She hated being all alone
She searched for true love all over the city
Sometimes in college..
..where she would always find a way to sit next to the handsome guy and she'd dream of a life with him
Sometimes at work..
..where in between her meetings she'd glance at the cute guy and hope that someone like that would come in her life
Sometimes at the train station..
..where she would wait for the train to arrive and hope that one day love too would arrive in her life
Sometimes in parks..
..where she'd witness the magic of nature and hope for a magic in her life
Sometimes in cafeterias..
..where in between sips of coffee she'd write poems about love and hope that some character from her poem would come alive and sweep her off her feet
Sometimes in bars..
..where she'd drink to her loneliness and hope that some prince would come into her life and cure her lonely nights
And yet little did she know..
..that her soulmate was in front of her the entire time..
..he was living next door to her
..they'd meet and talk everyday
..he had a receding hairline
..wore thick glasses
..would stammer in his speech
But he was the nicest person she had ever met
He was always very encouraging and supportive
He understood her like no one else ever did
And whenever she was feeling a bit low
He would always find a way to cheer her up
And so after having tried to find her true love all around
She finally realized that there was one place she hadn't looked
The one place which was truly worth looking
She went up to the guy living next door,gathered some courage and expressed her feelings for him
He had tears in his eyes
He could barely speak
He had always liked her
But was scared to express his feelings
For he was flawed in so many ways
He never ever thought that he'd find someone who would want to be with him
And yet here was the most amazing girl he had ever met..
...who was standing in front of him with her heart in her hand
They sealed their love with a kiss
The birds sang a happy tune
And the heavens rejoiced

There's a certain amount of beauty attached to failure..i mean sure it ain't drop dead gorgeous!!!...but you can't call it outright ugly either...it teaches you like anything man...the more you spend time with it you start to realize that there is so much more to life than just success or achievements....it's about trying and experiencing something new...savouring the different flavours life offers you...and every time you fail you just learn so much and you pick up new things...it actually provides you an opportunity of assessing yourself...how you deal with it..and how you prepare to tackle it the next time around...it's an incredible eye opener as well...'coz it never lies...it tells you pretty directly as to where you stand and what you need to do.

Breathe in
Breathe out
Work hard
Party harder
Talk sweet
Make love
Forgive
Forget
Bear a little
Then fight back
Have some remorse
But have no regrets
Sing like no one's listening
Dance like no one's watching
Enjoy like there's no tomorrow
Be a little serious once in a while
Envy but don't copy
Don't hope to get lucky
Make your own luck
Never give up
Always be optimistic
Take some risks
Be bold in your choices
Help a needy person
Fall in love
Be strong in the face of adversity
You are best friend
You are your worst enemy...
...Rest are mere hallucinations
Have passion
Don't let it overcome you
Don't try to force respect...
...Earn it
Travel around
Read
Try new recipes
Fall
And then get right back up
Get in touch with your darker side
Have the yearning for learning
Dream big
Almost everything is possible
You just gotta think it first
Don't do one-night stands...
...Do breakfast,lunch and dinner for an eternity
While on Earth....give your best in every single thing you do
Rest of the stuff will take care of itself

I sometimes visualize the day of my burial
Covered with white cloth
Ready to be taken to the burial ground
There lies my dead body
Only if my soul could tell how it feels right now
Some genuinely grieve for me
Others are there just as a formality
No sooner am i dead
People start dissecting my life
They start analyzing me
Discussing what i did while i lived
Some say-'look at him..he never did no good deed...it looks like he is going to hell.'
Some are kind and say-'no he wasn't a bad person...may be he might get a little place in heaven...God is merciful.'
Some say-'This guy never did anything substantial in his life...he didn't have many friends...no woman in his life...he was lonely and cut-off from the world...all he did was write and give advice.'
And then when i'm finally buried
They talk about me for a day or two
And then they all carry on with their lives as if nothing ever happened(Exception to this will be a few close persons in my life.)
For many...i will be just another addition to the dead persons column of the world
I never did mean anything to them
And that's ok
As long as i have a few persons who will genuinely miss me...
And remember me for the right reasons...
...I'm good

