I could tell you things
Like...
I miss you..
I love you ..
I need you ..
I crave you...
Despite the physical reaction i clearly have when I'm near
All fears are left at the table
As my innermost inhibitions take hold of me
Something so beautiful its a pain i have to watch you leave
But..
You haven't gone far
You left my physical presence yet the essence of you invades my dreams
Am i awake or dreaming?
To see your face..
No matter the time date or space
I wanna be where you are
I could give you things
Like...
My time
My energy
My money
But..
My time wouldn't suffice
There aren't enough hours on the clock..
Months on the calendar ..
Days in the year..
To let you know how I want and need you in my life
My energy its depleted..
But to give you all my love
It's a well needed feat of strength
Cause to empty my pockets or wallets
To show my love..hmm
That as shallow as the promise of forever...
Cause I  can't give you that..
But what I can give is me
If you needed my breath to breathe
I'd let you live
Cause for your love my life is all I have to give.

You just want me for my ***
and not my gender
what's between my legs
drives u more instead than my mind
you care about my head game right..
all the while playing head games with me...
right..
this one that one I'm confused
or is it that I feel used
Nah to strong a word
this b.s is for the birds..
I played the role
closed my mouth open my legs
that's what u liked but what was outta sight was the next chick
I didn't think quick or at all
I let my heart lead
when it shoulda took a backseat to my vision
cause my intuition told me you were playing
but like a fool I'm staying stuck
going in circles for a man
who wants cake ice cream the whole **** buffet
to my dismay I will never be his entree
he rather keep me long enough to satisfy his lust
but hey he said its love..he just wanted me for my ***..

If if was a fifth you'd be drunk
or maybe just maybe
you'd be gone off possibilities
of things u think could be but aint
oh trust im no saint
and angels dont sing when u enter a room
but one could assume why you're here
so lets be perfectly clear
im no winter jacket in the summer
nor a rain jacket in the fall
if i do recall im here for you
yet im only used when convenient to your purpose
but what hurts worse is
knowing you wouldnt see a good thing
with ray charles eyes if stevie told him just so blind to love so just let me go

My angel...
I don't know what tomorrow holds
Or how the future may unfold
But when the eulogy is told
I want them to say I lived
Don't shed somber tears
Reflect throughout the years
The laughter and love we had together
And how thru thick and thin
I held your hand until the end
Through any storm with u I weathered
It breaks my heart to leave you here
I cant look back for it causes me pain
I'd take my heart out
Give it to you without a doubt
If I thought that would keep u sane
But ill move on and so will u
You'll have joy laughter and love
And when u sleep tonight
Dreaming your sweet dreams
Just know with all my might
I'm smiling down on you from above

Call me a diva
Cause I got a switch in my walk
Flip my hair gloss my lips with MAC
Got some attitude in my talk
You call me a *****
When I stand up for me
Don't play by the boys only rule
Making the world R-E-S-P-E-C-T me
What you fail to see is I am woman
Not the names or labels you choose
I carry the weight of great ancestors
Queens on my back
My reputation you won't abuse
From the top of my head
To the bottom of my feet
Proud strong loving determined
I do not welcome defeat
My hair is not what makes me beautiful
Neither the makeup on my skin
It's my heart my soul
Strong and open to lengths untold
Outer beauty doesnt compete with that
Within
My size doesn't define me
Not the size of my ******* or my behind
But the standard of which I carry myself
My intelligence my mind
The many facets of this complex unique individual
Is what makes me woman undeniable

I poured my heart into an empty glass
Couldn't look foward
Too busy drinking to loves long past
Broken shards of my heart
Cuts worse than a razors edge
Effects of wrong love
No more is my solemn pledge
Trust is for the unsuspecting
Blind to the consequences of giving all
So hard to gather yourself again
After that painful four letter fall
Every so often you see your reflection
God places your image in another
Faces them in your direction
But myself too ignorant to recognize my image in plain sight
Will forever be alone on this journey
I trusted my mind with what's left since my soul couldnt see what was right
In front of my eyes
I let it go
Yet in still I try
Forever wondering...
Did I miss a chance
To connect my soul with its missing puzzle piece
Alone cursed to wander...freelance
Well let me finish my glass
Empty with sorrow
So I filled it with regret
Drunk on that four letter word
Thought I released the past...
Seems I haven't..just yet