When I never expected a boyfriend like you,
You appeared.
When I imagined you by my side,
You appeared.
When I contemplated all the memories,
You appeared.
When I felt lonely; worthless,
You appeared.
When i desperately needed your love,
You appeared.
When I had a bad day,
You appeared.
When anxiety took the best of me,
You appeared.
When I cried endlessly,
You appeared.
When we spent over two weeks apart,
You appeared.
When I was heartbroken,
You appeared.
When I was scared,
You appeared.
When I said the words, "I Love You,"
You were there.

*I only hope you can do it once more

It is my brother's barmitzvah tomorrow,
And he's a little overexcited today,
Screaming, ranting and raving,
While practicing for his barmitzvah.

If you've felt worthless or unloved,
Know that there is a God above.
If you've been through ahard life so far,
Don't allow it to leave a scar.
If you are offended by actions or words,
Know that your voice is always heard.
If you don't know what else to do,
Contemplate it, think it though.
If you If you've ever had guilt raging over you like rain,
Just make sure it never happens again.
If you know who you are,
Just be yourself and you'll go far.

As a gush of wind passes over me,
A hear a high-pitch sound,
I envision blurriness,
From all around.
I feel a gentle touch,
From the almighty wind's power,
I'm alone with the wind,
As high as a tower.
The singing breeze captures my attention,
As my curiosity rises,
I'm at ease with the wind,
Of various shapes and sizes.
I see a shadow up ahead,
Feel the winds' breath on my cool skin,
I'm relaxed and content,
From my conscious within.
Let the singing breeze wave to me,
Let it hug my body and speak,
Let it become alive and nature's friend,
Let it find its highest peak.
It has much to show,
Of its beauty and gift,
Let the singing breeze sing,
Let it convey how swift.

I remember as if it were yesterday,
We were happily dazing into the glowing sun,
The peaceful serenity embodying us,
Where two fufilled hearts, become one.
The reality of life,
Lies between two lovers,
Where soley one key,
Fits the lock of each other.
Embracing you with loving arms,
Feeling the softness of your skin,
Noticing such beauty within us,
Having trust, from deep within.
The choices I made were unforgettable,
And the miraculous risks I took,
What an honor it is to be with you,
And for me to proudly say,
"That is one for the book."

I saw an irish wolf hound,
It was my teacher.
I landed of the yellow sand,
It was my pillow.
I ate an apple,
It was a chocolate chip cookie.
I ran into my x,
It was only a movie.
I took a stroll with my boyfriend,
It was more of the "exciting" times.
I studied for hours,
It was just a huge bump on the head.
I looked down at the floor,
It was really knives being thrown to my chest.
I lied for the first time,
It was complete anxiety.
I said the words,"I love you,"
And my fortune magically came true.

What have you done?
You've entered my life unexpectedly,
Stole my heart after day one,
Became my close companion,
Shared timeless love with me,
Greatly inspired me through academics,
And sports,
Supported me through the good and bad,
Been there for me as best you can,
Despite our long-distant relationship,
Showered me with gifts,
Proven your true love for me,
Satisfied me in more than one way,
Said the most heartfelt things to me,
Whispered seductively in my ear.
Held me tight when I needed your love,
Embraced me in your loving arms.
Surprised me,
Helped me rid of the dark side,
Told me that you "loved me,"
Made love painfully hurt deep inside of me,
But I know it means true love,
Made me realize the true meaning of love,
Brought me a life of neverending love and serenity.

Loss of all my love texts,
Loss of all my pictures,
Loss of a touchscreen,
Loss of the memories.

I've learned,
To accept whatever hardships (crap)
come my way.

What's for dinner tonight?
I'll settle for a plate of hope,
And a glass of anti-anxiety.

Nothing disgusts me more,
Than living with my brother and father,
And an inadequate mother.

Just knowing that I'll always have you,
Despite the fact you're hardly ever with me,
Makes me the happiest girl alive.

There's a slight problem going on,
And that is,
I'm not fully being myself,
Around my boyfriend.
We've been together for a while,
And I feel I cannot open up to him,
Until he opens up more to me.
If he wants to be crazy,
I'm ready to witness that.
If he wants to be funny,
I'd be there to hear it.
Please let me know,
How much I mean to you,
Because I can honestly say,
I love you;
Won't ever let you go. :( :)

HOT, HOT HOT!
COLD, COLD, COLD!
OW, OW, OW!
NO, NO, NO!

