I want to talk about life
About your life
The universe
Your universe
I want to reflect on your views
To observe your acts
I want to see your dreams
To visualize your goals
I want to ask you about time
About clocks
How I want to tell you
That I would do everything to stop the world from spinning
Just because you're here

I saw you from afar
Eyes met
Smile is your best greeting
Held my hand
Guide me to our seat
Lovely music in play
But heart beats in different note
I don't know what to feel or should I feel something I don't know
I want you to say something that has meaning
Like you and I could be something better than nothing
Seconds, minutes and hours
Night like this I don't want to end
Stay with me like Sam Smith's song
For I don't know what to do after you go

There's something in the way you smile and look at me
Wish I knew what is was
But then I'm not Edward Cullen to read your mind
I'm just Bella in love with your mysterious side
Like Hazel Grace wanting to be loved despite of her imperfections
Like Cinderella who ran away but all she wants is someone to rescue her
But I guess I'm just Sleeping Beauty who needs to be awaken by the kiss of reality
This is me
Love me for who I am

Honestly,
This is the first time Im going to admit
An achievement I must say
You're not on my mind
Im not thinking about you or what you are doing
My mind is free yet there's something wrong
In my dreams you're there
4 nights straight
I hate it, I hate you
I guess I should call it a nightmare
For I don't want a single thing for me to think of you
Please stop
I need it to stop
I'd rather choose a good night sleep with no dreams than having you in it
I'd rather be awake 24/7 than dream of you
I don't want to face tomorrow with questions
"why you again?"
"Is this me missing you or the otherwise?"

As I was listening to the song I'd rather by Luther Vandross, I pressed stop before it ends.
Because I find myself staring at a blank space thinking of you
And my mind suddenly thought of the things I would like to say to you but I can't
I wish I could say,
"I'd rather be blind than to never to see you again"
"I'd rather be deaf than to never hear you laugh"
"I'd rather have no hands if I can no longer have the chance to hold yours"
"I'd rather have no heart if you won't let me love you"
But again, I can't.
I want to say "I miss you"
But I can't.
I want to say "Please love me too"
But I can't
I cannot because I'm afraid
Not afraid of the answer
But to myself that I may not be able to let go all my feelings for you
Sorry, but I can't.

Heart Rates in different circumstances:

Beats per minute

          It only beats for you

Target heart rate

          Can you be mine?

Maximum heart rate

          And no one else's

Resting heart rate

          Because I want to lay
         On your chest 'cause with you I feel so safe

I thought you and I are on the same flight
Ready to see how things can go right,
Guess I was wrong about it all
Because you only want to know how high you can get me, just to see how far I will fall

Love compromises all the feeling the world has to offer but there is one to focus about;
If love is a name, pain must be its last
If love is a game, pain must be the rule
If love is a word, pain must be the synonym
And I hate it
Does it have to be like that?
In order to love you must feel the pain, somehow.
No logic, what's the rationale?

She stands there waiting
Waiting for her universe to collide into another

Yes she loves to be alone, to feel solitude, to live in her own ways

But she also wants to feel alive, to feel important to someone, to feel love and be loved

She smiles alot but at the end of the day she is just a baby girl crying over a spilled chocolate drink

She wants someone who will wake her up from the nightmare of life

Someone who will be the light in her darkest moments

And someone like Iron Man that will save her from a killer she wants to avoid…

Her rational mind

Her unending question

Save her

She’s waiting for you

I always find a positive side in every situation

Even though it is already killing me

My brain’s too strong but my heart is already tearing apart

My rational mind says “go and fight” but my emotional heart says “I’m too tired”

Tired of disappointing myself and people around me

Tired of all the stress and pressure that life is giving me

I may cry a thousand tears but I know God’s love will wipe them out

I don’t want to give up for I know He has a better plans for me

Never will I raise that white flag

I will fight

I must

Sudden changes, upheaval emotions
Linger from skin to spine
Giving troubled mind
But seeing God's grand creation
Reserved, quiet and sincere
No more feeling blue
Only loving the view.

Someday you're going to read all of the things I wrote about you.
All of the times when I missed you.
That every tick of the clock I've thought of you,
While I cried because I can't control my emotions.
All of the memories I have with you.
Probably you won't remember but for me it really matters.
And that all my feelings will be revealed to you but I guess you don't care.
And lastly, you will realize how much I love you.
It sounds funny and all because,
By that time, I've moved on.