I love you.
Theres nothing more to say
To add anything
would be like
cutting an arm away.

I love you
No buts
Thats all i can say.

Life works in mysterious ways
One moment it gives you everything you want
and just as quickly takes it away.

Life choices
mistakes are made
we all have to own up to it at the end of the day

I love you
I love you
Day after Day
I trust in my path
and pray
that one day
may our lifes smile upon us
and bring us back together
one day

To lie to my face?
To break the promises and boundaries
we made for both our sakes?
trust is lost
You say I'm your true love
im worth fighting for
but as soon as I'm out of sight,
your actions show a delight
at taking what you want
cause **** his feelings, right?

Sweet words, with no action to back
I've waited too long
given too much
without receiving what i needed back
I dont regret being with you
for your my first true love
it just disappoints me
what you've chosen to become

I tried to keep our paths tied together as one
but what i've learned
tells me that it cant be done
because love that isnt given freely
will surely become undone

Silently I lay my head
on your warm welcoming thigh
using it as a pillow
In your heart i confide
my deepest thoughts and feels
I tell you what scares me most
you smile
kiss me deeply
and say it'll be all right

The dawn light breaks through
the morning drops of dew
that accumulate outside my window
as consciousness breaks through
with lingering thoughts of you
Every morning its a litter easier
realizing im not with you

Dreams tease me while i sleep
brining you back to me
I cant seem to shake you off
you've driven yourself deep

My heart, and memories
they are what i have left
of a time of self discovery
Love blossoming within ourselves

Your a teacher, like me
and i hope one day
we will both see
that the way things happened
brought us both more happiness
then we will ever need

What a marvelous thing it is
to be alive and to feel.
To take a deep breath
to take in a vast field.
The field from which we feel is one of our own sowing
So fear not what your reap,
but celebrate your keep.

Trying times make a harvest seem daunting,
like a summers worth of planting has come up to nothing
just keep watering and digging
so your flowers can see light

Our feelings are much like these flowers
Beautiful and strong
who shine brighter everyday
if allowed to express their way
without needing to have it your way
but rather just wanting you to have a picnic today
among their vast fragrances

The lesson here from amongst the flowers
is to be still, and listen for hours
the song they sing is for you alone to hear
they speak of your triumphs, your woes and fears
accept their song
because
its truly your own voice you hear

So pick a bouquet of flowers
Roses and Tulips too
accept the healing grace of love
that grows inside of you

This darkness inside me
doesn't seem to want to go
its created a den inside
next to where i keep my hope

Seeping up through cracks
that weren't there before
Memories of a time gone past
feed the monster more

This darkness inside me
its a creation of my own
A being of light
not ment to fight
hides underneath its cloak

This darkness inside me
wears a mask of smoke, and mirrors
using it to slowly feed on my own fears
Relentlessly persistant
just like my mind
I hope that one day soon
I will unmask this being of mine

When will it leave?
It's been suffocating me.
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A weight bears down on top of me
my heart doesn't escape
Its also under me
squeezing
debilitating my ability to create.
cant relate
its getting late
Im not sure of how much more i can take
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I worked all day, and thought it was gone
as soon as im released
the pressure that was absolved
begins to intensify
and destroy my resolve
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My question my reader
is when does it stop?
Heartache shouldn't last more than 9 months
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You work on yourself,
busy your life.
I found that it works
but this time its not all right.
I let her back in
just for a minute.
When she left again
I wasn't surprised, i admit it
but now i feel wrong
like im an idiot
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No change in habit
No love expressed through concern
Why do I hope for love
from someone
who only makes me feel perturbed?

*is there something wrong with me?

SHUT UP
empty your mind
While you were too busy moping
Opportunity passed you by

Listen
Pay attention
start living in this moment in time
all we have is now
so make it divine!

