All i wanna do is write
scream into the night
right the wrongs
win the fight

Abuse this canvas
give it licking
it will taste
the horrors
I've been inflicting

Bite your nose
to spite your face
Needless anger just makes you hate
The goal in mind
is inner tranquility
acceptance of the facts
without hostility

Judge not yourself
when anger shows its face
just let loose the cannons
out into space
so that you may
put love
back
into its place
~

When will it leave?
It's been suffocating me.
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A weight bears down on top of me
my heart doesn't escape
Its also under me
squeezing
debilitating my ability to create.
cant relate
its getting late
Im not sure of how much more i can take
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I worked all day, and thought it was gone
as soon as im released
the pressure that was absolved
begins to intensify
and destroy my resolve
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My question my reader
is when does it stop?
Heartache shouldn't last more than 9 months
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You work on yourself,
busy your life.
I found that it works
but this time its not all right.
I let her back in
just for a minute.
When she left again
I wasn't surprised, i admit it
but now i feel wrong
like im an idiot
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No change in habit
No love expressed through concern
Why do I hope for love
from someone
who only makes me feel perturbed?

*is there something wrong with me?

This darkness inside me
doesn't seem to want to go
its created a den inside
next to where i keep my hope

Seeping up through cracks
that weren't there before
Memories of a time gone past
feed the monster more

This darkness inside me
its a creation of my own
A being of light
not ment to fight
hides underneath its cloak

This darkness inside me
wears a mask of smoke, and mirrors
using it to slowly feed on my own fears
Relentlessly persistant
just like my mind
I hope that one day soon
I will unmask this being of mine

I love you.
Theres nothing more to say
To add anything
would be like
cutting an arm away.

I love you
No buts
Thats all i can say.

Life works in mysterious ways
One moment it gives you everything you want
and just as quickly takes it away.

Life choices
mistakes are made
we all have to own up to it at the end of the day

I love you
I love you
Day after Day
I trust in my path
and pray
that one day
may our lifes smile upon us
and bring us back together
one day