I made up this world in my head.
At night it’s day and during the day its night again
I drift from day to day between each world
Sometimes I get jealous of the night and other times the day is my friend
I sometimes can’t tell where I am so if I make you uncomfortable during the day, I am sorry
I don’t mean to confuse the worlds but my dear it is so easy
I talk, think, and move as if it were real so why shouldn’t it be?
I’m not crazy
Just caught between the lines that separate you and I
That fine line between my dreams of reality and your nightmares of me

You sit in my lap when I look over to you with pitiful eyes
I wrap my arms around you and you wrap your hands in my tussled hair
After a long day, it was nice to come home to your arms and the taste of your soft lips

As I lay on the couch I turn to a random cartoon from my childhood
You lay in front of me and ask me all about it
I tell you about the time I got caught stealing cookies and you laugh because I still do that

When I hop in the shower you walk in and out asking me how work was
Until I feel you get in behind me and we have spur of the moment shower ***
Your spontaneity is your best quality and its **** when you make quick references in code in front of our friends

While brushing my teeth you stand behind me and we get into a water fight
I tackle you to the bed where you challenge me to a game
I always win the game

As I lay behind you in bed you roll over for a few minutes to talk
Your voice lulls me to sleep into my solitude where I dream of waking up to you
The last thing I hear before drifting off into the nighttime world is, “The speed limit is 25, my love.”

In this dream world with my mystery woman who I’ve seen on occasion
Everything is as it should be
Mystery woman... Can you please come back?

One day I will think
One day.
One day I will talk
One day.
One day I will do
One day.
One day I will be ok
...

...

...

To take this tortured, tangled test
Makes me mock my many marks
Leaving loathsome love letters
You yearn, yet yielded your yelping
Words with warnings wearing weapons
Lips like lovely lakes leading lowly leaves
Down doorways, driving dreary dreams
Away and abdicating abrasive accusations
Breaking but bowing breezes bark beatitudes
Simple songs sail seemingly softer seeing such symmetry
Carnage can’t conceal captivating culprits
Even eager enemies envy enormous egos
Fake falling faster from frightening fails
Having heart helps heroes
Greater gears going give gifts
Just jeer, justified

Because none of this makes sense to you anyway.

You’re my Calvin and I’m your Hobbes
You lead me to adventures that will change our lives as we know it
I follow, the faithful companion, always ready to assist in any way
During the day we plot the Yukon and sail the seven deadly seas
At night we fend off terrible monsters under the bed and the adults who try to ruin us
I never leave your side, and if I do you very well know where I am
Best friend no matter what, guardian until the bitter end
We stand tall together and have each others’ back
We are two of the best friends in the universe
No one has anything on us
The child at heart and the tiger in spirit
You think we’ll ever break apart?
Yeah... me either.

There is peace in silence
Solstice in my head
Accept to expect
No to know
Jump jive to drunk drive

Eyes, little and innocent but see all that can be seen
Ears so small, yet omnipotent in their own way
Paws that will one day shake the ground as he greets me
Tail that shows true emotion that can’t be faked
Teeth that remind you that, “If you need me mom, I’ll defend you... but in the meantime I can has treat?"
Fur that reminds me of my warmest and softest blanket
Nose that knows no bounds as to where it will lead him
Growl that will one day ward off monsters and all the ‘bad guys’
Bark that speaks to me clearer than most people I know
Sleep well my little friend, and may your dreams be as innocent as you are

Your friends love to ‘protect’ me
It’s sad that I don’t need ‘protecting’
If I did need ‘protection’

I would have bought a ******.

There he is, asleep in his house
There you are, asleep on my bed
just waiting for me

I smile because the sweet fragrance
of sweet lilies and passion
that lines your neck has already
permeated the room and it hits me as soon as I walk in

I lay behind you and wrap my arms around your
far too familiar waistline that my fingers
know far better than my logic should allow

You scoot farther into me knowing I’ll protect you
Protect you from the thems, hims, and occasional hers
You know I’d never let anything harm you because
my warm body behind you tells you

I reach for my Panda and when I turn back
I come to the harsh realization
that you put Everclear in my drink last night

It’s ok, it was a good dream anyway

This is a just war we’re fighting together
Somewhat of an accurate estimate of how we feel about each other
But still, we act naturally
Such a calm storm in the making
I mean, we are clearly confused, right?
I get that you’re simply defensively striking
Is there a random pattern here that I’m missing?
Or am I simply one of your deliberate mistakes?
It’s ok, I’ve come to a preliminary conclusion
Sweetheart we are the definition of typically unusual
And I will gladly **confirm the rumor

