Just today
I was lonely with thoughts of myself
And I was greeted by a kind face
Inviting me to enjoy the same game the others were
She never lost her temper
Never gave up on me
Although I was failing
I felt happiness
Confidence soared through my body
For I had finally received my first kind face

I wish to remain anonymous
Only , I'm stuck on this bus
Where I must have a name
And I have to play this twisted game
Just waking up feels so lame
Instead of being put to shame
By this name
What I do , What I say
Will mold my future like a piece of clay
So what do I want to do today
I wish to convey one simple message
I want to leave this cage , full of labels and descriptions
Because ,  I wish to remain anonymous

Be who you've always seen yourself to be
And try and stick to it everyday
But don't worry about being a cliche
It's about having the freedom to say
Being proud to be gay
Freely yelling "Yay !"
Bullies may attempt to slay
All the confidence and hope
However you've just got to learn to cope instead of sitting around and being a mope
Stand tall because guess what ?
Being yourself makes you mad dope
Be true to yourself
Otherwise you'll be the only one stuck on the lonely blues shelf
Be who you've always seen yourself to be
That's your true destiny

Why is this world so confusing
What is the right path
Which way am I meant to go
Who am I meant to be
In this world
Why does confusion have to be so confusing
My future
My great future so full of opportunities
Which one do I choose
Who am I meant to be
Confusion
An obstacle that blocks everybody's path
Once in awhile

Why does she act so
Let her destroy herself
Change because she needs to slip perfectly into the sea of sameness
But she forgets the most important thing
To be herself
Not even the others try as hard
But she lets go of reality
And suddenly she's falling too fast
As she grasps back onto the rough, cold reality
Her ignorance appears too fast and again she's falling
But now she wears a mask of denial to hide her truth
Reality is screaming at her but she is walking away from it

Floetry
It rhymes
Floetry streams like a river
Spitting it out like falling dimes
All of it timed
Projecting emotion and picture (memories) like a giver
Out of the entire verse there's just one thin sliver
A beautiful verse
Beautiful yet terse
And then the floetry ends
The back beat descends
Into the crowd the floet  blends
Until another day
Floetry

What is guilt
When we have done something so horrid that it stick in our conscious
When we have a good friend go because we thought there was another happiness
That sick feeling of hiding the voice that speaks the truth
The pain of lying to a good person
Knowing that the truth could straighten out everything
The unhappiness haunting your mind till.... all of it pours out of you
Like it wasn't you
Guilt

Ah the warmth and comfort
Of Home
The feeling of safety
And lets not forget all the great memories
Causing us to laugh and cry
The place where something special happened
To sit at the table and eat dinner with family and friends
The love that is always there
And never gone even when you believe it is not there
And happiness
Oh there is such great happiness
Of Home
Home Sweet Home

I feel pathetic and insecure
Maybe that is the problem
I've got so many , that I've got to solve them
Maybe then I'll shine like the shiniest gem
A beautiful flower plucked off it's stem
A pretty dress with a lovely blue hem
Or maybe I'm just the string hanging off of the hem
The weeds around the flower
Soil in the bed of the river
Left to shiver in the cold
At least I've got a heart full of soul

Lonely
Lonely is the emptiness of nobody
It's me against the world
Just because I am different
I am hated by everybody
Weeping, Sobbing, Tears of lonely
Having nobody to stop them
Lonely

Meditation
Breathe in
One
Two
Three
Relax your body
Let nothing come into your mind
Let the freedom of stress relax both the body and mind
Pure silence
Breathe out
One
Two
Three
Meditation

As I listen to the soothing sounds of music
My anger, confusion and frustration disappears.
I don't have to think about what they said or did
Music is my happiness
The only thing that makes sense
A way to understand life
O music sweet music
Carry me away to where ever
Anywhere but here
I want to escape unhappiness forever
Music

Everywhere I go I see a father
Then I always think ' Why don't I have a father'
I know the painful answer yet I hate it so much
Why should I fall under this misery
To have a father I barely remember
Yet my mother speaks so bitterly of him
My father who drank the day away
Forgot about his family he had to support
Words cannot describe the pain we suffer
As the little ones ask me where my father is I mumble a pathetic lie
The man known as my ' father'

