Mea Culpa



Forgive me Father, for I have sinned

That is where my apology should begin…



I’ve done so much wrong

I have to make it right

I’m battling my pride

But he’s putting up a fight



I’ve been selfish

Unkind

And disingenuous

I’m sure the toll it has on others

Has been overwhelmingly strenuous  



I tend to take my anger out

On the ones I love the most

I push away every heart

That wants to hold me close



I have plenty of faults…

That seem insurmountable

I’ve made mistakes

And I have to be accountable                        



So if I ever hurt you

Whether it was my intention

-Or not

I want to say I’m sorry

Please forgive me

Even if it cannot be forgot



I can’t keep dwelling

On all the things that I’ve been through

So for all of the people who hurt me

I must forgive you too



This is not a lame attempt

At reverse psychology

I'm not perfect,

I’m human…

Please except my sincere apology

Something in the air

Just doesn’t feel right

With you gone-The stars

Don’t seem to shine as bright

Maybe me missing you is wrong

But no one else understands my plight

If I called you right now

Would I have any words to recite?

Would you answer?

Would you be angry?

Or artificially polite?

An argument I can deal with

…but not another lonely night.

Do I truly miss you?

Or do I miss the fire-

Only you can ignite?

There is no behaving

When it’s you I’m craving

My lust has blurred my sight

My lonesome song has won

My pride has taken flight

I quickly dial your number

You answer- to my delight

You sound happy it’s me…

My lip,

I take a bite

Looks like it won’t be…

Just another lonely night

Awkward Phase



A social pariah

Is that who I am?

A lonely- lone wolf…

Or a long lost lamb?

Attacked

For what I lack…

Or for straying

From the pact?

Held in exile

But I had no plans

Of coming back…

Cut from a different cloth

Sown into a new design

Since when…

Did it become a crime-

To have your own mind?

So unique- it hurts

Been this way since birth

There is no need

For you to measure me

I already know my worth

I know what I deserve

I’m never clumsy with my words

I decided to go my own way

While you follow the herd

I’m different

Always have been-Always will be

There’s a beauty in being an outcast

You don’t have to agree

It seems to me

This is no passing craze

My life will always be

One hug awkward phase

Oh, So Now You Miss Me?

Oh, so now you miss me?
Now you wanna kiss me?
It was not so long ago…
When you decided to dismiss me

Oh, so now you wanna be …
More than just friends
Like the past didn’t happen
Am I suppose to pretend?


Oh, so now you regret…
That you said your goodbyes
You didn’t mean to hurt me
…are these just more of your lies?

Oh, so now you miss me?
Am I suppose to rearrange my life?
To accommodate your change of heart
Am I hearing you right?

Oh, so now you miss me?
Well ******…I missed you too
But you were not concerned
So I moved on…and you should too

Oh, so now you miss me?
Too bad…
You don’t fit me
I’m on a search to find someone
Who won’t just –
Up and quit me

…Ssshhhh!!!


I know something…


That no one else seems to know...


The world has already ended


…a long time ago

Love me

              …please?

Hear me plead

There is nothing worse

Than the sight of a grown man

Begging

…on his knees



Love me

         …now

Do you remember how?

Breaker of promises

Betrayer of vows



Love me

        … authentically

Without draining my energy

Give back what you took

Love in truth " unconditionally



Love me

…please?

Don’t go

Don’t leave

At least take this stake out of my heart

And hold me while I bleed



Love me

…or lie to me

At least sing your goodbyes to me

Until the love I have for you

Slowly

Completely

Dies in me

I’m too fast

I’m too swift

You never seem to catch my drift



I came prepared

Unwilling to share

…Victory is my scent



You can try

As I **** by

To breathe deep and catch a whiff  



I don’t sweat

As quiet as it’s kept

…I ooze pure bliss



I gotta love me

Because I know you hate me

…I’m truly hit or miss



You can’t beat me

So just join me

In my world-

Defeat does not exist


I cause collateral damage

Whenever I’m challenged

Unafraid to give Death a kiss



So get your head out of the sand

And catch me if you can

So I can X your name off of my list



It’s time to face the torment

I hope someone records this

It’s the first time in history

A hare eats the dust of a tortoise!