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May 2015 · 329
Untitled
ShadowMan24h May 2015
If I could take all this pain away
Use the rage of our youth today
Whose to say that it's you to blame
It's the people above you
The ones who say that they love you
Look what the world has come to
So now it's time to say '*******!'
If you care then they drug you
And no one's there when they numb you
Fill you with terror and crush you
Pretend they care as they shove you
So you look to me to find the truth
And what I say is what you do
But everyone you look up to
Is really as ****** up as you
Time is getting shorter
With these enforced disorders
And we get blamed and pushed around
So who's the ******* villain now?
May 2015 · 263
Untitled
ShadowMan24h May 2015
I tried to believe, on my knees it's so hard
And they pick and they pull and they tear you apart
But they won't let me go
No they won't let me go
And I'm dying baby, dying baby
Dying so slow
Walk in the world, it's so empty and dull
In the land of the beautiful, beauty is cold
They won't let me go
No they won't let me go
And I'm dying baby, dying baby
Dying alone
May 2015 · 256
Untitled
ShadowMan24h May 2015
Lear to Accept how to Embrace the Fear of feeling about what it's like to Contemplate what it is to Know true pain, because when i had nothing and no one, I always had Pain.
Apr 2015 · 289
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ShadowMan24h Apr 2015
My friend my friend
Is it breath you're holding in
Will the questions from within
Do they end as they begin
Oh my heart my heart
Is it left out in the dark
Is there light after the start
Like the clouds after they part
No the end the end
Is it written in the sand
Is it slipping through your hands
Like a dream that never ends
My friend my friend
Are the walls still closing in
Time and time again
These are words from a broken friend
Apr 2015 · 324
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ShadowMan24h Apr 2015
I loved you, you made me
Hate me, you gave me
Hate, see, it saved me
And these tears are deadly

You feel that? I rip back
Every time you tried to steal that
You feel bad? You feel sad?
I'm sorry, hell no, **** that

It was my heart, it was my life
It was my start, it was your knife
This strife, it dies
This life and these lies

And these lungs have sung
This song for too long
And it's true, I hurt to
Remember I loved you
Apr 2015 · 335
Untitled
ShadowMan24h Apr 2015
I see me writing on this paper.
Praying for some savior.
Wishing to intake her and save her.

In a world so, so godless. so thoughtless,
I don't know how we wrought this,
All the love that you brought us.

It feels like I'm killing myself.
Just willing myself.
Just to pray for some help.

I'd give it all just to have, have your eternity.
Cause it's all that assures me.
It's worth all that hurts me.

I'd give you my heart,
And I'd let you just hold it.
I'd give you my soul,
But I already sold it.

On that day
That day I walked away in December.
I will always remember.
I'll regret it forever.

I remember brown eyes,
So sad and blue skies.
Turned to darkness and night.
I'm so sick of the fight.

