i like the moon
more than the sun
no offense to the sun
but the moon is less arrogant
it is subtle
and doesn't feel the need
to let everyone in the world know
that it is the greatest thing since sliced bread
the moon goes to work
when the sun leaves its shift
it does its job, effortlessly
then slips away slowly
as the sun begins bragging again

sometimes i get headaches
i get them often
very often
sometimes she gives them to me
sometimes i give them to myself
nevertheless, my head gets lit on fire
it feels like the more i over-think
the more my head hurts
the more i push her away
the more i can't sleep
the more unstable i am, the more my head can't take it
these headaches are killing me
killing me softly
killing me slowly
i have no pills left in the bottle
tonight might be the night
a headache takes me away for good

i needed to make a change
i was doing it all wrong
the fights became frequent
every other day it was something new
i realized that most of it was my fault
in fact, all of it
was my fault
so i made a change
i stopped making excuses
stopped telling her what i would do
and started doing it
for her, and for myself
i realized that we wouldn't make it
if i continued to treat her like that
if i continued to sink our ship

the people who i used to laugh with
don't look at my face anymore
they don't look into my eyes
the same people i used to eat with
don't care if i'm starving
the same people i used to spend all night with
don't care if i'm alive or dead
i guess that's how it is
people act like they love you
but then act like they never knew you

this song reminds me
of the day i left her
all the same emotions pour out of me
when the beat comes alive
i hold back tears
though they are fighting to be free
the last time i left her
i almost cried
but i couldn't let he see me like that
no, no, no, no
i couldn't let her see me break down
i had to be strong for her
even though my heart stopped beating
and i forgot how to breathe

i push her away
not on purpose
it just happens
sometimes i think she will leave
sometimes i think she should
she doesn't know me well
what i go through every day
how broken i am
how torn my organs are
but i love her
i love her like the moon loves the sky
like the sun love setting after a long day of work
i will always love her
even though i push her away sometimes

thoughts of the future scare me
always have, always will
how can they not?
never knowing when it's my turn to go
when it's my turn to leave earth
not knowing if i will see old age
not knowing if my dreams will come true
it scares me like nothing else
the future is a mystery
today is a burden
yesterday was hell
i don't know where i am anymore