A flame is burning inside of me
And I'm afraid someday I might get engulfed in it and there would be nothing left of me
Save for a soul which once used to be pure but has now been filled with dust and smoke
And the charred remains of my brain which had this habit of over thinking

What is going on with this site?
Something just doesn't feel right
The views and notifications seem to have gone on a diet
Most works are now left hanging in the dark..no one shines on them a light
This is damaging and demotivating even to the ******* loyalists of this site
Whatever be the issue..it should at the earliest be sorted out.. 'Coz frankly this treatment of poets just ain't right

My heart and soul never belonged to me as much as it belonged to you
But all you did was inflicted pain upon them
But since it came from you
I'll humbly accept this pain as my reward
And I'll cherish it forever

I'm lying in bed next to my lover
And yet I feel a sense of loneliness within me
What feeling could be more worse than this?

A storm passed through my city yesterday
The leaves rustled.. Strong winds blew
Thunder.. Lightning.. Heavy rain
Some neighborhoods were plunged in darkness
I could hear the sound of the wind..like an outburst of rage
I woke up this morning and stepped out of my house to be greeted by a carpet of flowers and leaves
The sight was a visual delight...
I marvelled at the colours scattered all across the road
But at the same time I was sad that the trees had been separated from their offsprings
In an instant the trees were robbed of their precious ones...
And I had been robbed of my view of the greens

Either you love me
Or you don't
Don't play games with me
Or else..
...i'll f** tear you apart

Most days of my life I think I'm a no one
And yet the fact that I matter to someone gives me a great deal of courage and hope
It's like I'm hanging from a cliff and someone's offering me a rope

I thought you were the one
But little had i realized at that point that I was flying too close to the sun
For you were a flame that consumed souls for fun
A few months of companionship and then one fine day out of the blue.. You said we were done
I must admit it hurt me bad..
I was both mad and sad
I was broken and shattered
Bruised and battered
You left a permanent scar on me
My heart could no longer feel or see
It was as if it had gone into hiding
And then somehow I picked myself up
But I never could love with that passion again...

The other day I saw myself in my cat's eyes
Those were the most comforting eyes I've seen in a long time
They looked at me with love
With joy and compassion
Something I haven't seen of late in a human's eyes...

A day without seeing your face is like existing without seeing the sun and the moon
A day without listening to your voice is like existing without hearing the melody of birds
A day without holding you in my arms is like existing without my soul
I simply cannot imagine my existence without you...

I'm deeply inspired by ants
Even in the most adverse of circumstances the ant keeps fighting till it's last breath
We as humans shouldn't give up that easily.. We shouldn't surrender at the first sign of hardship..We owe it to ourselves to try
I know it's easier said than done but we gotta try

Sometimes people don't need advice
They just need an eager and patient ear

We meet everyday
And yet you seem like a stranger to me
Sometimes I wonder.. Are you the same person?
Or have I changed?

A pen and paper is all I need to get me through the day
An array of emotions
A barrage of questions
An assortment of thoughts
All poured out on those pages
Sometimes tears fills those pages
Sometimes those pages meet bins
Sometimes they're greeted with a smile
Whatever be the day..
Whatever be my state of mind..
A day without writing something just doesn't feel right
The turmoil and euphoria that goes on in my heart and head..
The ideas and the imagination that run through my mind...
...i just need to pen it down
Sometimes I think I could keep writing till my dying day...
During my final moments I'd  probably be...
Hairless
Toothless
Perhaps with limited vision
And I'd still keep scribbling something on those pages....

We were always focused on anatomy
And never really worked on our chemistry
I guess that's why now we are history

I love you...
Even when i scold you
I scream at you
I fight with you
And am thoroughly disgusted with you
I have and will always keep loving you
Just stay by my side

Some days I have nightmares
Sometimes I can't sleep
At times I feel depressed
But I have no complaints
Everyday is a new day
The sun comes up
The sun goes down
It's just that it's the same old me
I wake up..somehow get through the day..and then retire to my bed
And it's the same old world
The same noises
The same violence
The same racism
The same anxiety
The same negative thoughts
The same broken hopes and dreams
The same messed up city
I hope things change
Though sometimes I think I'm a fool for having hopes

I have never met you
And yet I keep writing about you
Maybe I hope to meet you someday
Sometimes I wonder do you actually even exist?
Are people like you still out there?
People who genuinely love and care
People who don't judge
People who are quite selfless
People who are patient
People who are ready to listen
But then again when I don't possess those qualities myself..
...its wrong and hypocritical of me to expect that from someone else

Dear lover... Would you let me rest my head in your lap just for a moment?
Underneath the shadows of your luscious hair
Your serene face
Your beautiful smile
Your mesmerising eyes
Your intoxicating aroma...
...For that is where lies my paradise of thoughts and my refuge of peace.

