There've been moments when i've been pulled towards the dark
Hatred,jealousy,ego,self-doubts
....these have haunted me at times
There've been moments when i've felt weak
My faith in love has shaken at times
But in the end love has always won the battle
And it is then that i realized that the path of love is not easy
But true love overcomes every hurdle...
...every obstacle
...no matter how many there may be
Love is all you need

Love is life
Love is bliss
Love is salvation
Love is redemption
Love is conquering all odds
Love is selfless
And yet at times selfish
Love is pure
Love is like a glowing light
Love is the elixir for your soul
Love is the best thing you can give,feel and experience

Feel love
Give love
Love is the only thing which can save this planet from crumbling
And this planet definitely needs lots of it

The only time i will stop thinking about you
Will be when i'm dead

As she kissed me on my lips and hug me tightly...the warmth of her embrace melted every bit of coldness in my heart and electrified my spirit.My heart was now literally thumping with sheer ferocity.The way i felt for her..i had never experienced such feelings before.It's hard to describe these feelings...these were feelings of not just love but also hope,inspiration and safety.The time i had spent with her was the finest time of my life.I didn't want her to leave...she was the only one who understood me and treated me with love and compassion.As she got out of our embrace...I was crying a river of sadness.She consoled me by saying that we'd meet again...she bid me goodbye...and as she left i knew that we'd never meet again but i also knew that i'd never ever forget her...she would always be the sweetest memory i've ever had.Her words still echo in my mind-"do what you like to do..do what you want to do...if you believe in yourself..then no obstacle or hurdle is too difficult...you are a good person and always be this way,no matter what."

For when you have sensuality smeared all over your skin
It's difficult not to sin
From do i even begin?
Your luscious lips
Or those inviting hips?
How lovely looks your hair!
Tonight my soul before you i'm going to bare
I'm going to kiss you everywhere
Let's dim the lights and make it a little dark
And re-ignite our spark
Let's make it a night to remember
Janurary's almost knocking on the door..let's end with a bit of magic,December

If only the heart was installed with an anti-virus software!
We would have detected the wrong persons and never let them in

The other day you asked me about us
Let me tell you...
You need a broad shoulder and a passionate person...that's me
I need a strong mind and a warm heart...that's you
You complete me
I complement you
I'm your favourite painter
You're the inspiration for my painting
I'm your favourite writer
You're the inspiration for my thoughts
I'm the sugar in your tea
You're the icing on my cake
I'm your daily sun
You're the moon in my night sky
I'm your favourite bed
You're my favourite pillow
I'm your favourite underwear
You're my favourite shirt
And finally let me tell you that any man could drown in your beautiful eyes and get lost in your magnificent hair
I feel so very lucky to have you in my life
With you around i can even see the funny side of adversity
Thank you for staying with me
And bearing with me!

Sometimes at night i get these visions in my head...
Visions which torment me in my sleep...
Visions of a life not lived
Dreams not chased
Risks not taken
Fears not dispeled
Efforts not put in
Love not fought for
Battles not finished
Words not said
Things not done
A life not lived to it's potential

I get these horrifying nightmares
I see myself growing old
All alone withering like a leaf in the winter of my life
Not a single soul by my side
No one to care for me
No one to even bother about me
Whether i live or die
It don't make no difference to no one
I don't see no hope
Only doom and despair
This crazy sense of guilt and regret just overpowers my senses
I weep profusely
But have nobody to lean on
I see myself drowning in my tears
My soul is bleeding from all sides
Nothing can cure it now

I sometimes fear that these visions might come true
And i'd rather die than live a life like that
I want to make a promise to myself
I will do everything i can to make sure that my life is nothing like these visions i keep having every now and then
I will fight
I will survive
Someday i will flourish
Someday i will blossom
God willing...i will fulfill every single dream i have