I often long for death
But it never arrives
It looks at me from far
It mocks me from a distance
I sometimes wonder...how did it get to this point?
How did life become so unbearable?
Who is to blame?
Me or the stars?
Was i too laidback....or was i expecting too much?
Did i not give life a fair chance
Or was it the opposite?
I'm not sure if i'll ever fully know the answer or even understand it
And now i don't even want to
So i'll just wait for my time
Maybe it is yet to come
Or maybe it is lurking around the corner
Whenever it comes...it will be quite an experience...
....looking it in the eye..
...perhaps with a bit of curiosity..
...so this what it looks like
...this what it feels like..
...the heart stopping...the organs shutting down..like i'm in a state of trance
My entire life flashing before my eyes
Wished i had used it well...
...and fear... 'coz i'm pretty sure i'm doomed for hell (unless of course a miracle occurs.)

The cage in which I've imprisoned myself seems inescapable
The walls seem to be closing in
And my screams are not audible to anyone
No one can free me from this cage save for myself
I've alienated and isolated myself to the point that I can no longer interact with anyone
I'm completely shut
I need to open up
I've loved and lived loneliness for far too long
To the point that now I can't quite enjoy company
There are countless words to speak
So much I want to share
All the pain...The sadness...The joy
So many secrets buried in the deepest corners of my heart
There's so much love that I want to give
Then why can't I seem to do it?
..Why does it seem so difficult to talk to someone?
I need to fight my fears and insecurities
And just communicate
I need to make an effort and reach out to people around me
Or else I fear going completely insane some day...
...Lying all alone in a room full of darkness and my bed of tears
...Wating for my time to bid goodbye

Say something good about me tonight
Even if you don't mean it
Love me a little tonight
Even if you don't mean it
It's been a while since i've experienced either of those
My soul feels so empty and burnt out
I just want to rest my head in your arms
And forget about everything
Sing me a lullaby please
I want to escape from this chaos
And just find some elusive moments of peace
Hold me in your arms please
I'm longing for a loving touch
The emptiness of my bed
And the loneliness of my existence just eats me up
I can't take it no more
I feel like i'm going insane
Be with me tonight
I don't want to be alone

'Love is the only bug she hadn't caught and now she has fallen to it.'

'Well nobody is immune to it...you know, love is a great beautician.'

-Amelie

We are inseparable by love
Insatiable by night
Holding you in my arms and kissing you
Is such a delight

Feeling your skin against mine
Is a feeling so divine
When i'm with you
There is no relevance of time
'Coz it just stops

When the moonlight pierces through the window and shines upon your **** form
It just makes my whole body go warm
I want to taste every inch of you
I hope you wanna do the same too

Your sweet lips
Your beautiful hips
They are all driving me crazy
Your beauty is surreal
Your *** appeal is unreal
What can i say?...
...I simply cannot help but sin
When i see your naked skin

I'm salivating at the very thought of you
Can't wait to have you for dinner tonight
I want to taste every inch of you
I want to inhale your intoxicating aroma
I want to experience the very depths of your flavour
I want to drink your sweet nectar
I want to get lost in you
This lust i'm feeling towards you is driving me crazy
Every part of me wants every part of you
There's gonna be fireworks and explosions tonight..
..A collision of two worlds
..A unison of two souls
..An unfelt sense of pleasure
I hope you leave some room for dessert

I've seen your eyes
They're constantly looking at me
I can tell that they want me
So burn me with the fire of lust that is coursing through your veins
Spare not an inch of me
I want to be devoured
I don't care about what anyone might say or think
I've spent far too many nights teary-eyed, lonely...broken and bruised
I'm longing to be touched
Hold me tight and don't let go
Even if for a few moments
'Coz those few moments....they seem like an eternity to me
In those few moments i feel at my happiest and safest
In those few moments i'm transported to a state of bliss
Just for a day i want to wake up being covered with someone's else's aroma
Just for a day i want to wake up feeling wanted or craved
Just for a day i want to break-up with loneliness
Just for a day i want to talk and listen to someone other than myself
I want you so bad
And i know you want me too
So let us surrender ourselves and partake in the festival of lust
where we try and discover and decipher our darker side

Sometimes your own home can be the worst place for you to live.Personally speaking whenever i've tried to revisit in my mind the places where i've created some of the best memories of my life...4 places have always stood out in particular...
1)My maternal Grandma's place
2)My maternal Aunt's place
3)High school
4)My first workplace

But never my home...In fact whenever i think of the bad and nightmarish memories of my life..home is the first place that comes to mind!!! And i find this fact so depressing....the place which was supposed to feel like a sense of comfort..like a place of serenity and strength...has actually turned out to be my greatest source of pain and is the place i wanna run away from.

