She said her path was different to mine
Via text
That's it
I never heard from her again
Fifteen years
Wrenched from my life
And I didn't even deserve a reply

Maybe this fever is a way of my body praying
Or repenting or cleansing
Or maybe it has clashed with the soul beyond repair
Maybe these aches are accountability to what I put this body through
How I abused its health
And pushed its boundaries
Or maybe it is the birth of death
And my body has begun revolting in fear
Of returning to its creator
All used and broken
Worn and torn
Would he give me a refund and let me try again?
Perhaps when this fever is over
I'll be better

"I'm not looking for love"


The words of fools
No one who knows love looks for it
And those who don't
Think they have a choice

Love doesn't come knocking
Asking politely if it should enter
Waiting on your permission
Love is not a vampire

Love is a mosquito who will feast without invitation
It will lubricate the entrance to your heart without you realising
And shamelessly drink directly from the valve
You will be in love before you know it
And when it turns cold

Love goes away

But do not be misled

It does not die

Love will fester beneath your skin

And simmer in the heat of your longing

It will flicker in and out of your life

In your thoughts, in your memories

In your dreams and the future you built in words

It will always own some of the veins within you
And when the fragrance of it finally fades
It will feel like a bite out of your life
One that lasted mere days
But left scars that last a lifetime

He wasn't the Yin to my Yang
No
We danced on eachother's toes
Everytime we were together
He pushed my boundaries
And drove me to the edge of madness
But I craved the competitiveness
Hungered for the challenge
I wanted to bathe in his sins and wickedness
Because there were times when we both wanted the same thing
Tame moments of looking into eachother's eyes and putting the darkness to sleep
There are times when being with him feels like being pulled out of the ocean
And seeing him makes everything else but us seem like a blur