Two hearts form as one,
In the m'st of daylight, we run.
Far away to a place called home,
Through the wildflowers and daisies, we rome.
Our place called home is like no other,
Gracious love, we have discovered.
Two hearts call out to say,
I've found you, from far away.
You have opened up my eyes,
To its maximum size.
I've learned the true meaning of love,
From God, up above.
My heart aches when we're apart,
For every day, is a new start.
Nothing can ever compare,
To the endless love we share.
You've touched my heart so fast,
Our love will forever last. <3

Hate is a strong word,
But if used in the right context,
It is almost the best word ever said...

If I didn't have my friend Flo,
Or tennis, running, and my close friends,
I couldn't live in this world,
A world killing me inside...

He took me by surprise,
Asking me to dance,
Excited and ready was I,
Without a second glance.
As the music played quickly,
We both smiled and had much fun,
But he suddenly became different and unusual,
I felt the need to run.
He became too aggressive with me,
I was now appalled and hurt,
He took me by surprise,
And left me in the dirt.

"Help, help!"
Cried a boy in the wings,
Beaten and bruised by his father,
"A broken heart cannot be fixed," he sings.
Through his tears of mental agony and torture,
He takes a gander at the long black whip,
When he counts to three it will be alright,
He shivers with trembling lips.
On the count of one,
He stares at him with interrogating eyes,
On the count of two,
He says his last goodbyes.
On the count of three,
He's no longer here,
His soul peacefully rests with God,
As he sheds one last tear.

Wake me up,
When I'm ready to take chances,
When I'm ready to accept fate,
When I can be myself anywhere, anytime,
When I become happier,
When I learn the meaning of, "goodbye,"
When I express the love that remains in my heart,
When I become less nervous.
Wake me up,
When I move past my faults.
Wake me up,
When I'm still wondering,
Why I'm long gone.

If I am so shy,
What's the point in living another day?
When I have so much anxiety,
There's nothing left to say...

Why am I so shy?
Why do I have anxiety?
Why do I hate the word, "redundent?"
It's because I've been living through pain every day.

What?
WHAT?
WHAT??
Words that are tedious,
And last till eternity,
There is no better question,
Than the question of uncertainty.

There we were,
Just casually fooling around with each other,
In a dark, opaque room,
Where he'd let loose and wildly smother.
I tried to hold back,
But he aggressively held me close to him,
I felt the blood flow up and down my body,
As it began to get dim.
The way he dove long, thick fingers inside,
Made me scream with much pleasure,
When he fondled with it, gently teasing me,
There is no other measure.
When he wouldn't stop,
And looked me in the eye,
I felt dopamine rushing through my body,
I can only obey and lie.
The endless pleasure that radiated from his body,
Touched mine, caressed mine,
Where I'd smile at him, eyes half-closed,
Where we'd together shine.

I stood atop a hill motionless,
As I greatly suffered in my own distress,
I looked further out to the darkened, dreary clouds above,
And viewed life as a complete mess.
I felt the heavy rain trickle down my face,
Isolated in the midst of despair,
All I felt were forceful gushes of wind,
And implanted wounds, everywhere.
I wanted to scream and run,
But nothing would allow me to,
So I stood atop a hill motionless,
Frozen and inferior to you.

I am cold,
Bored,
Tired,
And I miss tennis. :(

I love him so much,
But I don't know,
If he loves me back anymore...
I guess I have to just suffer through,
This strenuous relationship.
But how strenuous could it actually be,
When no one's even trying?...

I was getting the easy way out,
Going to hellopoetry.com without signing in,
It took me straight to my account,
But I had to start over,
Because of the predicament,
I was in...

I used to feel isolated,
But now I have anxiety.

Nothing more disgusts me,
Than living with my brother and father.

Two simple, but omniscient words,
"You're beauitful",
For desperate love, you deserve.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I am drowning happily,
Inside of *you.