I'm like an open book
And yet I feel like I'm shrouded in secrets
Unsaid words...unshared feelings..unexpressed emotions
I'm a beautiful mess...
Chaos and clarity both co-exist in me so harmoniously
Conviction and doubts...they both are attracted to me
Love and hatred...I'm an equal receiver of both
I say so much
And yet I feel like I've never really said anything
I think too much
And at times my mind just feels like a blank vacant space..
...unable to process anything
I can't quite define myself..
...i keep asking myself strange questions...
...who am I?
...what am I?
...do I have any purpose and if so then what is it?
My days are mostly spent in sadness and regrets  
And yet I find joy when I'm able to pen down this sadness
Sure..i cry my soul out when I write about the pain and regrets
But just being able to write about it gives me a different kinda' high
I guess it makes me feel relieved in some ways..
...a strange sense of comfort about being able to write what troubles me

The sun rising
The sun setting
The stars standing in an alignment
Glowing so brightly....
....as if they're making love to the universe
The moon beaming with joy
The leaves falling
The leaves growing back
The birds singing
Squirrels running around on trees
The wind blowing...
....gently
....fiercely
across your face and the feeling is *******
The rivers and lakes flowing....
....and merging into the sea
The ice-capped mountains standing tall...
....proudly displaying their physique
....conversing with the sun and the clouds
The dewdrops falling from the leaves....
....creating the most magical sound you can ever imagine
The sea waves crashing against the shore....
.....and creating a magic of their own
The different colours the sky displays...
....sometimes azure
.....sometimes milky white
The different shapes and sizes of the clouds....
....some big ones
....some small patches
What a sight it is when they change colours...
....from white to black
....and they break down and wash the soul of the earth
Occasionally the rainbow appears after the break down
Oh!!!....what a sight!!!
....VIBGYOR in visual

Sometimes i wish i was a part of nature
Thank you GOD for giving this wonderful gift to us
It's a shame we don't always appreciate it

If you cut open my chest
You'll find that it contains your heart

If you look into my eyes
You'll find that they're filled with your images

If you look inside the very depths of my mind
You'll find that they're filled with your thoughts

If you take in my smell
You'll find that i reek of you

If you ******* lips
You'll find that they taste just like yours

If i could show you my soul
You'd find that your image is imprinted upon it

Baby...i'm crazy about you
I love you like i've never loved no one
You mean everything to me
I can't imagine a moment of my life without you
Tell me...do you feel the same way too?

I fell for you at the first sight
Never thought whether it was wrong or right
And now i keep thinking of you day and night
In this dark and gloomy world of mine....you entered like a glowing light
You guided me through those tough and crazy times
...Times when i wanted me to give up
You stood by me when my stars were bad
And i was lonesome,weary and sad
Remember the first time we kissed
In my excitement i nearly missed
You motivate me like no one else
You feel me
You get me
You don't judge me
You are patient with me
My physicality or the colour of my skin doesn't bother you
I'm just a shy and humble creature deeply indebted to you.
You are the one constant thought dat occupies my mind and i have a feelin' dat you ain't got any intentions of leavin'.
My life revolves around you....only you.

Speak and question
Don't keep your lips sealed
You will gain nothing from it
Rather you will come to regret it
Suffocations over a long period of time often results in ailments and at times even tragedies

I know i'll never get over you...
And neither will you
.....but some things are best left unfinished
There's a certain bit of charm to it
You try and complete it and it loses its charm

Create a playlist of your favourite soothing numbers.Dim the lights of your room.Lie down on the bed.Close your eyes.Blank your mind.Forget about the day.Put your earphones on and start listening to the music.Slowly take it all in.As the music takes over your mind,body and soul...bit by bit,layer by layer,song by song...you will have completely surrendered yourself to this powerful hypnotic effect of the music.You will experience optimum relaxation.Let go of all the negativity residing within you.Now just travel through the timeline of your memory and try and visualize the face of that one person whose face you always wanna keep seeing...think of some of the best moments you've had so far with this person.By the time the process ends you will feel this incredible sense of calmness within you.You have never felt so relaxed.After this you will one of the best sleeps you have ever had.