I won't breathe unless you breathe,
Won't bleed unless you bleed.
Won't be unless you be,
'Till I'm gone and I can sleep.
Mar 2015 · 357
Too little, too late
ShadowMan24h Mar 2015
It'd be too little too late if I told you i love you.
It'd be too little too late if I told you i need you.
It'd be too little too late if I told you,
That every time I picture happiness,
I see you
Feb 2015 · 347
MaD mAn
ShadowMan24h Feb 2015
Im a mad man yes i swear its true...
Maybe its time to move on...
Find a ******* meaning with you...
As I hold you close against me all the demons hear me scream...
And then i'm forced to let you go...
And down your face your tears will stream...
When everything we've stood for just seems to fall apart...
We'll take a trip inside our minds...
A trip thats lonely and dark...
So I resort to the insanity...
Hold it like my baby...
Never let it go...
Come on lets put on a show...
A show with creepy clowns frowning...
Everybody's laughing...
But we just laugh along with them...
Because we know we will end them...
Yes i'm a mad man i swear it is true...
Soon it will be over...
Very, very soon...
Jan 2015 · 349
Untitled
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I sit here alone
With a tall glass of water
One-hundred pills
Yet still i'm pushed farther
I wish it would end
Yet I know it cannot
For I cannot leave
Leave others to rot
Even though my soul is black
Even though my future's bleak
I still stand here
Upright on my feet
My only wish is
That you could too
Find the strength that is needed
*to push through
Jan 2015 · 330
From the ground
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Imagine cold hands holding your heart
The thought alone can only tear you apart
I know you wish it would end, it's sad it's only the start
These memories they only mean my soul is empty and dark
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 390
From the ground
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
It's a red night, and I don't see any light
And then a flat line, I'm ******* ready to die!
It's a red night, if it's wrong or it's right
If I don't fight it's like being buried alive!
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 380
From the ground
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
As I look up from the ground
I see darkness all around
And I'm lost but can be found inside my mind
Goodbye
As I look up from the ground
I see darkness all around
And I'm lost but can be found up in the sky
Goodbye
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 1.0k
One day...
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
One day, I want to hear my best friend say "i'm okay" and mean it.
Jan 2015 · 290
Untitled
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I live in hell
*Yet still you manage to make me smile
Jan 2015 · 305
Untitled
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
These **** meds aint workin
Im just too **** sick!
Jan 2015 · 775
I don't wanna die
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I look inside of myself and try to find someone else
Someone who's willin' to die as to watch you crying for help
I know that blood will be spilled and if you won't then I will
My grave will never be filled it's either **** or be killed
So let heaven be told that some may come some may go
Where I'll end up I don't know but I ain't dyin' alone
I keep on asking the question can I be saved by confession
You see this blood on my hands at least they're still reachin' to heaven
I got to pick up the pieces I gotta bury 'em deep
And when you look in my eyes I'll be the last thing you'll see
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 555
Kill everyone
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
You got the ******* right to remain violent!
Hollow points hiding in my clip
I'll take 25 just to watch your life end
I pray father please forgive me 'fore I sin
Got these sticks of dynamite and dying to light them
God don't fail me now
Get thrown and you gon' get carried out
To a hole where I know you won't be found
Just face it it's almost over now
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 230
Untitled
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
What's life inside a bottle if it's gone?
If you know where this is from, you're awesome
Jan 2015 · 435
Day of the dead
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Hold on, Holy Ghost
Go on, hold me close
Better run, here we come
It's the day of the dead
We come from a world of oblivion, bad dreams
I got all I need strapped right to my hamstring
I'm not really bad, I'm just made up of bad things
I'm really not a mad man, the voices keep asking
Born with a soul that don’t wanna be saved
Every time I look around I see what a fiend made
Every time I die, I hope they digging up my grave
An undead one like the flag that I wave
I’m not afraid to cry from this ******* sickness
I’m not afraid to die, let the good book witness
I ask and give none, nope, no forgiveness
The day of the dead and you’re on our hit list
So come all you misfits
*****, you’re on our hit list
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 364
Pour me
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I wake up right about the mid-afternoon,
With the sun in the sky but night's coming soon,
And I walk to the mirror just to fix myself,
Yeah life gets harder when you love nothing else,
So I pick my pills from the counter drawer,
Pick my self-esteem up off the ******* floor,
I guess I'm a man of no recourse,
As I crack another bottle, got no remorse,
And I'll say a little prayer for the child in me,
I swear I used to be what I truly believe,
That I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
That even I could go to heaven,
If I part the seas
So...
Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another.
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 575
Hell's porch
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
When I was born
I was dropped on hell's porch
Though no one quite new it yet
I was Satan's new pet
Even though I was doomed from the start
I acted as though I still contained a heart
My soul has been gone from the beginning it's true
My being born should only be booed