Heart full of hope, aspiring above the clouds
Enchanted by winds of change, entranced by shapely form
Fulfilled by ones own whole, without need for another's soul
But a desire which one day meets fruition

Heart full of hope, know new light brings new life
An oyster to those who desire to aspire to reach their desire
A symphonie of emotion expressed through a devotion to ones own self
Heart full of hope, take a leap of faith
Take what is truly yours
Love every mistake

Heart full of hope, help me stay strong along the way
the path is long and treacherous
please help
light my way

Take the challenges that face you in stride
Of the heart, or of the mind; any challenge can be overcome by your own divine light
Be confident, know you deserve it
To live true to your heart, to be earnest
You know what you need to do, and though it may feel cruel
The highest good for yourself
will do everyone good

All i wanna do is write
scream into the night
right the wrongs
win the fight

Abuse this canvas
give it licking
it will taste
the horrors
I've been inflicting

Bite your nose
to spite your face
Needless anger just makes you hate
The goal in mind
is inner tranquility
acceptance of the facts
without hostility

Judge not yourself
when anger shows its face
just let loose the cannons
out into space
so that you may
put love
back
into its place
~

were the chances i gave you
hoping for a change
I find it strange
when you say i love you, I've grown and changed
yet, you do the same

One too many times
i let you back in
blinded by what i wanted
ignorant to what was in front of me

One too many times
I put my heart on the line
knowing i was risking damnation
just to see you smile
all the while, feeding a hope
of a life not yet lived
of growing old

One too many
I can't ignore
the screaming coming from my soul
I must stand up
and say no more

One too many
promises left broken
one too many
days consumed by emotion
I gave you more than one too many
Now all that i can do
is let you go

Crawling from your insides out
cant seem to figure it out
overturned and overrated
unneeded thoughts permeated
Doubt can consume if you let it
Gotta believe it'll be better
let it go, let it be
You just need to let yourself
be free

Walking down a shady grove
trees shimmer in twilights fading plight
a warm breeze caresses your body, embracing your whole
walking alone, but not at all lonely

Twilight fades into a bright night
full of stars dancing with one another
joyful in their delight
A small smile of satisfaction
a natural reaction
of the present moment

Embrace all that is, the here and now
let it wash over you and relieve your frown
Need not be haunted by past transgressions,
or be fearful of the future, of ones own expectations.
Accept all the good,
that is our birthright
Embrace love
your own inner light
<3

It seems to me
that heartache,
heartbreak,
the incessant presence
laying in your stomach
are a cry
to moments stuck in time

The Best of Times
The worst of Times
it all seems so relative
I think of when we had each other
everything else didn't matter.
We could lose ourselves
in each others
warm embrace
and let the days fad away

Those times are gone now
broken apart.
Unable to suture this fracture
thats cascaded through my heart.
Plagued by memories
im thankful to have
How blessed am I
to have experienced something so grand
To see us rise
and fall
Now all i wish is to understand

The Best of Times are yet to come
for love never ceases
You will always be a part of my life
even if its only in my memory

The twinkle of stars illuminates infinity
A breeze flows through your core
turning the Mill of your heart
Eyes focused out
reflecting back
Yourself
Caught up in a romance,
a dance,
with Illusion
Refocus and recenter
Be still
Honor the wholeness
at ones center

Clouds dance through white light
a full moon *****, above a winters night
a low hum from a shakuhachi directs the grand display
Breath giving life to motion

Raindrops camouflage tears, washes away darkened fear
A puff of smoke carries intent to air, cleansed and accepted by the full moons glare
Rain hits like feathers kissing your face, washing away the sorrow from another tales fate
This melancholy mood will one day pass, but keep your memories near
for all those memories will become lost in time
like
tears in the rain
<3

Does a tree beg a bird to stay
perched upon its branches
afraid that it may fly away one day?
Does it allow the bird do as birds do
and love it as it makes nest for a day?
Perched upon my branches, many have been
lovers and friends alike
their all akin to kin
Some reside in my trunk, tucked closely to my core
others on my longest branches, ready to explore.
All of them free to leave, but few freely stay
I give to them the light of my love, blessing them every way
The branches that litter my roots are lessons long gone by
clipped by birds whom I was afraid to let free
remembrance to birds tied down
will surely break free
Let it be
fear not of lost love
but love kept in captivity

Letting go can seem such a task
when you feel so stuck in the past
Breathe deeply, feel the present
The gift of life is ever evident
Raise your eyes so you can plainly see
Absolution from injustice
begins by honoring the love behind its plea
Feel it
Breathe it
Forgive your Foe
Because life is a mirror
It wants to be freed
Let go