I can feel it.. the shadow aura.. the darkness flowing around me
The energy flowing through my body.. letting every bit consume me
I can feel it as i close my eyes
it feels good
going to keep it all in and then let it out at the right moment
full moon powers, shadow aura, darkness, energy...all of it
on the full moon
heart increasing on the outside of my body but...
cooling on the inside

My head is pulsing, im screaming
trying to shut my mind out but...
its breaking down my walls and getting louder...
everytime I move...even a little bt...
it screams...
resting doesn't help
Why wont this end?
im trying to throw it all away...
but more seems to come.
Trying to distance myself from others
and not hurt them but that seems to happens anyways
Why am I stuck in this?
I'll never get use to people...humans being here...
no matter what...
UGH! What do I do? What do I say?
How do I respond...?

Distractions... so many distractions
flowing through my head, through my heart
my head is pounding with loud noise
it makes me go insane, wanting to **** everyone
trying to keep myself sane is nearly impossible.
My heart...what is going on?
What is wrong? Tell me
its like a broken vase trying to be fixed
you can still see the cracks on the outside
my heart is just like that broken vase...
you fill it with liquid and you'll see it slowly... leaking out
but...but why?
could it still be my past?
or is it now the present/future?
i have to...need to figure this out...
before it's too late...

So much has changed...everything has changed
my old friends I don't talk to, new friends has come
how come I"m not dead?
after everything that has happened I should be...
Is this all real?
Is this all a dream?
everything that has happened... everything that is happening
Is this all just deceiving?
Or is it the truth?
why am i stuck in between two worlds...?
on the same planet
feeling lost but..also found
Are my eyes deceiving from the truth?
Is the truth lying to me
I've carried on more than ever...
and still don't feel like home
What is going on... with me?

My thoughts mostly confuse me
having me thinking different things
wanting to **** myself
giving up at points and falling into darkness...
more and more..
Do I really have friend by my side?
Do my girlfriend really love me?
Can I trust her?
Can she trust me?
thoughts of confusion get me to question...
question myself about others...
about myself...
Who am I?
What am I?
Where am I?
it hurts to think this but...
who else can answer them?

You see me but no words are said
like an angel I descend upon thee
my love you feel so tenderly
you feel my touch upon your skin
our hands are intertwining
you see in my eyes a blissful grace
and my lips you sweetly taste
this dream you'll carry on even after you wake
what you feel shall not be fake
and when you see me face to face
its me you shall want to embrace...

Love... it feels so good when you have it
but at the same times its a great risk...
DANGER
the more love you feel
the more you forget whats around
then when you're broken it hurts...badly
how you felt is exactly how its going to hurt you...
I feel it everyday...even when I smile I still feel it.
I cant control it but I can control the tears that try to fall down from my cheeks
unbelievable that tears still try to fall down...
from something that happened in 8th grade
it still kills me and I don't know how to...
make it go away
how do you make this go away?