It’s so hard, my love
Hard to say, hard to tell
With you it’s something of a tale
Hard to say, hard to tell
The story of us
Hard to say, hard to tell
Sometimes I wish you could forget about me so you didn’t have to tell the stories
Hard to say, hard to tell
The stories that bring a slight twinge to your ears and eyes
Hard to say, hard to tell
I apologize that I’m difficult to get rid of
Hard to say, hard to tell

And the clouds moved more like smoke in the wind
than actual clouds

They painted my wordless emotions across a starry night
only to tell my untold story

My eyes traced their subtle patterns across the sky
and I realized that they traveled longer than I

Each burst of stars further than the one before it
and far more familiar than the first

For in this starry night I saw your starry eyes
and I came to the conclusion I wouldn’t have noticed this without you

Thank you for making me see my starry night
and I will repay you with my nighttime soul of this starry wanderer

Red light
Far too bright for my taste
Captain and Coke
Far too light for my taste
Ion oscillating fan
Far too cold for my taste
My raggedy car
Far too old for my taste
Battlefield 3 in action
Far too gamer for my taste
My thoughts of you
Far too ... Perfect

I hate that I have so many words floating around my head
and I
just can’t
seem
to put
them
together
to let
you
know
exactly how I feel

Fingers slide through my short, damp hair and
Grab.
A slight twinge of revenge comes with a grasping of your ribcage
Air is in short supply in this room because you’re gasping for it
Your bare skin is intoxicating and flawless as my mouth sails across it
Ruby lips, soft and wet embrace my neck as your teeth join in
I pull your warm body closer so I can have complete control as I wrap my arms and surround you
Your bare chest is so inviting, so my mouth meets them in a slow, seductive motion
Gasp.
My tongue moves farther down yet to your beautiful smooth stomach that I oh so enjoy nibbling
Backs are rolling, hips are shifting because you know my next stop
I open your pale thighs and start at the knee where my lips slowly kiss every inch of you
I have settle between your powerful legs that jokingly attempt to choke me out
Elbows down, head down as well
Nails scrape my bare skin and I move in deeper, as if that were possible
Grab and gasp.
My neck makes a perfect target for your hands because they thought of nothing else to grab
The gasps become more frequent as do the grabs and scrapes
Next target
I slide in ever so easily because my work is evident
Grab.
You pull me in for a kiss so you’ll be quiet because there are guests in the house
It’s funny to see you try so hard
You wrap those strong legs around my waist and your arms around my burly neck to hold on for dear life
Bursts of ecstasy and desire flow through the room and we can’t stop for anything or anyone
As you turn over I can’t help but notice your beautiful and captivating....
eyes.
Through the dark room they beg me not to stop
Once again my task of pleasing you is far from over
Your smooth and graceful back is staring at me so I lean down to meet it with lips and teeth
More gasping and those glorious sounds escape from your mouth which let me know of my next target
Breathing is still flowing, however blood is not
You’re in your own high little world and our rocking motion becomes more fierce
Profanities and carbon dioxide escape your mouth as you collapse under me
I undress and slide into bed with you, our bare bodies as one
My fingers intertwined in yours, steady and calm
I wrap my arm around your waist but only for a few minutes before I can’t resist drawing on your back
First a house, then a tree, then I wrote my name, and then yours
Your steady breathing indicates you are asleep so I curl my arm back under yours and listen to the heartbeat of the mystery woman which sounds somewhat familiar
But I can’t place it
Oh well

I have always felt
like you would be
the one to come my
way and tell me that
you are always going to
come to my side
whenever
I needed it the most and
have always been
my own worst enemy although I have to
hand it to you, you
slided in and have since then been
on my mind a lot from
your point of view but it’s ok I’m a
smooth glider, sailing through
flawless waters just to get
back to you and tell you

that multiple meaning can be taken from everything so be careful how you read things because you never know what is lurking in our first words, my love.

Why does the sun rise and the moon set
Or the words said and the promise kept
That look in your eye that you try to hide
You know, where your feelings heavily lie

Opinions about the world, but not us
Because to you...
I am indescribable.

