Sℳǐζξ

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

creator.

Color me beautiful
Paint me with a secret
Draw me with passion
Now look, look at what you've done
You've created this monster.
Someone so strong they seem weak
So confident they seem lost
So full of beautiful colors
They only ever seen blue.
You bring my life color
And they only bring shades.
So go on help me complete this
Project.
Help me
Color you beautiful
Paint you with secrets
And draw you with passion.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

the game.

Life is just a game
There's no way to cheat
And there's no winning
There's only losing.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

Crazy.

My thoughts are like parasites
Eating away at my mind.
I'm afraid I can no longer hide.
My demons are pouring out
And I'm to blame.
I should of hidden them better
And now I feel ashamed.
You see I'm a sinner
And the worst kind.
I do things and think of things
That would never cross your mind.
I've done something terrible
But im not sure what.
I'm afraid I've completely
Avoided it until now.
I'm scared to know what it is
I'm scared to figure this out.
When I close my eyes I see him
Coming at me like some
Wild animal.
His face is dark
His eyes are darker.
His grin is fragile
Like one of a child's.
I know him and what he is
But I do not know his name.
This man is where my demons began
And yet I'm still not sure how.
My walls are braking
There crumbling down.
Soon everyone will know the real me
And they won't care how
I got this way.
They will all say I'm crazy.
But maybe,
I am.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

You.

No one but you makes me happy
No one but you can make the tears stop.
But you
Are what they want to take away
They don't understand that with out you
There will not be a me.
They say you control me
That I've grown weak do to you being with me.
But what they don't know is I've really
Gotten stronger
I'm better now.
I don't want to die everyday.
And it's all thanks to you.
I love you no matter what
And we'll always be together even if
People doubt our love.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

i hate you.

I didn't see you there
Though I wish I had.
Cause if I did
I wouldn't hurt this bad.
I wouldn't of screamed
So loud.
And cursed at nothing.
If I had just walked past you
If I just moved an inch.
But I didn't
And now I'm smaller than I was when I began.
So please coffee stand
Don't be to hurt
When I tell you I hate you
All because you hurt me.

A note to the coffee stand from my pinky toe. Lol. Everything is inspiration me.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

jealously.

The marks on you make me wonder
If there could be another.
You tell me you love me and would never
But everyone makes mistakes.
So I sit here thinking your with some girl
While I'm stuck here at home
All alone.
Could this feeling be true or is jealously
Just getting to me.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

we're meant to be.

We're meant to be
Like summer and the sea.
We're meant to kiss
Like sun shine on my skin.
Your to hold me
Like the clouds in the sky.
I'm to hold you
Like the stars at night.
We're meant to love
Like no other.
Cause I know we'll
Always fight for each other.