When the answer to a problem gives rise to another problem it's so frustrating and challenging

With the most amazing skills and utmost care the bird weaves her magic and creates her nest
Twigs..leaves..small branches..pieces of metal..wires..plastic.. whatever she can find she uses to the best
It is one of the most beautiful creations that I've seen
Piece by piece.. Bit by bit..she weaves her magic and constructs a masterpiece
She flies and explores all around and comes back carrying the raw materials for her nest
She uses her beak to perfection and creates a final product worth marvelling over
The nest is her abode.. Her refuge of peace and comfort
She rests and lays eggs and welcomes her young ones there
She flies around and brings back food for her little ones
Being fed by their mother makes the little ones squeak in joy
She remodels the nest every now and then
And if you so much as try to touch it she gets angry

A lot of pigeons live in my window sill
So I've had the good fortune of observing them and their nests from close quarters
The nests are truly a work of art
It's wonderful having these birds around so close
I get to observe their progression right from the hatching of the egg to where they first enter this world to them becoming an adult and flapping their wings with confidence and power and flying away to the skies

The radio keeps playing our favourite song
And my mind gets flooded with memories of a beautiful past
Its a shame we're not together anymore
'Coz I hate listening to this song all by myself...
..It's too painful

If you'd asked me for my life i'd have given it to you
But you asked me to give up my dream
How could i give up the only thing which kept me alive for so long...

People may come and go from your life
But your words will always be with you
They'll never betray you
Sometimes they might catch a flu
But till the very end they will stick with you

I'm hoping for rain on a clear sky day
I guess the optimist in me is really putting his reputation at stake

I came knocking at your heart
But you never responded

I can feel the smell of fresh earth in the air
Cool breeze
Swaying trees
An assortment of dark clouds in the sky
Lightning and thunder
There's a storm coming
And then there's the storm of feelings brewing inside my head as I sip my cup of tea
The first drop of rain kisses the earth
It starts with a little pitter patter
And then there's just an absolute downpour of emotions
It's like the sky is crying it's heart out
And the sound is like some symphony
And every now and then it reaches a crescendo and then calms down again
The birds are flying hither tither
Some take shelter in my window ledge and sill
Some cars and motorcycles stop in their tracks
People on the road taking their umbrellas out
Those without one scampering for cover
Some drenching their hearts out in the rain
As it starts to flood a bit some kids make paperboats and set them out on the rainwater sea..
As I watched these scenes from my window I couldn't help but think of my childhood days
Days when I used to feel more and think less
But then I guess with age you grow wiser or maybe dumber or a bit timid..i don't know..
As a kid the rains for me was all about having a good time
Now it's all about watching and reminiscing the childhood days

Her face gave away absolutely nothing
But her eyes.. I could never forget
It was as blue as the sea
A man could drown in those eyes
I could see the waves of different emotions travelling through her eyes
I could see the beauty of the sky
It was as if she held the entire galaxy in her eyes
The rage and strength of the sun
The calming beauty of the moon
The magical seduction of the stars
I wonder what celestial dreams she held in them
Or what untold pain she must be concealing?
Perhaps her eyes were a library of secrets
Or maybe they were filled with desires still waiting to be fulfilled
Those eyes.. They said so much and yet there was so much mystery to them
Those eyes.. I don't know if I'll ever see them again
But I know I'll never forget them....

I'm losing my edge
Losing my sanity
Lost and confused
Seem to be drowning in a sea of self-doubts
Nothing seems to make sense no more
My conscience it seems has become corrupted
Every human relation that i've ever been a part of is cracking wide open
My head feels like it will explode any moment now
Every day i'm fighting this constant inner battle
And gradually the battle is reaching its peak
Darkness is consuming me
And i don't really have much of a defence
I'm exposed now
Transparent as water
They said time is the best healer
As of now time doesn't seem to be playing that part
F*... everything's going haywire
For the first time in my life i feel like a virtually hopeless person
And yet a tiny voice inside me head keeps telling me all the time....
....Don't lose hope
....Keep going...it's never over till it's over

One blow from you
That's all it took
To shatter my heart into innumerable,uncountable,blood-soaked pieces
Tell me...
..How do i gather the pieces now?

Dear God...
....Without your grace and mercy i'm but a speck of dust
Save for you there's no one i trust
Help me become a better man
Help me fight my demons
Help me fight temptation
Fill me with kindness and compassion
I ask for forgiveness for my sins
Please cleanse my soul of all impurities
Help me serve my parents to the best of my abilities...
...For me they are second to you, God ...Help me give them back the years of sacrifices and hardships they've endured just for me
Bathe me in your mercy and
love
Bestow me with humility
Help me deal with my doubts and fears
Grant me wisdom
Heal those who need healing
Bless all mankind
I don't want riches.. Just grant me peace of mind

No matter how bad might be my day
Your motivating face makes all my stress go away
Your beautiful smile makes me forget all about my worries
Your serene face fills me with courage
Your words soothe my soul
Your laughter lights up my world
The way you look at me fills me with love and hope
And I'm motivated to keep fighting another day
A moment with you feels like I'm in heaven
You truly are a blessing in my life
I truly and deeply cherish you
And I intend to love you with all my heart till the end of time