One day, I want to hear my best friend say "i'm okay" and mean it.

No matter how long I stay
No matter how long I breathe
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
No matter who I love
No matter who loves me
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
But if I leave this world tonight
Spread my wings and take flight
Maybe, just maybe
This world will finally be right

When I was born
I was dropped on hell's porch
Though no one quite new it yet
I was Satan's new pet
Even though I was doomed from the start
I acted as though I still contained a heart
My soul has been gone from the beginning it's true
My being born should only be booed
No one can love me for I am nothing
Nothing but a shell that has long been rotting

My eyes
Are the coldest eyes
That you will ever see
Stone cold and gray
Just like the perilous sea
The things that I have seen
Through these eyes of mine
Only contain pain and suffering
For that is all that I see
If you were to see
Through these eyes of mine
You may think that you were in hell
And you would not be mistaken
My eyes
Are the coldest eyes
That you will ever see
Stone cold and gray
Just like the perilous sea

Don't you know little boy they'll lay you to waste man,
Little do they know every song has a lifespan,
Never taken one but I'm taking my last chance,
To hold all we know and let go with both hands,
Oh don't you know that clouds are made from concrete,
Right through the stone can you hear my heart beat,
Beats through my bones like a memory left me,
Not for a second or a minute when I dream,
I wanna go home like a home that I keep,
You can dig 6 or 66 feet,
We could live forever still your misery missed me,
Hold this song together with a bottle of whiskey,
Look into the mirror at the lies that time drew,
See them painted white in the eyes that shine through,
My heart beats heavy in an open chest,
And I wanna say goodbye but there's nobody left.
-Hollywood Undead

Never in my wildest dreams
Will I ever be happy it seems
For I have gone through hell
And have never heard heaven's bell
No one can ever truly love me
For I hold a demon that no one sees
Everyone will eventually leave
From me, themselves they will cleave
For I cannot imagine a world filled with happiness
For I am the one who can never truly rest
Until I am buried six feet in the cold ground
Will I ever be able to actually rest, safe and sound

It'd be too little too late if I told you i love you.
It'd be too little too late if I told you i need you.
It'd be too little too late if I told you,
That every time I picture happiness,
I see you

Im a mad man yes i swear its true...
Maybe its time to move on...
Find a ******* meaning with you...
As I hold you close against me all the demons hear me scream...
And then i'm forced to let you go...
And down your face your tears will stream...
When everything we've stood for just seems to fall apart...
We'll take a trip inside our minds...
A trip thats lonely and dark...
So I resort to the insanity...
Hold it like my baby...
Never let it go...
Come on lets put on a show...
A show with creepy clowns frowning...
Everybody's laughing...
But we just laugh along with them...
Because we know we will end them...
Yes i'm a mad man i swear it is true...
Soon it will be over...
Very, very soon...

Heaven alludes me
Hell awaits me
For it is brought forth
By the demons that surround me
Each of them bringing forth a new wave of pain
Each and everyone of them drowning me in rain
And then the angels come and spread their wings above me
Mock my failure and smile down upon me
As I beg for their forgiveness they only fly away
One by one slowly but surely
And now I'm left alone to rot in the pits of Hell
Even though I am not dead
Even though I wish I was
Heaven with its angels still continues to allude me
And Hell with its demons is still all that awaits me

I see me writing on this paper.
Praying for some savior.
Wishing to intake her and save her.

In a world so, so godless. so thoughtless,
I don't know how we wrought this,
All the love that you brought us.

It feels like I'm killing myself.
Just willing myself.
Just to pray for some help.

I'd give it all just to have, have your eternity.
Cause it's all that assures me.
It's worth all that hurts me.

I'd give you my heart,
And I'd let you just hold it.
I'd give you my soul,
But I already sold it.

On that day
That day I walked away in December.
I will always remember.
I'll regret it forever.

I remember brown eyes,
So sad and blue skies.
Turned to darkness and night.
I'm so sick of the fight.

I won't breathe unless you breathe,
Won't bleed unless you bleed.
Won't be unless you be,
'Till I'm gone and I can sleep.

If I could take all this pain away
Use the rage of our youth today
Whose to say that it's you to blame
It's the people above you
The ones who say that they love you
Look what the world has come to
So now it's time to say '*******!'
If you care then they drug you
And no one's there when they numb you
Fill you with terror and crush you
Pretend they care as they shove you
So you look to me to find the truth
And what I say is what you do
But everyone you look up to
Is really as ****** up as you
Time is getting shorter
With these enforced disorders
And we get blamed and pushed around
So who's the ******* villain now?

I loved you, you made me
Hate me, you gave me
Hate, see, it saved me
And these tears are deadly

You feel that? I rip back
Every time you tried to steal that
You feel bad? You feel sad?
I'm sorry, hell no, **** that

It was my heart, it was my life
It was my start, it was your knife
This strife, it dies
This life and these lies

And these lungs have sung
This song for too long
And it's true, I hurt to
Remember I loved you

There is a person whom I love
And who could never understand
The extent of how much
I simply want to hold her hand
There is a person whom I love
That is always there for me
Through thick and thin
She is always right beside me
There is a person whom I love
That can always understand
Just how much pain I feel
Deep down inside
There is a person whom I love
That I love with all my heart
And that is the reason
That we shall never part
There is a person whom I love
That tries to make me love myself as much as I love her
But we both know deep inside
That it will never work
There is a person whom I love
That I know one day will leave me
Because of the darkness known as depression
That constantly surrounds me
There is a person whom I love
That will one day be driven away
Because no matter how much I hope and pray
My depression won't let her stay

My friend my friend
Is it breath you're holding in
Will the questions from within
Do they end as they begin
Oh my heart my heart
Is it left out in the dark
Is there light after the start
Like the clouds after they part
No the end the end
Is it written in the sand
Is it slipping through your hands
Like a dream that never ends
My friend my friend
Are the walls still closing in
Time and time again
These are words from a broken friend

Goodbye everyone
I think I might leave
Leave this hell that I've suffered through for 14 years
But before I go
I have one question:
Who cares...

All of my dreams
Hopes
Wishes
Prayers
Aspirations
Desires
Ambitions
Intenti­ons
They are all worthless
When you live in hell

I tried to believe, on my knees it's so hard
And they pick and they pull and they tear you apart
But they won't let me go
No they won't let me go
And I'm dying baby, dying baby
Dying so slow
Walk in the world, it's so empty and dull
In the land of the beautiful, beauty is cold
They won't let me go
No they won't let me go
And I'm dying baby, dying baby
Dying alone

Lear to Accept how to Embrace the Fear of feeling about what it's like to Contemplate what it is to Know true pain, because when i had nothing and no one, I always had Pain.