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He texted me back,
But late.
He showed his affection towards me last night,
I appreicate it.
He made time to see me,
So I will give him a chance. :)

It was 5:30 in the morning,
And I couldn’t fall back to sleep,
So I went downstairs to wake my mom,
And didn’t dare to make a peep.
When I arrived downstairs,
My mom wasn’t there,
I got really nervous now,
As I yelled, “mom”, in mid air.
I ran straight to the kitchen,
And turned on the light,
I spotted a big, wild dog,
Looking at me as if to fight.
I screamed at the top of my lungs,
Which looked ready to pop,
As I ran for my life,
I fell straight to a plop.
When I got up as fast as lightning,
I ran to open the back door,
The dog then charged,
With a ferocious loud roar.
I locked the door very obediently,
Trying not to collapse again,
I started to breathe hard and heavy,
As from outside it started to rain.
I sat down very slowly
Wondering where my mother was,
Also thinking about that animal,
And how it got inside here,
It smells really bad still,
It really does.
I sprinted back into the kitchen,
And noticed a dead body on the floor,
Oh my G-d it was my mother,
This was such horror.
My face couldn’t budge,
My body was still,
My mouth was wide open,
That repulsive dog did ****!
“Mom, mom,” I yelled in horror,
Until I actually saw her face,
I realized it wasn’t her,
What a disgrace!
Out of the ordinary,
Her eyes appeared alive and met mine,
Then she quickly got up and kept to her strive.
She was a very ugly woman,
Yet very old looking and gray,
But she looked loving and friendly,
Oh this was the strangest day!
When all of a sudden.
Her eyes turned the color red,
As she turned from loving to frightening,
I then realized that she couldn’t be dead.
The frightening creature then took me by the shirt,
And thoroughly taped me against the wall,
I almost had a heart attack,
But at least now I actually looked tall.
She then yelled, “Don’t you move now,”
And walked to find more tape,
She had pinned me up so fast,
I thought that would be the last.
When she came back absolutely furious,
I struggled to get out,
But she then tape me up again,
Boy I had so much doubt.
Just at that very moment,
The strangest looking man had walked in,
He stared at me in horror,
As I began to realize he was made of human and tin.
That was the man in my nightmare,
The one who strangely backed away,
He was the one who had owned the vile creatures,
And had always made them stay.
As now the two hideous creatures,
Started coming towards me,
I tried to say what I said in my nightmare,
“Please let me free!”
But it did not work this time,
And I thought they were going to ****,
I said my last sins all at once,
As I was standing nervous but still.
I took a quick glance at the clock,
And read that it was already 7:50a.m.,
So I struggled with all my might,
To get down from this wall.
Today was the first day of school,
And I knew I wasn’t going to make it,
I then saw what they were holding,
It was a match that they lit.
They lit the fire on my shirt,
And I began to shout again,
“Let me free,”
As I began a slow death about.
Just then,
I awoke burning hot,
I remembered I was sick today,
So I lay there mutinously,
As I enjoyed my horrible day.

Okay, I'll be HONEST,
I am melodramatic often,
But when it comes to love,
I'm just "In Love."

Can we just unwind?
With no limit, just time.

Maybe he doesn't want to break my heart,
Already knowing,
That he lost interest in me,
Not too long ago.

We've been apart far too long,
And I'm tired as ever,
I feel vacous and lonely,
Without our united endeavor.

What? what? what?
What did you say?
Where are you?
Why be like that?
Words that are tedious,
And last till eternity,
There is no better question,
Than the question of uncertainty.

Nothing more disgusts me,
Than living with my brother and father.

The time spent thinking of you,
Is endless every day,
You stole my heart rapidly,
I feel grateful to this day.
Occupying myself works best,
When I’m struggling alone,
You are my whole life now,
You have gracefully shown.
My love for you is as high as the sun,
As clear as the sea,
As visible as light,
As close as we can be.
You help me to see,
That we are a whole,
That I’m not broken,
That we’re in control.
I keep feeling love for you,
Where our fate lies ahead,
I’m bound to fall hard for you,
I might tell it to you instead.
Our love exceeds a thousand miles,
Romantic as a glass of wine,
As we learn and laugh endlessly,
Is when I see us shine.
Sweet o’ valentine,
I love you ever more,
Sweet o’ valentine,
Look at us soar.
Beyond the barbed wire and gate,
I see a shadow of only two,
Inseparable and complete,
For Zach, I truly love you.
I can tell you just how I feel,
Not only from a work of art,
Not just through words,
But through my beating heart.

I'm sitting here,
Waiting,
To be happy again...

I feel as if my sides have extra fat on them,
Despite the fact,
I just ran 300 meters in an all-day track meet.

I may have hurt you deeply,
But I did it only out of love.
...And I still love you deep inside.

I gave him a hug,
And he followed me through the corridors,
And whispered softly in my ear,
That we're sinking down under.

I'M HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO FOOD OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I ran seven miles today,
And I scarfe down the whole house.

Maybe I am unlikeable,
Even though nobody says anything to me;
They just glance,
And turn away.

Life has its bumps and sharp edges,
But you've made it this far,
So don't stop now.