The man of life upright, whose guiltless heart is free
From all dishonest deeds and thoughts of vanity:
The man whose silent days in harmless joys are spent,
Whom hopes cannot delude, nor fortune discontent;
That man needs neither towers nor armor for defense,
Nor secret vaults to fly from thunder's violence:
He only can behold with unaffrighted eyes
The horrors of the deep and terrors of the skies;
Thus scorning all the care that fate or fortune brings,
He makes the heaven his book, his wisdom heavenly things;
Good thoughts his only friends, his wealth a well-spent age,
The earth his sober inn and quiet pilgrimage.

You keep to yourself
You don't let anything out
You let few people in
Your trust is a gift; close to no one receives
I had it once
I heard your deepest thoughts
Your darkest secrets
Those not even your best friend knew
I cherished every word
From the anxiety, to your God complex
I remember it all
But now, I don't even hear your greeting
Where did you go?
Please, say something.

I will never regret holding your hand
How can I regret something I once wanted so bad
And if you think the broken memories and promises are collateral damage then you are wrong
I never asked you for love poems or songs
All I wanted was to hold your hand and when I did it felt like thousands of tiny sun splashes were dancing in my eyes my lips and oh my god my thighs
I will never regret because regret in this case is weak
It would defy and soil the what seemed like a bright future
Yes I do not regret but that does not mean the fights were something I looked forward to
The Godzilla like monster I turned into every time you would crawl under my skin because you knew oh you knew
You knew that I liked tea with milk and if you step on my foot I will have to step on yours
You knew too much and yet nothing at all because that’s what it was supposed to be
We would go on yelling sprees over specks of dust
But in everything we did there was a lingering presence of lust and with that always an element of mistrust
It would gnaw on my nerves and rip out cords of my patience
The necessity to repeat, repeat, repeat the conversations made them looooong and tedious
And somehow we didn’t notice how it became so serious
And when we became ignorant we started to fade
Slowly but surly we obeyed the laws of disappearing
One missed call, two unread text messages, three kisses from a stranger
And just like that you disappear.

I write for you
I found your note
I was so blue
But then your wrote
A few words so new

I hope all is well
I take back the pain
For when I tell
I have nothing to gain

Still in agony I lay
Craving things I can't
And then I pray
As I know I shan't
Drink on such a day
Feeling tiny as an ant

Broken, I do lie awake
Painful is my heart
My thoughts linger at a lake
Where I gave said heart

Sleep will not come
The pain does not ease

Please call me, my dear friend

I feel as though
You left a void
In the spot where you stood
Next to me
Whether in line for lunch
Or a movie
Or on a drive
In the afternoon
You are everywhere I go
Except you aren't
You are gone now
But I suppose
You are everywhere I go
Because you aren't

and even though we speak in the same language
we are worlds apart
and how i wish that i
could be the one
to warm your tired heart
i wish my words could chill your bones
but maybe our paths
aren't meant to intertwine
but your words tear me limb from limb
they are the ocean that i'm sinking in
and i THOUGHT that i knew how to swim
but your ocean is violent: grim.

Broken~
You broke me more than once. You played me and my emotions.  You led me on. You left me broken left to pick up the pieces. At first I tried to pick them up. Then I realized that I was only hurting myself. You left me shattered. It took me awhile to get back up on my feet. But guess what I did. I picked up the pieces and put them back together without you. You never truly cared. I should've listened to my friends. But I didn't and now I have learned. Once you saw I was gone, you had a change of heart. You only wanted me back cause I was happier with someone else. You saw I could move on and go without you.  You tried to pull me back. Back into the pain I felt. You scared me. But I'm not going to let you pull me back or hold me back anymore. I'm done with all your games you play. I'm moving on and going on with my life. You've taught me how strong I really am not just physical but emotionally and mentally. You made me a stronger person. So for that I thank you for helping me learn and making me stronger than I was before. So Ive moved on you're just apart of my past. I have the future in my hands.
~ You may have broken me, but I've gotten back up. And moved on~