My kitten is asleep right next to my lap
So I turn right over to take a nap
Can’t do that now because you’re in bed
So I turn right over and shake my head
“Can I have some cold water please?”
So I turn right over and put on a sleeve
The morning light shines bright in my head
So I turn right over and fall out of bed
You laugh at my stupidity, me the floor
So I turn right over and walk to the door
I hear your laughter throughout the house
So I turn right over and stay quiet as a mouse
You think that I could quite possibly be dead
So I turn right over and get my *** back in bed
I really need to take a steaming hot shower
So I turn right over and to you, pretty as a flower
I can’t seem to say exactly what it was about this morning
So I turn right over and laugh cause you look stupid as hell when you try to pretend that you don’t notice it when I get in the shower with you with my shorts still on because I was so distracted by how beautiful you are and completely forgot that clothes were what divided the space between my AXE shampoo and the razor that you stole from the pack that I bought because I actually borrowed your razors the other week because I was out and really needed to shave because I thought I was going to get laid later on the night but I didn’t so it’s all good.

As I bent my knee down to pray
I felt a softer wind of sway
A wind that metaphorically would tell
Is as old as time, a living hell

I can’t quite describe what this feeling is
But I know one thing, I am dead.
Dead to the world, dead to you
Dead to the sun, but alive to the moon

I live through this night, a summer blue
And forever I will, always love you
I really hate this feeling inside
The one that calls the coming bribe

I can’t quite hide it from you very well
But I know in time I’ll see my hell
In person one, two, or three
I could never quite cease to be

As much as I wish for it to go far away
I can’t shake off this falsified faith
The one that I pray to night and day
All of the words I could never say

I don’t know how to end this without hurting you
So for right now I’ll have to make do
I could never shake off this thing you see
A definite, clear and conscious part of me

You didn’t ground me, I’m just hitting a “social speed bump”
The room we share together isn’t messy, it just has “restrictive passage”
You weren’t late coming into my life, you just had a “rescheduled arrival time”
When I lean down to kiss you it isn’t because I’m tall, I’m simply “vertically enhanced”
You aren’t shy, you’re just “conversationally selective”
As much as I say you nag me, you don’t.  You’re just “verbally repetitive”
Yeah I need directions because I don’t get lost, I just “investigate alternate directions”
Yeah I’m falling for you, I think to be politically correct it’s “I love you"

Adventure **!  Allons-y!
Come on dear, follow me.

I don’t have a TARDIS, that I regret
But I beg you don’t give up on me yet

I can take you low, and I can take you far
Closer to your destiny, come out of the dark

Time and space are closer than you think
But please dear God, don’t ever blink

You might miss something of importance, you know
Just keep remembering that one day I'll show

My sonic screwdriver will guide the way
To a life for us, a life of play

I may not be The Doctor but dear there’s nothing we can’t do
My companion you’ll be, on the dark side of our moon

High and low, to travel to stay
I can’t ever forget that face

You and I are connected, please tell me you see
The Doctor and Companion, you and me

What is it about that stupid shot?
The one that reminds you why you forgot
That someone who completely tore you apart
And don’t forget, literally broke your heart

I don’t like pictures that can possibly tell
Who I was or how hard I fell
It’s a personal matter that I believe
You never could get past the thought of me

I wanted you so bad, but now I see
That all I needed was inside of me
I can go on, and so can my mind
But that stupid shot, I wish I were blind

Sometimes I watch it rain
     Sometimes.
Sometimes I look around
     Sometimes.
Sometimes I pet my dog
     Sometimes.
Sometimes I pet my cat
     Sometimes.
Sometimes I think about you...

Always.

10th of November was
9 days before school started back, and there were
8 thousand words I should have been writing at
7 pm that night because I had
6 papers due but I thought about you until
5 minutes before school and be
4 I knew it you were mine and
3 drinks later I was way too drunk
2 walk myself home and you were the nice
1 who made sure I was okay and my heart went from
0 to 60 everytime you smiled at me.
1 week later at
2 in the morning, you called me, and the
3rd times the charm, I asked you to marry me
4 life because it was barely
5 degrees outside and I was falling for you out of
6 billion people in the world, despite only knowing you for
7 weeks. And now
8 more months later, and
900 days since I told you I loved you, and I thank God for the
1000 days I had with you these two and a half years.

