I am finally learning
What it means to balance life;
For I can't give my heart and soul
When you don't give yours too.
We've only just begun now;
I know I've gone too fast.
But keep in mind, this is new to me,
While not exactly new to you.
So I'll pretend my heart's a jigsaw;
You can have it, but piece by piece.
And you must earn the pieces--
I can't promise them to you.
You can't buy them on credit;
No Visa or Mastercard.
We don't take checks here, sorry--
Only cash will do.
Cash comes in form of roses,
And midnight picnics in the park.
Cash comes in form of Brewer games,
And a candle-lit dinner for two;
A night spent under fire-works,
Or a ride in a hot-air balloon.
Don't forget, with each of these gestures,
You must give me a piece of your heart.
But with these must come sweetness,
Respect and sincerity.
I need trust, and most of all,
Respect my right to be free.
And if these you cannot give me,
Then sorry, our bargain is off.
But I think--I hope--you can give
These things I ask of you;
If I didn't, I wouldn't be here--
I only speak the truth.
So if you can prove me right,
Then I'll have nothing to fear.
We'll live happily ever after--
It will be a done deal.

I don't know
What to do or think
I only know,
Every time I blink
Something changes,
Life's not the same
And there's no one
On which to lay the blame.
Nothing I do, nothing I say,
Will make time freeze
And stay this way.
If only I knew,
If only I could...
If only--well, then I would.
I look back at the past,
A smile lights my face;
Look to the future,
I turn the color of paste.
And although someday
I want to see
Deep rift valleys
And rivers running free,
Right now, I only want
To freeze this moment,
And take it in hand;
Hold it in my palm
And look on this scene
Knowing it will never be gone
From my memory

I thought I'd never find you
But sooner than I thought
I found you; yes, you're mine now
Lord, don't let me ***** this up.

An angel sent from heaven
You have your flaws, it's true
But you're mine, flaws and all now;
Lord, help me to deserve you.

You care for me unyeildingly
You thank me every day
For the ways I show I care for you;
Lord, please help me through.

You see me in a brighter light
Than most of the people I know
You care for me, left and right;
Lord, thank you for this glow.

If ever I could thank you
For all you've done for me,
I'd do it in a hearbeat;
Lord, it's only been a week!

You tell me you admire me,
But I don't know if you should.
My flaws far outweigh yours;
Lord, help me to be good.

I don't deserve a man like you;
I shouldn't even try
The Lord has blessed me immensely;
Lord, I'll thank you with my life.

You're my bulwark, my fortress;
You're steady, strong, and true.
Good to the core, you are;
Lord, help me care for you.

I feel like a hoax, a fake--
A liar to the core.
I don't deserve to be with you;
Lord, help me to be true.

I don't know what to do now;
Soon, this glow will fade
And you'll be dating a hoax, a fake.
Lord, purify my charade.

Walking through the world
Angry and confused
Trying to make sense--
Find where to begin.

This story is unending;
Continuous, it runs.
Caught up in the drama
Of this meaningless life.

"Everything happens for a reason,"
This I know is true--
Down to my very core,
I believe in You.

How could I overcome
This sinful world or say
That I have all the answers,
When without you
I'm always so confused.

I love the hope you give me,
I love your boundless grace.
I know I'm in your palm, Lord;
That you're watching over me.

Keep me from being too prideful,
Keep me humble in your Word.
And keep me from denying, Lord,
How much you mean to me.

Keep me from taking for granted
How my cup is overflowing.
Keep me always in your hand, Lord;
And watch over me wherever I go.

Share
And care.
Green peace--
Peaceful silence;
The river sleeps.
Soft white dust
Shines in the sky,
As waking moments
Keep passing by.
Treetops rustle
And hush each other.
On the banks,
Cattails and grasses
Intertwine.
As the water
Slowly sifts by
And the night air
Cools the earth,
Waking moments
Are passing by.

How do I deal? What can I do?
What will make me as normal as you?
But don't bother; just leave me be--
After all, you can't understand me.
My likes, my dislikes, so much wasted air!
All of it spent trying to get you to care.

Fighting upward
To the skies;
To fresh new air
And awesome light.

Sunshine tries to
Pierce through depths
But murky water
Turns day to night.