10 times I tried to say everything I wanted but
9 days went by before I saw those beautiful eyes and decided that
8 minutes was far too long to keep you waiting so I hopped on
7th street and flew to your house only to leave at
6 that morning because I had
5 million things going on in my head such as why you would stay with me until
4 in the morning just to keep me but the
3rd thing I knew about was that I was way
2 young to even hope for someone like you so I settled with the number
1 and decided I was better off searching the world and settling for someone who didn’t make my heart go
0-60 every time I even saw them but I stayed
1 more night and then before I knew it 2 months later I’m moving
2 your new house and there are
3 animals except I decided you were better off be-
4 you met me so I went running until about
5 that morning and you called me frantic about where I was so I said **** it and on the
6th of the month asked you to marry me and without hesitation you decided
7 was a good number so
8 weeks later we got hitched and
9 years later I remember how much I decided that
1 x infinity days could never be enough to spend with the girl I had to settle with because you thought you weren’t good enough for me when in all actuality we’re both pretty ****** up so instead of one not being good enough for the other how about we are just equal but you’re far more attractive than me so you could do better but we’ll talk about that later over dinner.

Daddy,
     I caught this fish just like you showed me.
Daddy,
     I can do it by myself... oh wait... ok maybe not.  Thanks for helping me.
Daddy,
     I’m nine, so that means I can get 15 dollars for my chores and not 10... right?
Daddy,
     I love my puppy.  I think I’ll name him Champ.  Cause he’s my Champion just like you.
Daddy,
     I’m not crying cause it hurt... ok... maybe I am.  You can hug me as long as you want.
Daddy,
     Thanks for taking me to get my license.   Don’t worry I won’t drive too much.  Today.
Daddy,
     I know my Drum Major uniform is expensive... thanks for buying it anyway.
Daddy,
     I know he broke up with me but you can call off your buddies from his house.  You’re the only man in my life.
Daddy,
     Thanks for helping me learn how to change the oil in my car.
Daddy,
     I’ll be home around midnight.  Don’t worry about me, I’ll be with Paige.  Thanks for the extra movie money.
Daddy,
     I’m sorry I can’t stay in this house with mom.  She’s going to be the death of me.  Oh... you too?
Daddy,
     I found a great place to live and you’ve always liked Paige... she’s me roommate.  Love you too.
Daddy,
     Thanks for getting the rest of my stuff together.  I’ll come see you soon and rescue you from mom like you always rescued me from the monsters in my closet.
Daddy,
     What do you mean you don’t remember me moving out?
Daddy,
      Please... please don’t leave me alone in this world.

All of us have those days...
I had one of them yesterday
Wanted to just lay down and sleep forever
Was going to visit an old friend, but he was dull
You stopped me by saying my name

Because I remembered that you need me
Of all the selfish things I’ve done, that was the worst
You said you forgive me

In the end, it’s still my fault
The very basis of my time is now meaningless
End it please, I can’t watch you suffer like this

The phone calls asking me where I am
Silence is all I hear in my head when she talks

In time all I wish for you is peace
The time I’ve had with you is never enough
Mourning you will **** me

Did everything in my fragile mind to keep you alive
My life isn’t honestly worth it without you here
Time will **** me if they don’t first

You’re funny
     I’m not
You look beautiful
    I don’t
You can even rock drag
     I can’t rock either gender
You’d never glance across the smoke at me and laugh
     because I’m not hilarious
I mean, you kind of had me at the lip-sync
     but I know you never looked in my eyes
Even when you took the five out of my hand and ran yours up my arm
     I still would never impress someone like you
But **** girl, you looked amazing in all of the mirrors

I’m so, so sorry for everything that has gone wrong in your life.
I’m so, so sorry that you feel alone.
I’m so, so sorry that there are days that you can’t cope with life because you are practically dead.
I’m so, so sorry for the person that completely ripped you to pieces.
I’m so, so sorry for all of it.
Last but not least I am so, so sorry that you think you aren’t worth it to someone.
Because you are.
You are always worth it to someone.
You’re worth it to me.
So please don’t cry, although I know you see me far clearer through the tears falling from your eyes.

So I got this card
in the mail you see
“To: Virginia”
Pretty as can be

I opened the card
with a half-assed smile
only to see
a number to dial

I picked up my phone
and with much despair
dialed my girlfriend
whose number was there

“I think it’s you
and definitely not me.
I’m fairly sure
we weren’t meant to be.”

