Remember what you said to me?
You said you wanted to hurt me.
After the mistakes I've made
with endless apologies
and giving my all to you
unconditionally
You said you wanted to hurt me.

I see you miss the comfort of the pain.
I see you still don't know how to gain.
You wont refrain from dragging me down.
You want to keep me on the ground.
After all I've done for you
how else can I stay true.
You beat me inside all black and blue.
I wanna hide
and you still want to die.

Throw your dagger
fine.
Nothing I've said went through your head
Instead
you twist your words.
I live my life in a blur.
We wanna be dead.
Well
**** me
**** me.
I'm not alive anymore.

Every part of me is gone.
I'm so drained from turning you on.
There's no way I could have gone wrong.
If I cut the skin on my body
scars will show the pain you've caused me.
There's no other way than to be
a grieving soul to fill in the hole
that lies within your heat.  
After all I've done for you
how else can I stay true?
I am so black and blue
but I guess I'll try again next time.
There is no next time.

I refuse to say ' I hate'.
I refuse to live by hatred.
I refuse to live by labels!
Papers on the table,
nothing more than searching for a meaning.
Not so keen to define everything.
Keep going,
no matter what's in store.
Go, go, go.
(S.H.)

I'm a writer who just can't write.
They took my pen and gave me a sword.
I'm a fighter who just wont fight.
They have me under their control.
They took my music,
they took my mind.
I've got to find myself again.
I've got to get myself out of this grind!

(S.H.)

I came back the next day to tell you I wasn't upset.
All you could show me was your regret.
Don't forget that humans make mistakes as they find their way.
I just want to say
that you are still
my friend.
The message I now send you
is that
you are still
my friend!
I am lending you my hand.
Won't you tell me
that
I am still
your
friend?
(S.H.)

And I'll tell you this now, that I'm just trying to live and survive.
I don't want to die anymore, I just want to love myself for once.
I want to live, Live Through This.
No matter what I do to help people in the world, it seems as if it is never enough.
And all I do is keep giving, and giving.
But, am I living?
No!
I keep draining myself.
I can't help people when they don't help themselves.
That is all I ever seem to do, it is like I am glued to it.
I don't want to hurt myself anymore because there's no point in it.
I don't want to hit and beat myself up after one simple thing goes wrong.
I can't understand why people let their demonds destroy them.
If I did that then there would be no more me!
I want to be free.
I just want to love myself, survive and live, Live Through This!
(S.K.H.)

I've seen you everyday around the same time for some months now.
You are very friendly and funny.
You seem to be such a great person.
I don't know much about you, but I do think that.
When I see you, you always seem like a happy person, yes I do think that.
But now I've seen what's on your arm:
Three red lines in a row.
Oh no, don't tell me that you feel this way.
What have you done to deserve it?
What ever happened in life to make you want to die?
I noticed because I care.
I don't know much about you, but I do care.
I care because I know how it feels.
And the feeling is very real.
I would seem stupid to say don't do it, because I do it too.
Hopefully we will both get out of it soon, and look up at the night sky, seeing the beauty of the moon
and everything else.
There is beauty in everything,
it doesn't have to be what is enforced onto us.
I'm sorry that this has happened.
I do wish that there is something I can do.
But I need to take care of myself too.
Hopefully that one day, we will both realize the beauty in everything, and realize that we are both beautiful souls.

I'm not that religous.
Today I blessed the ones that I didn't like just so we could get along.
I thought that it was a good thing to do.
But the consequence was that I would have a terrible week.
Maybe I should only seek help from myself, maybe I should just not care
about them at all.
Seems to be the only way to help me.
But I was only trying to be a good person.
Well I've learned my lesson, and I have to move on from there.
Where to next? I don't know.
But I just keep going.
Keep going, further and further.
And bless the world!
(S.H.)