Music has the power to calm your restless soul and heal your aching heart.Do this process every once in a while.

My personal recommendation of songs:-
1)Classical Ave Maria-Maria Callas & Mozart
2)If you go away-Shirley Bassey
3)At last-Etta James
4)Clocks-Coldplay
5)Fragile-Sting
6)Beautiful smile-Dj Sammy
7)Electrical Storm-U2
8)No ordinary love-Sade
9)Come undone-Duran Duran
10)Riders on the storm-The Doors
11)Any John Denver track
12)Any Don Mc Lean track
13)Any Michael Buble track

We are all prisoners of our fears,doubts and insecurities
And we have two options with regards to them-
1)Either we can choose to do nothing and stay imprisoned
2)Or we can fight and find a way to escape
And believe me when i say this
The longer we choose to stick to the former option
The longer we will suffer

'So..you're with that guy now!..like seriously..he is not even good-looking.'

'Well...unlike you..he isn't a liar.'

'Does he even have a sense of humour?..does he make you laugh?'

'Well..unlike you..he doesn't make me cry.'

'How much money does he have?..does he make enough?'

'You know what the most amazing thing is..he actually loves me and cares for me..and that to me is more than enough.'

Listening to your voice gives me an 'eargasm'
Being touched by you gives me an '******' (and not just my body but also my soul)
Thinking about you gives me a 'mindgasm'
Sometimes i can't decide as to which feeling i like the best

It's summer
A silent night
Not a soul in sight
An absolute clear sky
Not a patch of cloud in it
The stillness of the night is just so haunting
I'm on the terrace
The moonlight is shining upon the tree leaves
A nice gentle breeze is blowing all across
The moonlight falling upon the tree leaves starts to shimmer
Gradually the wind starts to pick up
I can hear the rustling sound of the winds now
And as this cool breeze touches me
Almost sensually
Blowing across my face
Playing with my hair
Enveloping all of me
Caressing each and every inch of skin
Blowing through my shirt
Teasing my body with it's seductive touch
Pulling me in into it's magic
Virtually having me under it's spell
I just closed my eyes and took it all in
I swear i could feel my soul having an ******
And not just once...
...it was having bouts of it
One after the other...
By the end of it all i just felt this sense of serenity within me
It was as if i was somewhere else
For that brief period i actually forgot about the miseries of my life
I can't recall as to when was the last time i had felt so much at peace
I now crave for more inspiring and amazing experiences like this

The political events of today have re-iterated an important fact....figures,statistics and opinion polls are not to be blindly trusted 'coz we humans by nature are an unpredictable lot...we say something and we do something...also another thing...unless and until it's over the favourite isn't the automatic winner.

On those empty lonely nights
When the city is fast asleep
And my dreams are wide awake
And there's nothing save for the moon and the stars
I often look up to the skies and wonder...
...'the stars..they watch over us every night..even on the roughest of days..there is always that one star in the sky..perhaps they have a greater purpose than what it seems..they don't come out merely to beautify the night sky...they come out to give hope..they come out to inspire'..perhaps they are saying...'hey there star-gazer look at us...we have been burning since time immemorial...every night we come out not to please your eyes but to tell you that be like us...each and everyday of your life..try and do what you do best..and we promise you...you will never regret a day in your life...even when you're enveloped by the clouds of sadness..don't give up...keep fighting..keep smiling..keep shining.'