As I hung up the phone
with a smile on my face
I thought of some blackmail
of her in lace

My puppy dreaming
by my side
You won’t be ready
for this ride

It was a bad idea
to break up with me
And now in time
you shall see

I’m kind of a *****
when it comes to you
I really don’t care
what the hell I do

As long as in the end
I see you cry
And I’ll tilt my hat
With a satisfactory sigh

I don’t hate today
as you see
I just toss some arsenic
in their tea

I’m glad you’re in love
I mean, it’s really plain to see
With your Facebook stati
and obnoxious deeds

Finally one girl
got it right
and bought me a puppy
for all my lonely nights

She knew that I
didn’t need a card or flowers
I just needed
a friend who sat next to my shower

Although this girl
can’t compare
her bright evening eyes
and wind-blown hair

She didn’t send me
that horrid card
she simply reminded me
that life is hard

She didn’t leave me
to fend for myself
she instead put my ego
on a slightly higher shelf

Although I loved that other
card-sending *****
I’m fairly certain
that you’re it

My Valentine’s Day wish
come alive in my room
across the hall
next to the food

So to everyone else
who is lonely on the day
I say to you
Don’t be swayed

I found my girl
in a different type wrapping
You can always find yours
But don’t ever be sappy

This girl is at class
taking tests, and passing life
I’m sitting in my room
as high as a kite

Not high on ****
or any other type drug
As cheesy as this is
I’m completely high on love

I asked you a question...
Something like,
“Will you marry me and cook for me every day?”
You replied.
“No. I will not cook for you every day.”
With a hell yeah and a smirk on my face
I’ll take that as well

And I go to bed


Alone.

I loved you
I gave you everything
I protected you
I opened up every part of me to you

You hate me
You took everything
You left me vulnerable
You made me close myself up again

Yet, I still can’t hate you

3 and 40 you described to me
What a strange number, attached to thee
A 20 here and a 18 there
Never for love, all for dare
Moving faster, slowing down
Wearing despair as my crown
You can’t help me so don’t even try
Your lips keep moving through your lie
You loved me then, you hate me now
We had a great run, take a bow
Move on in life as the others have
And leave me here, no longer sad

My feeble attempts are no match
My firm grasps do better
Tonight would you like me to be rough or gentle?
Maybe even a mixture.
I’m good at that.
Bare skin, intoxicating aromas, and blackened bruises
My lips venture from knee to inner thigh
They take a trip farther between your pale legs until I reach my destination
Your nails in the back of my arm tell me I have arrived
A slow rise from your lower back that moves down your spine
That sound.  Oh my.  That glorious sound.
It isn’t much but it sends my sense reeling into a cataclysmic eruption of desire
Lust overtakes my sense of gentleness and your ribs make for a perfect target
Forgive me for the fingerprints I leave, for it was too hard to control myself
Profanities are my friend coming from your mouth as your hand slides carefully to my mangled hair
But careful is not your plan now is it?
Grab. Pull. Yank. Once again sending my senses into an unending ring of ecstasy
As you breathe in and your body flexes in and out I realize that we both have reached ******
I pause. You **** with a slight after-shock. Still grasping my arm. Nails dig deeper but soon relax
I lay motionless on top of your bare chest.  The most comforting place I’ve ever known
Feeling and hearing the heartbeat of my lover.

And then I awoke from my dream
Only to find myself alone
And ***** as ****

When I feel you curl next to me into a small ball,
I’m thinking about how I forgot to put the dishes up.
     And her.
When you wrap your fingers in my mangled hair,
I’m thinking about what I ate for breakfast that morning.
     And her.
When you slide your lips up and down my neck,
I’m thinking about how I prefer how she bites, not slides.
     And her.
When you attempt to connect with me in a ‘passionate’ kiss,
I’m thinking about how much I miss that smell along her neckline that drives me insane.
     And her.
When you sit and tell me that you’re ****** up,
I think of how the crazy position in my life has already been filled.
     And her.
Like I said this isn’t really fair to you,
and then I remember that I really wanted to **** her last night.
     And not you.

I brought a nice girl over, you see
Multi this and that but not for me

It made you cringe at the slightest thought
Another look from me you outright sought

Embarrassed was I to look at you
Without that look you already knew

Why this nice girl was in my bed
Not nice words you would have said

We toss and turn, no not you and I
But that thought constantly crossed your mind

How far did I get and how stupid I am
You’re my Shepard and me the lamb

My tongue did not go where you thought it did
The bathroom I did go, my five minute bid

That should have been your sign for you to know
My lips did not cross and my fingers didn’t go

Please forgive me love, I really am sorry for this
For Shallow is my middle name.