I know you don’t love me ...
Like that at least.
I’m your best friend, always here to protect and serve.

I don’t mind this at all of course
But I have to say
     This kills me.

Not you, it’s not your fault.
It’s my stupid heart not communicating with my brain
     This kills me.

I try not to tell you or show how much I love you
It’s weird for you and I can tell.
     This kills me.

I see these guys run through your life and hurt you
I’m tired of seeing you hurt and feeling helpless to it
     This kills me.

I stay out.
Be emotionless Virginia, emotionless is the key
     This kills me.

It kills me because I know you know it hurts me
It kills me because I don’t want to feel this way
It kills me because I can’t help it although I’ve **** sure tried
It kills me because I don’t know what to do
It kills me because I’m slowly dying on the inside and each day it gets worse

I’m trying dear,
I really am.

That stupid hat.

I can't believe I brought it.
What am I, 12?

But I have to thank that stupid hat,
it brought me to you.

I really don't get it, honestly
How could you even stand to be around me?
But all in good time, you've made me understand
That this is going all according to plan.

You liked me, he loved me, he hated me, and I was ...
CONFUSED.

Should I blame you?
No.
Am I blaming you?
Yeah.

If it weren't for you I'd still have that **** hat.

I’m tired of being convenient for you
I’m not some toy for you to toss away when you’re through

I’m a person, a real human as it were
Maybe even a kitten, a playful ball of fur

How important to you am I exactly?
Not too much I assume matter of factly

One day I’ll snap out of this fantasy
That you actually truly will always love me

You see this secret side of me
Something I was never meant to be

With you I tried so hard to save this sacred place
But never getting there is my disgrace

Sometimes I feel like you’re watching me move
In and out but always and never to soothe

I wish I were lazy enough to do what I want
But alas I can never catch the ‘punt’

Syllabus to dexterous minus the outstanding wit
Equals my life with you and why I have this need to quit

A simple spot
On the dot

Hoity-toity
Love me never

Can’t give up
Don’t give a ****

Who you are
Or how far

Crazy duck
Tiny ****

Big cats
Last naps

Women floor
Who’s the *****?

Music to me
Death to bees

Can’t tell
Got mail?

Fall through grass
Nice ***

How to tell
Dude, it’s a Dell

Apple time
Tile grime

Falling faster
Lonely *******

Stop the flow?
You stubbed your toe

Going around.  Wasting my time but in a way that I don’t mind at all.
Should you care that I care?
                Would it matter at all that I see this look on your face and in your eyes?
                It baffles me in a puzzle-like way, which you hate.
                 ***** feelings.
                That’s what she said.

You see I go anywhere
Desperate for an answer yet
If I could stop to stare
Yet I feel it falling this net

To be all that I am and more
But no matter I can’t get
Past this swing hinged door
It locks out every piece and bit

My soul to you and only if
I could ever see me fit
To be only me and not rip
The hinges off this door for me
Where I stand and grace your hips

Against mine they fall to be
A clear, conscious part of me

When I think of that night
I have a sour taste in my mouth
You want me here and there but I can only take so much
I can only be here and only take so many punches
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I wish I was invincible so we could be together
Maybe it’s best that we aren’t
I wish that I could fight like you do
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

You say you care and you say you love
But I can’t see past your wall of mistrust
You want me to be a hero but that’s a wall I can’t get through
BECAUSE
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I’ve dealt and stayed for as long as I could
This can’t be the end for us
I don’t want to say this and I can’t believe I am
BUT
Sweetheart I’m no Superman

I’m loved and wanted now, needed
Cared for and let in to help like I should
I wanted you so bad
BUT NOW
Sweetheart, I’m her Superman

That’s all it took.
Just a heartbeat.
Words can make or break and she made
Everything
Smiling to no end
Can’t help but fall deeper into this chasm of love.

But hey love makes us do crazy things.
I will happily do this.
For me?
Yes.