I crave the site
of your gaze
blazing through my pupils
to my center
like a lobotomy
but rather than striking my
frontals
pull me in
closer
and let your eyes tell me all I need to remember.

Here's to the ones who are
hoping
that their firsts last
forever
when their forever's
never
lasted.

I didn't think my desire
to see
your eyes light up
and ignite
like fire
would come back and
burn
so bad.

I didn't think my desire
to see
your eyes light up
and ignite
like fire
would come back and
burn
so bad.

I've been patiently waiting
to make peaceful mends
with these veins and bones
that have been longing
for the
touch
of your everlasting
warmth
that ignites underneath my skin
and in my chest.

You're making my inner growth
and self healing heart
more complete
every day.

I lose my sense of time
and tend to fill in my book margins
with nonsense
while I draw my own map locations
and gather petals and herbs
for my own tea
sing my own words
to my own beat
twist my hair unnaturally
Wander aimlessly
Wait for the sunlight while the dark embraces
me
Hold my own hands
close to me
While I think of how your words
and my breath
tangle.

I've never really known where I
belong.
But I'm moving.
This is moving.

You fill my
pockets
like rocks
weighing down
my legs
so i don't fly away
when the storm tries to *******
down.