I love poetry
The way it flows
It throws emotions and places onto a page
No matter what age
As long as you can understand and read
Feed
Then let it seed
Show you greed
Of love and  happiness
Poets bleed feeling
I love poetry
The way it flows
The way it grows
Spreading wisdom and beauty through creativity and intelligence

I remember the days when it wasn't like this
When nothing mattered
When we could run and play
And never worry
The days when confusion wasn't a everyday thing
I remember the days when it was just me and my friends
And not these people I barely know
Oh how I hate these days
And for now
I remember the days...

As I watch this small body
Chest moving up and down
He looks beautiful
Silently sleeping
I think about his wide smiles
and curious eyes always looking
Giving kisses to people when they are sleeping
These sweet memories I cherish of
My sweet Siluna

Summer
Calm, peaceful
The warm summer breezes gently brushes past your cheek and shoulder
Wrapping you in its summer magic
All your friends are there
You smile, since it has been so long
As you fall onto the cool grass you make a grass angel
Laughing, Screaming, Smiling
You rest your head in your friends lap as you take in the oh so indescribable sunset
The realization of true happiness enters your head as you enjoy the company of summer and good friends
Summer

Sunny Sundays
When the day feels so peaceful
Relaxing, and surprising
Full of happiness
The gray laziness creeps up on me
and I don't care
Bright, yellow sunlight pouring through the thin white curtain
Greeting our eyes
As we awake into the wonderful Sunday

The chemicals have corrupted his soul
Agitated past all control
What are his goals
Where are his dreams
They got scared of what he was turning into , and ran away in a fit of screams
Eyes gleaming
Figure leaning in a haze of smoke
Inhale happiness , exhale excess dope
Sip some more *** and coke
Chemicals coarse through his veins
Up into his brains
It's the chemicals
They've corrupted his thoughts
And worse
The chemicals have corrupted his soul

White stretches of rock
In the endless ocean
I stand on the rock
And gaze toward the ocean
Crashing blue waves
Crushing the rock into nothing but sand
I see a little boat
Alone and bobbing
Into the endless ocean......

He struggled to find his place
Controlled by the green hand
Then he fought it
He walked away with a bit of happiness holding her hand
Then he sang his heart out for the world to hear
John cried tears of joy all for the warm love he gave and received
He has never left
Because....
All you need is love
Love
Love
Love is all you need

Kept thoughts of anger and hate in her mind
Let it infect , fester , poison her thoughts
All her happiness slowly died , and was replaced
This tumor of negativity change the expression on her face
People will begin to wonder " What's her case "
She's never been embraced
Never been placed , into arms of love
At one point ,before  
She took all the hope she had in store
And put it all into her heart
Her prayer began to start
But when no one answered on the other  line
She began to lose her happy and kind
As a result she also lost her sane state of mind
By the time they had sent her sign
She was already gone

Pressure
Why is it me
What should I do  
What do I say
What do I write
Who is nice
Who is mean
Will I be happy
I'm scared
Everybody's depending on me
I didn't mean to let you down
I'm sorry
Future looks scary

The weather is warm
I see swarms of children , parents
Running about
Biking on their own made up route
Parents shout
Children continue to play
Wind blows cool comfort
The blades of grass sway to and fro
Branches gently shake
The day ends with a glow
The beautiful sunset show

They have thoroughly suffered
Yet they are not giving up
Seeking happiness
When evil is lurking close behind it
Pain is telling you it hurts
That is why the mistake will not be made again
Yet
Unchanging thoughts, decisions leave them in ruins

We only live it once
Yet we worry about everything
Frightened of what we don't understand or haven't experienced
What is life but a chance to choose the way you want to live
Love and friendship
Hate and violence
It is the chance to be who you truly feel you must be
Live the truth
For lies will leave you unhappy
Live in love
Or you will never be happy
What is life but a once in a lifetime