The music sails across my ears, not in.
Sail.
Blame it on my ADD baby.
Odd is what this is.
I went in the kitchen looking for Papa Johns.
And you.
I only found a closed computer and empty counter.
I guess you heard the music too?

I’m standing outside
     your door
I don’t hear your usual breathing because now
     a door separates us
My normal night I would apologize except
     that **** door is in the way
A simple piece of wood is the reason why,
     a door, for lack of better words
My heart can’t really take much more and neither
     can this **** door

I dance.

Dance

Dance

What do you want me to do?
What words do you want me to say?
What course of action should I take ma’am?

I dance around you endlessly.
Don’t worry, I’m not stopping anytime soon.

I want Orion on my shoulder
He always looks so lonely up in the stars
Even the Big Dipper isn’t near him
He is surrounded by many constellations that I’m sure mock him for his position
He chased her into the night sky
He’s still chasing
Being a constellation hasn’t gotten him down
I’m not a constellation, but I know how he feels
Orion - keep going for all the lonely romantics of the world and give them hope
As you did for me
So long ago

My finger glaze the tops of each seemingly tall mountain
They are soft to the touch but far deeper than I choose to recognize
Each stroke must be in an exact measure to ensure that the melody flows
The sounds are perfect in every way
Some I think about on a constant basis and crave to make my hands produce them again
Caution is wise when improvising
It’s impressive and can bring about wonderful new worlds
But strike a note out of the key and some worlds may shatter
Recover.
Safe.
Once again I drag my hand across the endless space of the pages
I still find myself going over old music and perfecting it in my mind
That is until the true melody sits in front of me and plays with my mind
Teasing and taunting until it becomes my new song
That is, until it happens again and the new melody will quickly replace it

Once your fault, always your fault
I can’t seem to get away from this demon
It’s haunted me for some time now
Even when I thought it was over, the demon returns
A thorn in my side and a pain in my ***...
You know that feeling.

Total.
Complete.
Blame.

A look can tell you a lot of things.
Between lover and haters... or even those maybe laters
Suffocate or dislocate, procreate or...
Not.

Is life really that simple?
The literal hammer-time or a coke with lime
Friendly fire or boy for hire to do your...
Dishes.

Not complicated at all.
Can we really look into the eyes of our lover and see all that we wish to happen?
Or is it a simple diversion, conversion into...
Nothingness.

I tend to see it simply.
I care about you, we like to **** and otherwise **** on...
Lollipops.

Take out of it what you will, but I’m not going to change or leave
I like it here, hunting deer, and smelling fear in
Love.

I’m not the first, or the last
I’m in your present, not your past
I hope that there’s a place for me
Far in the future, I can see
Dysfunctional we are indeed
No warning do we ever heed

You know that one single moment...
the one moment where you wouldn’t change anything about, well, anything?
I don’t have that moment.

That’s my life.

My taste in music *****
Some days I can’t get through Warriors of Rock
Sometimes I can’t even cook the Ramen right,
    you still interested?
I have a hole in the right ***-cheek of my favorite shorts
Family Guy is my favorite show
I hog the blankets when I cuddle
     still interested?
I don’t get angry, instead I get super passive aggressive
I think that the law is over-rated but I follow it regardless
Sometimes I zone out so bad that I miss entire conversations
     you sure you still interested?
I love watching musicals and independent films
I work in retail and make minimum wage
Some days I want to ****.  A lot.
     haven’t run away yet?  Wow.
Other days I like to just curl into a ball and pretend to fall asleep
I think you’re sexiest without make-up
Although, I don’t mind it on you at all
     I can’t believe you’re still here...
I use AXE shower gel and wash my hair daily
I’m insane.  Literally.
I think Star Wars is the ****.  If you don’t, we aren’t meant to be
     Oh, you stepped toward the door...
I don’t sleep and when I do I think of her
I wear my heart and my mind on my sleeve
And I can’t seem to let go
     yeah... I didn’t think you’d stay.