There was chaos and destruction all around
People running around and scampering for cover
The sound of bombs puncuated the air
This was followed by the painful sound of tears
Bodies here
Bodies there
Grief and sorrow everywhere
Families destroyed,torn and tattered
Among the debris and rubble a family somehow survived
The little boy was bleeding red
The little boy was feeling scared
He asked his mother-"mom why are missiles being fired at our home?
What wrong have we done?
What is our fault?"
His mom said-"the fault my son is of the times we live in
We live in the most power-hungry and heartless era of mankind
And they are firing missiles 'coz they don't fear Almighty
'Coz human lives don't mean nothing to them."
It's so sad and disheartening that war has become such a common thing today
I never imagined that the degredation of mankind would be so rapid
When will this insanity end?
How many more lives will be taken?
How many more childhoods will be destroyed?
How many more dreams will be shattered?
How many?
Dear GOD...please help the weak and the oppressed
Please give their families the strength and courage to go through these tough times
Please take them under your refuge
And please give them justice

What is life?
A little bit of pain
A little bit of gain
A little bit of sadness
A little of happiness
A little bit of sanity
A little of insanity
A little jubilation
A little humiliation
A few forgettable moments
A few memorable moments
A few regrets
A few moments of sheer satisfaction
A little bit of love
A little bit of hatred
A few dreams
A few screams
A few achievements
A few disappointments
A book with no ending in sight
A difficult path with a little bit of light
An experience which teaches you everyday
A topic which you will not understand even till your dying day

Life is much more than you can ever feel,imagine,think or experience
It is the deepest ocean
And no matter how deep you dive
You will never reach the bottom

What is love but a creature waiting to be unbound
What is love but a four letter word which cannot be described in words
What is love but a sin you so want to commit
What is love but a true awakening of the senses
What is love but unrestrained lust
What is love but a taste of seduction
What is love but the sweetest insanity
What is love but a process of constant discovery
What is love but pleasure fraught with pain
What is love but a bit of adjustment
What is love but a walk on flames
What is love but music in it's purest form
What is love but passion in it's rawest form
What is love the highest form of spirituality
What is love but being selfless
What is love but motivation
What is love but sacrifice
What is love but being fearless
What is love but a leap of faith
What is love but unleasing the monster that resides within you
What is love but the best and worst of us

Love is what makes us
Love is what breaks us
Love is what creates us
Love is what destroys us
Love is the beginning
Love is the end
The rest in between are blurry lines...tiny fragments of memories which we stack up in bookshelves of our mind
Every now and then we access the fond ones just to feel good about ourselves
Truth is we will never be perfectly happy in love
We just have to work with what we've got

It really does seem impossible
An illusion
A mirage
A dream too good to be true
A goal virtually unattainable
A dish nigh impossible to perfect
A painting which can never ever be perfect
A skill you can never master
A trade you can never conquer
A thought so very difficult to execute
A girl so hard to impress
I have travelled near and far
Met many people
Talked to priests
Spent days with the homeless
Talked to addicts
Changed many jobs
Tried many things
But i just couldn't find the ingredients required to live a worthy and satisfying life
What's the secret???
What's the magical ingredient???
Is it fame?
Or fortune?
Having that someone special in ur life?
Helping the needy?
Trying to make that connection with Almighty?
I guess its hard to point out that one thing....
Sometimes even the smallest of good acts can make you feel like a king
So now i've stopped thinking and trying too hard
I'll just try and be the best person i can be
I'll take the good as the perks of life
And i'll take the bad with a strong heart

I've lost all my hair
I've lost all my teeth
I've lost half of my vision
I've lost my family
I've lost my job
I've lost all my friends
Last month i lost the only companion i had-my dear cat 'Mindy'
I'm stuck in a wheelchair now
The big empty house
It's dark rooms..
..they all haunt me now
..the loneliness just eats me up
All the good memories that i had
Have now become distant dreams
My heart hurts
My soul aches
I cry buckets
And yet week after week
Month after month
Year after year
I keep surviving
I keep fighting
'Coz the only thing i haven't lost is my will to keep on living

There is none that can match his class
He can play well on all surfaces but is undoubtedly the emperor of grass
On this surface where many slip and fall
He moves with immaculate grace and stands tall
The centre court belongs to him
He has conquered it seven times
Can he make it an eighth
That's the question on everyone's mind
At 34 he is still going strong
Winning an eight Wimbledon crown would be for him as sweet as a love song
He is the son of the courts of SW 19
Can he make it beyond slam number 17? (i definitely believe he can)
Go Roger!!!