I looked into unseeing eye;
it didn't blink
Tears pooled blurring my vision....
Perhaps I could pass through that shuttered gaze,
probe deeper within;
pass by blood and tissue
and reach the fleshy beating heart?
I closed my eyes and appealed with words,
clawed blindly at emotional walls;
pleaded with silent screams at pie in the sky dreams....but
Treachery had been there first;
plucking away...
stealing the heart with its persuasive sway

Sitting
In the dark
Feeling the beat
Of my foolish heart

I touch my face
Alien lines push away my fingertips
I don’t feel like me
I am a woman possessed

Eyes widen out to let in more light
Dark unseeing pools disguising my fright

If I can just stay here…

Still in the night
Protected by blindness
Sustained by no sight

Sitting
In the dark
Feeling the beat
Of my foolish heart

They slip through the cracks
In and out of every pit
Until with ease they arrive
Where Fools sit...
In grotesque embrace;
Questioning deafly till
They're blue in the face
Doubt spins round
Desecrating the air
And manic eyes blink
With glassy-eyed stare;
Murky mirrors reflect pale
Shadows of mens' minds
Mockingly peering down nose
As they sweep truths from under toes...
They slip through the cracks
In and out of every pit
Until with ease they arrive
Where Fools sit....

We’re falling
Little grey particles sliding from grace
Floating sporadically through smog filled space
Only to land
In perfect place…
Sometimes

You’re falling
A tortured soul disguising your hate
Lying dying knowing too much too late
Groping with hands
In tearful wait…
Sometimes

I’m falling
Matching lost memories piece by piece
Building what’s broken to take one more peek
Remembering old hurt
Too numb to speak …
Sometimes

We walk amongst shadows
In a quiet detached way
Swaying against the shoulders
Of others day by day
And behind all eyes a world
Lies hidden...
...tucked away
Where thousands of untold feelings
Seek words to have a say
Deep wells lie scattered
Brimming with decay
While down rains new emotion
Into puddles of yesterday

Liquid walls begin to swell then ..
                                   concave down into a well

I slip through ripples and slide down streams

Swirling around in muted dreams

Down down I sweep to dark cold pits

Numbness sets in and inside it sits

I look through a veil at the grainy surround

Floating in pieces going round and round

Straining to gather what makes me a whole

Struggling to steady my shakey soul
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