Sometimes at night i get these visions in my head...
Visions which torment me in my sleep...
Visions of a life not lived
Dreams not chased
Risks not taken
Fears not dispeled
Efforts not put in
Love not fought for
Battles not finished
Words not said
Things not done
A life not lived to it's potential

I get these horrifying nightmares
I see myself growing old
All alone withering like a leaf in the winter of my life
Not a single soul by my side
No one to care for me
No one to even bother about me
Whether i live or die
It don't make no difference to no one
I don't see no hope
Only doom and despair
This crazy sense of guilt and regret just overpowers my senses
I weep profusely
But have nobody to lean on
I see myself drowning in my tears
My soul is bleeding from all sides
Nothing can cure it now

I sometimes fear that these visions might come true
And i'd rather die than live a life like that
I want to make a promise to myself
I will do everything i can to make sure that my life is nothing like these visions i keep having every now and then
I will fight
I will survive
Someday i will flourish
Someday i will blossom
God willing...i will fulfill every single dream i have

If you want to succeed
If you want peace of mind
If you want to survive
You have to abandon your anger and ego
You have to be a little flexible
At times you have to take things you don't necessarily deserve with a strong heart
'Coz at times it is the best thing to do
It took me a while to understand this
Sometimes i used to be upset
But gradually i realized that this was the way to go

Spending time with you
No matter how little it maybe
Is worth it
'Coz when i'm with you
Every single second i feel stronger
Happier
And more positive than i've ever felt before
I don't know what it is about you
But you just seem to radiate so much positive energy and goodness
It's like you were born to inspire people and spread happiness
Your words
Your thoughts
Your beauty
Your charm
Your grace
Your simplicity
Your humility
They all just ******* away
I feel so safe with you
I can talk to you about anything without being judged
You understand me better than anyone else
I love listening to you
I love talking to you
I love kissing you
I love inhaling your scent
I love holding you in my arms
You truly are a very special person in my life
And i feel fortunate and blessed to have someone like you in my life

I eagerly look forward to the night
For that is when everything feels right
That is when my mind takes flight
It takes me on a journey of the unknown
The unseen
The unheard
I see faces i never thought i'd see
I see places i never thought i'd visit
You see...the night just has so much to offer
An array of dreams and memories to choose from
I whisper to myself...
...'Dear soul...this is your time
make the most of it'
With my eyes closed..
..i try and explore the deep recesses of my mind
Fast forward...then rewind...and pause
That's the one right there
That's one of my favourite memories
Relive it a bit
Ok...done
Let's move ahead
My mind now starts to dwell beyond the realms of reality
Oh man!...there's so much beauty here
All kinds of dreams
All kinds of possibilities
And as long as i'm there i have a blast
Alas...only for a few hours does it last
For there comes the morning light
Oh...this is so not right!
I was having such a good time
Alas now i shall have to wait again for the sun to set
Goodbye night
But don't you worry...
...I'll see you tonight

You were with me at my best
I wish you were with me at my worst
That was when i needed you the most
I was lost and confused
My soul broken and bruised
My life in complete shambles
How i longed to hear your voice..that sweet reassuring voice
How i longed for your touch..that healing, loving touch
I hoped and prayed that you would come
That you would look at me and make the pain go away
That you would softly whisper in my ear-'it's gonna be okay...i'm here for you'
But you never did...
...you just never did
Night after night...
...it was just me and my tears and no one else..
...no one else

'As a sports commentator you've got to keep in my mind that you're like a guest in someone's house..try to be entertaining and insightful..the odd dash of humour is welcome..but try not to be irritating.'

-Richie Benaud

When you've lived life a fair bit you realize two important things...you yourself are your best friend and you yourself are your greatest enemy.

A soulmate for me is someone whom i feel safe with...and i'm not talking about physical safety here...by safety i mean mental and emotional safety...if i'm afraid or hesitant to expose myself mentally or emotionally in front of my lover...for fear of being judged..if i can't be myself around my lover...if i'm afraid to drop my defences and choose to remain constantly guarded in front of my lover...then it has to be said that the person is not and cannot be my soulmate. A soulmate should be someone who accepts you for who you are and isn't constantly trying to turn you into someone you are not. A soulmate should impact you positively and fill you with happiness and belief. Often i keep hearing that it is impossible to find the perfect soulmate...well guess what no one is perfect...your soulmate isn't supposed to be perfect in every aspect..you make up for his shortcomings and he makes up for your flaws....that's how this works...soulmates aren't rare...it's just that like all good things sometimes they arrive a bit late..(sometimes a bit more late than you would like!!!)...but they do come...you just gotta look hard and have patience.