I can’t apologize enough for your situation
Hillary Swank is definitely not one of my favorite actors.
Michael Buble hasn’t met you yet apparently either
River can’t wait for you to get home and neither can I
Does it get tiring reading poems about you?
Can’t help it, but I’ll try my hardest dear
If you were a Jedi, your lightsaber would be green
One O’ Clock isn’t my best time

I  
  can’t  think
or     do     like
     this     but     I
will     try     my     hardest
     to     be     what     you     need
in      life     and     such     not     so
     please     don’t    leave     me    here
alone     in     the     dark     where     I’ve  
     been     for     so     long      that     I     can’t
even     remember     who     I     really     am     anymore
     and     even     though     this     doesn’t     make     any     sense
to    you    it     makes      perfect      to     everyone     else     who     knows
     that      you     saved      me     from     everything     I     never     was     and
never     wanted     to     be      because     in      all      actuality     you     are     the
     most     important     thing     in     my     life      and     always     have     been     but
you     just     never     knew     that     because     it     doesn’t    make     sense     for      a
     beauty     like     you     to     fall     in     love     with     a     beast     like     me     but     still

I am completely, irrevocably, inescapably, conclusively, and forever in love with you and for that, I apologize.

All I Wanted
     Was to see the laced end of your wit brush against my sarcasm
Someone Like You
     To put me back in my box of insecurity, just to break me out again
Without You
     It’s hard to imagine that.  Actually, I can’t imagine that.  So don’t kid about it
In The End
     We’ll know what happened when we could’ve taken advantage of our time together
How To Love
     You taught me the best and the hardest parts.  Even taught me how to get past it
You and Me
     Could’ve been great.  Scratch that, we are great.  Labels can’t touch us
When You Got A Good Thing
     You shouldn’t let it go.  So don’t let me go, ever
Alone I Break
     Until you pick me up and tell me that I’ll be ok
Walk Away
     I’m not good for you.  Even you know that, yet you ignore it anyway.  Lame
My Life Would **** Without You
     Self. Explanatory
I Kissed A Girl
     Yeah, you remember all of that ;)
Again
     **All my words have no bearing on the feelings that course through my veins for you.  I can’t even put my words to use

I draw on your back, you play with my hair
I take a shower, you stretch endlessly on the bed
I try not to look, but **** girl
I can’t exactly hide this ****-eating grin on my face
It’s a good thing you don’t notice... ****.
Oh well, back to the old drawing board
I come out, you stretch again
All I see is pure... beauty.
Staring me in the face.
You like when I notice that.
Star Wars shirt before I go to work with no underwear on?
******.
Now you’re just trying to **** my **** up ...
And today I’ll be at work...
Thinking...
About how hot of a roommate I have...
and ******* STAR WARS.

Night number ... ****.
I get it, I’m done for in your eyes.
Please stop doing this to me.
I’m serious.
Don’t drag me along through everything.
This isn’t how I want this to end.
Sleepless night number ... ****.
Why?
Why?


******* why?

The moon does in fact, hang as high as it used to.
I meet eyes with Orion and I take a glance and the dipper.
Each to their own I said to myself, each to their own.
Flat ball.
******.
Need to buy and actual soccer ball.
I have a feeling this won’t be the first of these long nights.
The ground is wet, I didn’t make the goal.
Not that I was good at soccer anyway, or at least the active part of soccer.
Oh, well maybe if I spend countless days on the couch I’ll fade away.
Not that you’d notice.
Never.
Laughing while I was gone in misery, eh?
I will make second base my home.
Anywhere away from this madness.

What is happening to me?
My lips tingle in anticipation
and my stomach has butterflies, as usual.
My eyes wander, but not very far
and I slip into a thoughtful coma about how good this will taste.
Oh, hot wings.  I love you.

I believe in you, yes I do
I believe in Mountain Dew
I can’t quite say how or why
I can’t quite do it or I’ll die
You want me here but I can’t stay
I know for a fact I’m a really good lay
Take your drink to the other room
Or else my ego will spell your doom
Go **** around with your new guy friend
I’m no longer going to race or contend
I’m drunk right now, as you can see
So please be nice when I cease to be

I can’t quite figure it out.
I’m standing here all alone, I’ve had approximately 5 heavy mixed drinks.
Still not drunk, just buzzed enough to notice how lonely I am.
I met eyes with the dog.
He told me it was ok.
Whether that was the alcohol or my imagination, I don’t know.
I’m glad you’re happy.
I’m not though.
It’s tough.


Being me.




Because that means I’m...








Forever alone.