I feel like I have been gone for too long, and I am ready to come back.
Will you all still remember me?
Still welcome me with open arms and cold drinks?
I hope so.
I miss the comfort of the mismatched couches and effortless smiles.
I miss being in the presence of such musical talents.
I miss watching you guys loose  your selves and wishing I could let myself do that.
I miss the one quiet in the corner,
The one with the kind eyes,
The one with the contagious smile,
The one who roamed around,
The one with the good heart,
The one I just met,
The one who I long to know better,
The one who might be saving the kind eyes.
If I want to come back, will you take me?

I am proud to say I don't miss you like I used to,
I don't hang on every word you said.
I have learned to go on with out a text, a smile, or a visit.
No I don't miss you anymore.
Do I miss what we had?
Sure, but you aren't the only guy in the world.
I know I can meet another, this time the one that is better than you.
But hey, let's be friends.
That's what you wanted right?
I would love to show you how great I am doing,
Or at least pretend to be doing.
Fake it till you make it.
That's what I have always heard.
So here is my confession for you:
No I don't miss you anymore, but I will always cherish what we had.

Laying under the weight of a pile of comforters, quilts and blankets,
Trying to make up for the lacking heat,
I notice the empty space beside me.
I can't help but imagine you pressed to my back,
Guitar roughened fingers on my skin,
Stubble strewn face brushing against mine to whisper secrets.
Your warm scent and warm eyes draw me in.

Why did I not notice it till now?
Why did I chase after another with you standing there?
Why did I let her hang on you, try to charm you, when I knew it should be me?

With the new year comes new chances,
And I am headed your way.

And this is what he said:
"to hold your hand walking through the trees,
to lie together in the fallen leaves,
to kiss your cheeck as if i'm snow,
to know my heart follows where you go."

Your words are far too kind,
and you arent the person I had in mind to speak them.
They make me feel loved if just for a moment
and hopefully one day another will make them true for me.
Your friendship is as sweet as honey and I thank you
for giving me hope.

I wish you would come crawling back,
Begging me,
Kneeling at my door.
Tell me it was a mistake and you never want to let me go.
Tell me the lies she told you to drive you away from me.

This next time I would be the strong one,
The one that would tell you "leave."
I could be the cold one,
My turn to be the ***.

But we all know I would take you back,
I miss you too much to not.
Your big brown eyes and strong hands
Turn my no's into yes's every time.

I can't get your scent out of my head,
I can't forget how I felt at home in your arms
And how you would lend me your warmth.
Our drunken conversations replay in my head,
Stuck in repeat.
What did I do wrong?
I don't want to be the first one to cave,
To come crawling back,
But I miss you.
Please come back to me.

Rough hands and soft eyes.
A sweet southern drawl and a lopsided grin.
A towering stature and a humble heart.
Intellegence and a sense of humor.
City and country.
Cultured and real.
Faith filled and a musical edge.
Loving and determined.
Adventurous and catious.

Come on dream boy,
Knock on my door.
Mr. Right I am waiting on my front steps,
Looking down the lane.
I know you are on your way,
But I get so anxious for your arrival.
Hey imaginary love,
Come find me.
I will be the one with the uneasy smile
And cautious acceptance of your love.