You know what's worse than someone deceiving or cheating you...the realization that you should've been able to identify and see through that person..and you failed to do so...'coz you let trust blind you...even though you trust someone..that is no reason to relax and take it easy...always be vigilant...the person who cheats you could be anyone...even those who are closest to your heart.

How sweet is the taste of success when you have constantly failed
How wonderful it is be finally accepted after constant rejections
How refreshing it feels to breathe after being in a suffocated enviroment
How awesome it feels to experience happiness after a season of sadness
How amazing it feels to finally get a chance at life after living death on a daily basis
How incredible it feels to just blank your mind and let go of all your worries

Small candle burning bright
Small candle emitting light
Small candle putting up a fight..
...against the strong zephyr intent on killing it
It's shaking
It's trembling
But still doesn't stop burning
Sometimes when i look at a burning candle i'm taken back to those old days...
...Days when our love used to burn proudly like that
Alas we couldn't give the rough winds much of a fight
And the flame was extinguished forever
Now all that remains are the distant memories of a glorious past which we shared together

Life is a process whereby you die everyday only to realize later that you're still alive and that you've still got a chance.

Even when you have no one by your side you will always have yourself.

Your life is impacted not just by the things you do but also by the things you don't do.

Your bank balance doesn't make you rich or poor...your thoughts, words and actions do.

A great future doesn't require a great past.

The thing about time is that it keeps going through a constant process of change....if you're going through a bad time be rest assured that it's not gonna last forever....you just gotta be patient,endure it and fight it out..similarly when you're having the good times make the most of it..'.coz that too ain't gonna last forever...sometimes the good times and the bad times tend to follow each other..pretty much like the seasons..the various seasons come to power at their prescribed time and then they leave like they had never arrived..so basically time gives us hope and at the same time tells us to be cautious.

Trying to find true love in this selfish and hate-filled world
Is like looking for a sea of green in an ocean of concrete
It's difficult
Almost bordering on the impossible
But i'm hopeful
For even the torrid desert has an oasis

I was missing you a lot
So I went near the river and recalled our old memories
And there as I slept on the river bank
I dreamt of heaven and earth
I dreamt of you by my side
Birds chirping
Sun shining
The serene sound of the river flowing
Greenary all around
I dreamt of the mysterious galaxy
I saw the playful and evocative moon
I felt the power of the sun
I experienced the magic of the stars
I felt the black river that flows from your head playing with my face
I felt the warmth of your love
I dreamt that we were flying with the birds
Flapping our wings of love
I dreamt that we were travelling on clouds
Changing hues.. Watching the sun set and sometimes raining love
I dreamt that we were floating in space
Discovering the light of love in the midst of darkness
I felt safe with you in my dreams
I felt blessed and peaceful
My heart felt a happiness it had never felt before
I wish you'd come back wherever you are
Missing you terribly....

I once met fate and asked him-"so what does my future look like?"
He said-"one of the following
Either you're destined for good things...
...or your doomed for greater things."
And so i said to myself-"so either way i'm ******."
I'm kinda' confused here
Tragedy,loneliness,isolation..these have been my friends
I've never had no good things ever come my way
So i don't really how to handle them
This is new territory for me
I'm apprehensive and yet excited
So now i wait with bated breath for this new friend named 'happiness' to pay me a visit
I hope he stays long
I've so many questions i wanna ask him
I hope he bears with me

We might be separated by miles of space
But everytime i close my eyes, i only see your face
Our time zones are different...the distance is vast
But i'm sure we'll make it through...for our love is meant to last
My room feels empty without you
But your aroma still lingers on
I can feel you all around me
It's like you were never gone
It's been two years
Just a few months more
I can't wait to hold you in my arms again
Without you my heart's been so sore
Be whatever you want to be
You achieving your dreams is all i want to see
I'll always support you in whatever you do
Just keep loving and supporting me too

Fear not 'coz you've almost reached your destination;relax and smile... you've conquered and come this far;you've proved  others wrong and done the impossible;you've made urself proud;u've proved that u've still got it.Nobody had given u a chance but you mustered up d courage,dug out ur resources and surprised one and all including urself.What u feel at this point of time is truly indescribable.In other words it's sheer bliss.You never doubted urself.;u never lost hope;u were confident in d face of adversity.You showed dat courage is not 'bout being brave....it's 'bout accepting ur fears and conquering 'em;it's 'bout accepting ur flaws and working on 'em;it's 'bout taking all d negativity around you and turning it into something positive.

