The sin was in the way I loved you
Too much
Too strong
Too fast
I left no room for anyone else
I mourn not for loving you
But how deep I fell
How badly I craved
And caved
Gave every little part of me away

When you went gently into the dark night
And left me stranded
Could you hear the torment you left me in
You saw the light and followed it
But left me blind
Tell me what did I gain from loving you
All you had to give was hope
And hope is a heartache
I don't want anymore

This one's for the nights that turned into mornings
The ones I never thought would arrive
The sunrises which crept in slowly as I drove towards them
And the ones that crashed through my window as I slept through their brilliance
This one's for the painful nights of no sleep
Ones where the fire burned through my veins
When my muscles twitched and my legs spasmed
And the restless nights when ghosts long passed came for a visit
This one is to acknowledge the nights
And take each one as it comes

I have laid awake more times than I care to share
The world has passed me like a stranger
I watch myself from second person
And everytime I cross the road I glitch in the middle
For a long time I thought it was fear
Until I realised it was regret
I stand and stare at the cars whizzing by
And I wonder why I was left behind
Had it been me behind the wheel
And had I known that impact is not immediate nor physical
I would have returned
I would have wanted to reverse and finish the job
Instead of leaving a soul lingering
With no answers
Or closure
Or a way forward

Come and meet the *****
The one who watched her mother's skin painted in every shade of the galaxy
Meet the **** who was reminded she was a mistake ever since her existence
She handed her entire soul on a platter to the first person who showed interest
She knew she lost the game as soon as he caused her pain
There's no way she could get lower
He took advantage
Seen her damaged
Didn't think it would make much difference
So she took her name and owned it
The ******* rogue
She doesn't need anyone else
She sold her body in the parts she was reduced to
To keep her whole