I held my breath the other day
To see if I could keep it forever.
I held my breath to see if I may
Hold you in me just for forever.

I inhaled you like smoke
Letting you spread through me,
Drinking from my pipe of
Those moments spent in love
With you. You were a sweet
Burning in me.
Awaiting only the time we would meet,
And I would be with you, you see.

But I was drowning in you.
Lungs burning,
Your sweetness killing me–slowly.
I need to let go, but I need you too.

With a heavy heart, I release you from me.
I exhale you, and I breathe in reality.
Because keeping you is toxic–
A captive bird dies,
But in me still, I can see your eyes.

You were like a breath, in a way.
As soft as the wind.
As redolent as the smell of roses
In spring. And as gone as yesterday.
You were like a breath.

And yes, I still love you darling.
I love you to death.

When I'm in my room all alone,
I turn on my faucet and let it run
Down my face,
With water now it won't leave a trace.

When I'm in my room all alone,
I turn on my faucet and let it run
So no one can tell,
If it was just water or a tear that fell.

When I'm in my room all alone,
I turn on my faucet and let it run
In my eyes.
It's no surprise
That with my faucet
No one can see me, or hear my cries.

With a clenched fist, I took a piece of you
From the day we parted.
It was just a little piece, so you never knew.

Eye squinched,
Face pinched,
And clenched fist to my little heart,
Too afraid that letting that part
Of you go would mean forgetting.
Forever loosing,
The love I once felt with such happiness.
Without a chance to ever confess
That you have been my reason to live–
My reason to give
Life a chance and wanting nothing more than to
Dance with you in my arms–Time finally on our side.

So I held that piece
Of you
Like sand in my fist, you kept slipping through
My fingers. And my clenched fist
Had no bearing on the day when I just missed
You, by a moment.
And so tonight, my love, I release–

With an open palm,
I send all my love to you.
With the only hope that someday,
You just might see me, and love me too.