It’s like every time
I look at you
Nothing more than good flashbacks ensue
To way back when
It could’ve been us two
Until that day
I left from you

It’s true
I’ve had dreams of you
I mean you could’ve been my boo

It’s true
I did cry for you
You cried for me too
So what could I do?

It’s true
I fell in love with
I felt you loved me too
But if not that’s you

But to speak pure truth
My dreams of you
Sparked new desires too
Desires brought need
Those need were you
So if you need me
I’ll stand right here

Truthfully…
I’ll stand right by you…

I never thought I’d say this
But you wasted my time
Through all we said & did
Marriage was just a lie
You should have just told me
I wasn’t for you
Slight changes in me
Are still unclear it’s true
After all you said
You’d just leave me now
But my whole family
Will say I let you down
From depressed to obsessed
In forty-three flat
Obsessed turned to love
I want to send it back
Fake love, true pain
Caged dove, scattered brain
Broken heart, bleeding veins
In the dark is where I’ll stay

I regret letting you go
Just thought you should know
I don’t think I’ll take you back
Cause my regrets hurt that bad

You are the air I breathe
& the water I drink
I mean you are my dreams
& all that makes me
Better yet my completion
My protection from regression
The smile I show
& the light of my soul
In a simplistic meaning
You can be called one thing
Because what you are to me they truly don’t see
That you, my boo, are “all the good in me”

i've seen your wings
i've witnessed your love
of you my heart sings
to be free like a dove

as i wholeheartedly gaze
at this dreamscape called love
the world couldn't change
my blessings from above

As a reborn young man
or an awakened sleeper
for you i will stand
protecting you from danger

as strong as i am
i'm nothing alone
the woman i have
is what make me whole

my family believes
your what's best for me
amongst other things
you've recreated me

in the past i've lied
and broke plenty of dreams
but this time i'll try
to make this dream gleam

(this poems out of context)
(sounds nothing like me)
(so let me take a rest)
(while you see what i see)

*deep breath
cleared thoughts
finish the rest
now what will be brought?

Okay...

back in the past
i just flirted with you
i didn't move fast
and i didn't get through

as time went by
you began to realize
you had caught my eye
but i took to much time

i got sent to a group home
and dreams of us died
as far as was known
that was our goodbye

the visits began
and our paths crossed again...
though i wasn't the same
i had the feelings from then

we walked to the store
i made small talk
conversation was a bore
and that was my fault

i had to ask you
and i'm happy i did
i hoped that from you
i'd hear what i did

upon one month
3 words were said
they really packed a punch
but they still play in my head

my response was the same
oh... and about that first kiss...
there's really nothing to say
except the feeling is missed

in the time i spend
away from you
weekly damages mend
at the sight of you

so what i'm trying to say
is you've rebuilt my spirit
you're my main thought day by day
it's just now that you hear it...

I love you

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
The rhythm of my heart’s been established…
As my mind synchronizes to the tempo of my emotions
My Symphony Of Emotion Begins…

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
Conducting this masterpiece is cautiously managed
Every belief has a unique impression
My Quartet of Passion Begins To Play

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
…The Tempo’s Slowing
Let’s Add a nice kick
Through Devotions Blowing

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
To Keep Our Place
The Vocals Of Love
Come Into Play

Tic… toc …Tic… toc… Tic… toc…
Keep the metronome’s Tempo
Move This Melody Forward
Before The tempo of the metronome slows down…

What good is a day when nothing goes right
When your hopes & prayer do nothing at all
The dreams & schemes in your mind run irrelevant
& the love from another seems nowhere near passionate

What good is a day of falsely proclaimed love
And those you had feelings for give purely faux hugs
As a kiss leads to pain & a heart drops cold
While a deceptive love is what’s plagued your soul

What good is a day when hope falls forlorn
And the happiness you knew has morphed into scorn
While confusion, disdain, & pain are abundant
And your rage fueled question is a silent “who done it”

Why live a day full of painful emotions
An Emotional stress that can shatter devotion
Darkness and hatred harboring a lie
As the mind opens up one wishes to die

What good is a day when it all falls amiss
When your thoughts are deceived as you prepare to run
In reality the truth to this problem is
The only things wrong are those you haven’t done

Inhale….
Take with this breath the people who you love
Exhale…
Release the problems that their putting on your heart
Inhale…
Picture yourself flying freely like a dove
Exhale…
And remove you’re thoughts of entrapment in the dark
Inhale…
Taking in all those you truly love
Exhale…
Free yourself from those who broke your heart
Inhale…
Taking in the warmth of lips touching while you hug…
Exhale…
Freeing thoughts of that one setting you down in the dark
Now Inhale…
Hold it… Hold it… Now Think…
“As I Exhale What Good Will be left here for me?”