You belong to dat elite group of individuals who never gives up and dat is what sets u apart from d majority.You deserve my respect.You inspire me to do greater things,to scale greater heights.You motivate me like no one else does.You fill my heart with this uncontrollable burning desire to succeed.I don't want to be u and yet i want to become someone like u.There is this strange attraction i feel towards u.It's weird and at times feels completely inexplicable.It's not that i love you but....i don't know what it is about you that intrigues me.My list of faults and mistakes is endless but i'm not a hypocrite or a ******.To achieve even half of what u've achieved is quite a mouth-watering prospect and it's certainly a challenge worth accepting.

I don't know who u are.We are not related by blood and neither do we know each other.Yet i feel this strong connection with u.When i look at you; when i listen to u speak,i feel so much at peace.You don't judge me like the others do.The colour of my skin or my physicality doesn't bother u.You're patient with me.You don't just understand me; u feel me.You are the one constant thought dat occupies my mind and i have a feelin' dat you ain't got any intentions of leavin'.

So dear self...we meet again
Exactly after a year
We've survived another one
We've entered a new number series in terms of age
Happy b'day to me(actually kinda' lonely)
So let's assess my year
It's important to do this since i've moved closer to death
I've had some highs and some lows
Done things i'm proud of
Done some things i'm not proud of(and i promise myself that i will not repeat them)
I've committed my share of mistakes
Learnt from those mistakes
I've grown as a person for sure
My lovelife still hasn't taken off(Patience pays!!! ...right!!!)
But i'm not stressing about it
For by God's grace and mercy i've been blessed with a decent sense of imagination
And i use this to write various scenarios of love and relationships
And though they lack that personal touch
They do provide me with a certain sense of comfort and happiness
My biggest learning i guess has been that i've attained a wonderful sense of clarity about a lot of things in life..
...for instance who genuinely loves and respects me
...who genuinely supports me
...who is truly a friend
...how much more i need to improve as a person
And so on
And so Dearest Almighty...on this special day i just have these few wishes-
1)Please keep my parents and all my near and dear ones healthy and happy
2)I wish the above wish for myself as well
3)Help those scarred by war and let peace prevail once again
4)Help me serve my parents to the very best of my abilities
5)Help me to be on the right path

I hope i live to see another b'day
But if not then at least i want to make sure that i go to my grave with some good deeds

Be with someone who loves you for what you are
Be with someone who makes you want to be a better person
Be with someone who takes care of you not because it is his duty but because he wants to
Be with someone who fills your soul with positivity
Be with someone who helps you get through the tough times
Be with someone who cheers you up when you are sad
Be with someone who makes you feel confident even in the face of adversity
Be with someone who makes every nerve in your body feel alive
Be with someone who understands you even without you having to say anything
Be with someone with whom you can share anything you want
Be with someone whom you wanna wake up with
Be with someone who makes you feel important
And most importantly be with someone who never gives up on you

I once went to a restaurant named 'sadness'
The ambience inside was pretty gloomy
Wrinkled and tired souls were the only customers
The waitress came to my table to take my order
'Whats your speciality?'..i asked
'Grief salad with a topping of negativity,sir'...she replied
I said...'lets taste it"
She brought me my order
And as soon as i tasted it...
...i spat it out
'Yuck!..you call this food.I'm not even paying for this ****.'
It's tasteless

I left disgusted and irritated
I then came across this restaurant named happiness
I went in
The ambience was vibrant
The waitress came to my table to take my order
'Whats your speciality?'...i asked
'Joy salad with a topping of positivity,sir'..she replied
'Lets taste it'..i said
She brought me my order
And as soon as i tasted it...i was over the moon.
'This is too good to be true'..i said
She replied-'sometimes happiness does feel that way.'
I was thoroughly impressed and also tipped her
I left elated and satisfied