When you look at that person who always smiles or laughs, You say he/she must be living a wonderful life and you wish of having their lives.But what you may not know is that person has more problems than who you think has the worst life.      
  I made this unknown so I can express my feelings here and get out of the real world.I made it so no one can judge me.So I can get whatever I want out.Last but not least, so i can be strong, so I can go back to the real life with a bit of courage.

Here's a short story about a girl,
She had a very big heart, or so I've heard.
She was always open, loving, and kind,
If  you were sad she always had a kind word.
She loved to love, no matter what the cost.
So a cycle emerged, she loved and she lost.
Sometimes it was tough, her heart took some beatings,
But love and compassion always pulled at her heart strings.
So she continued the cycle of loving and losing,
Not completely confident in what she was doing.
I wish I could say that this story ends well,
But that's a part of the story I cannot yet tell.

You said you would take care of me
and (I believed) your fairy dust lies
the wand was flicked upon me
I fell deep
I fell hard
I was paralysed by
(you)

but there was no ground below me
not one hint of the destination
(I) looked at you with one goal in mind
and then you pricked the parachute that (helped) me
float with
(you)

as it's oxygen reduced
(I still) blindly (relied on)
(you)

by the time it was gone
(I) reached underground
in a (lost) world
and now
here I am without
(you)

(I lay in) crooked paths
not sure of where the tears will lead to
drawing parallel lines on bandaged (wounds) and
still (thinking of)
(you)

I sometimes resent my resilience.....
I wish that after being tossed around and spit out by this world I'd stay down I'd not bother getting up id stay  where this strong world set me listen to its advice take its orders
I wish that after being assured by this world of how regular I am I wouldn't insist that I'm special
I wish that after this cold hard world told me I hadn't seen nothing yet I wouldn't insist that I had or that I knew what was coming next
I wish that when I looked in the mirror and heard all my flaws hiss I wouldn't insist on  the fact that I'm beautifull
I wish that when I find something broken I wouldnt  assure this world I can fix that .. I know whta I'm doing... Ill make this work
I wish that when my life and myself leave so much to be desired I wouldn't be so sure it's because the world has something else coming for Me
That it in fact it Is you strong world that hasn't fufilled my potential ...
I wish I knew how to wish come true.