No one can love me for I am nothing
Nothing but a shell that has long been rotting
Jan 2015 · 377
I cannot imagine
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Never in my wildest dreams
Will I ever be happy it seems
For I have gone through hell
And have never heard heaven's bell
No one can ever truly love me
For I hold a demon that no one sees
Everyone will eventually leave
From me, themselves they will cleave
For I cannot imagine a world filled with happiness
For I am the one who can never truly rest
Until I am buried six feet in the cold ground
Will I ever be able to actually rest, safe and sound
Jan 2015 · 1.0k
I promise
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I promise
That you'll be okay
I promise
That you'll make it through today
I promise
I'll be here forever
I promise
I'll let you go never
I promise
That I will stay by your side
I promise
I'll be with you through this tough ride
I promise
That I will always love you
I promise
Because it's all I can do
Jan 2015 · 604
The demons inside me
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
If you have never met me
Trust me you don't want to
And even those who have met me
Still do not know me
Because all that I am deep down inside
Is a fiery demon
Waiting to open his eyes
To hell I have been
And still have yet to return
This demon rests inside me
His mind overtaking my own
And when people say that they are strong
Strong enough to see the real me
I merely scoff and unleash my demon
And sure enough they all flee
Is it my strength
Or is it my weakness
This demon I hold
Deep inside of me
Jan 2015 · 510
Bullet
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
When you can't sleep
Well you can't dream
When you can't dream
Well what's life mean
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 433
2014
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
1 year of depression
12 months of sadness
52 weeks of tragedy
365 days of hopelessness
8760 hours of darkness
525600 minutes of loneliness
31536000 seconds of hell
And now the cycle restarts
Jan 2015 · 281
Who cares...
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Goodbye everyone
I think I might leave
Leave this hell that I've suffered through for 14 years
But before I go
I have one question:
Who cares...
Jan 2015 · 404
Save me
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I call out in the darkness
"Someone please save me"
All that I hear in response in a quiet whisper
"No"
Jan 2015 · 306
New years sadness
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
I welcome this new year
Alone in the dark
No one to comfort me
Just me and the dark
Jan 2015 · 392
Believe
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Don't you know little boy they'll lay you to waste man,
Little do they know every song has a lifespan,
Never taken one but I'm taking my last chance,
To hold all we know and let go with both hands,
Oh don't you know that clouds are made from concrete,
Right through the stone can you hear my heart beat,
Beats through my bones like a memory left me,
Not for a second or a minute when I dream,
I wanna go home like a home that I keep,
You can dig 6 or 66 feet,
We could live forever still your misery missed me,
Hold this song together with a bottle of whiskey,
Look into the mirror at the lies that time drew,
See them painted white in the eyes that shine through,
My heart beats heavy in an open chest,
And I wanna say goodbye but there's nobody left.
-Hollywood Undead
Jan 2015 · 410
My eyes
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
My eyes
Are the coldest eyes
That you will ever see
Stone cold and gray
Just like the perilous sea
The things that I have seen
Through these eyes of mine
Only contain pain and suffering
For that is all that I see
If you were to see
Through these eyes of mine
You may think that you were in hell
And you would not be mistaken
My eyes
Are the coldest eyes
That you will ever see
Stone cold and gray
Just like the perilous sea
Jan 2015 · 280
My dreams
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
All of my dreams
Hopes
Wishes
Prayers
Aspirations
Desires
Ambitions
Intenti­ons
They are all worthless
When you live in hell
Jan 2015 · 314
My love
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
There is a person whom I love
And who could never understand
The extent of how much
I simply want to hold her hand
There is a person whom I love
That is always there for me
Through thick and thin
She is always right beside me
There is a person whom I love
That can always understand
Just how much pain I feel
Deep down inside
There is a person whom I love
That I love with all my heart
And that is the reason
That we shall never part
There is a person whom I love
That tries to make me love myself as much as I love her
But we both know deep inside
That it will never work
There is a person whom I love
That I know one day will leave me
Because of the darkness known as depression
That constantly surrounds me
There is a person whom I love
That will one day be driven away
Because no matter how much I hope and pray
My depression won't let her stay
This is for my amazing girlfriend who I will never stop loving
Jan 2015 · 334
My life
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
Heaven alludes me
Hell awaits me
For it is brought forth
By the demons that surround me
Each of them bringing forth a new wave of pain
Each and everyone of them drowning me in rain
And then the angels come and spread their wings above me
Mock my failure and smile down upon me
As I beg for their forgiveness they only fly away
One by one slowly but surely
And now I'm left alone to rot in the pits of Hell
Even though I am not dead
Even though I wish I was
Heaven with its angels still continues to allude me
And Hell with its demons is still all that awaits me
Jan 2015 · 770
This world
ShadowMan24h Jan 2015
No matter how long I stay
No matter how long I breathe
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
No matter who I love
No matter who loves me
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
But if I leave this world tonight
Spread my wings and take flight
Maybe, just maybe
This world will finally be right

— The End —