Go ahead
Think
Im just a bad person
You try
To beat me
Until I break

But I won't bend
You may think
I am against you
But I am not

Go ahead
Rip me apart
If you have to
I dont care
Take your best shot

Yeah I
Will shed my tears
But not to admitt defeat
Not to someone
Like you

I may
Have low self esteem
But at least
Its low
Compared to none

Again
You look at me
And think
You've won

Only to see
Me get back up and smile
And say
Youll never Defeat Me..

Walking
Alone
With only my thoughts
I tend to look back
At my decisions
In life

Where they the right decisions?
Harmful decisions?

Someone important
Once said
Dont look back
And above all
"To Walk the path of life
One must walk their life
With no regrets."

I had to weigh everything
My family
My happiness
My self worth
My heart
My health

I made my choice
I chose them.

So I have sacrificed
For my choices
But I did it
Because of that
I have
No Regrets.

There comes a time
When I have to realize
How I truely feel
About things in my life.

I once thought
I was over things between us
You were happy at some point
When you didnt talk to me

Why am I not strong enough
To tell you move on
To let me go
It is like broken glass
Laying around me
Everytime I think of you
Hear your voice
Or read what you wrote
All those years ago
It is like a sharp stab
To my heart
As if the glass is entering my skin.

I feel I am not strong enough
To stay away
Everything about you soothes
This demon
That has engulfed my soul
It cowers in front of you
As you speak
Your voice like a lullaby to me
Saying I still love you.
I believe you.
But I am afraid.

Im afraid I am not Strong Enough.

Lets talk
About my power
Its very simple
And very common
We all use it
A pen.

Writting words
Of pain
Love
Joy
Hope
On paper
This powerful tool
Has been weilded by many.

It has the power
To tear countries apart,
Bring about peace
And put into place
Laws to protect
Us and the future
Of lands.

I can write with it
And hurt everyone around me
I have done it
Many times over
Now the final bit of power
I weild from it
Will be my own undoing.

So be careful
With this power
Protect and use it wisely
This pen can create
Or destroy
Which will you choose?

Rain falling down
On the ground
Forming tiny rivers
and puddles
Watching children play
But why am I the only one
Getting wet
Then I realize
I am the one crying.
What is causing me to cry
Everything
Anger
Love
Hate
Pain
How I wish I would not feel this way
I wish to be an empty shell
But without the rain
I realize I wont be human.
So I let the rain fall
And remain silent in my sorrows.

She walked alone
In the cold dark world
A young child
Who knew things
By what her parents taught her

She was sheltered so far in her life
She didn't know what to expect
So she played
With other much older than her
They wanted her innocence
So when all was said and done
She sat there alone
Crying
No one consoled her
No one seemed to care

She continued in life
Becoming stronger
Mentally and physically
Her thoughts became darker
Angrier,
Hateful of those around her
She thought the nightmare was over
Until things spiraled out of control...
Hanging out with so called friends
Costing this young woman something valuable
Reality struck hard that night
The worse thing about it
The cycle repeated
She knew nobody would believe her
Nobody seemed to want to protect her

Wanting to die so much
Became her purpose
Being alone
Was her sanctuary
Her body became a vessel
Harboring everything and anything
Cold and Dark
Why?
Why was she made to suffer?
Why didn't anybody try to stop her
She kept shoving pills down her throat
Or cutting her skin
To relieve her inner most pain

Her parents could not handle
Anything about her anymore
They had lost their baby girl
She rebelled against them
For many years
It was always a civil war.

She became a mother 3 times over
And each time she vowed
Her offspring would not walk the same path
Or feel the same as she did when she was young
She became very protective of them
Her husband would try to understand
Only to realize his wife is a very complex person.

Though her closest friend understood
Her actions
Thoughts
Feelings
He decided to help her
Just to listen when she needed an ear
Or a shoulder to cry on
Or lean on
When times are tough
Through his actions
A bond was forged

So this woman
became the woman she is today
Through pain suffering
Not by choice
But through the situations
That made up her life
Judge all you want
Call her weak
Call her pathetic
And she will show you
Weakness
But she will tell you
I am a fighter
Strength comes from within
And wisdom
Comes from the lessons we learn
From mistakes made
In our everyday lives

You see this fighter
As you may have guessed
Is the real me.

I regret
Feeling the way I do
About you
I have to admitt
It was fun while it lasted
But now I need closer

I wanted to believe
That I would have a chance
At love
Being happy
But what did I get
Silence
What are you afraid of
Me rejecting you
Judging you
I never rejected you
Matter of fact
I accepted you
Completely
I never judged you

I wanted to protect you
I told you that
Many times over
Now I am left alone
And full
Of regret

Your broke my heart
With your silence
My only regret
While I pick up the pieces
Is that instead of silence
You had destroyed me
All I feel now
Thanks to you
Is Regret.

I watch you
From a distance
Walking alone
Looking around
Remember me

You smile though
You want to cry
Why
Why do you hide
Remember me

You left me without
Saying goodbye
Yes I cried
But I also died
Remember me

Do not shed a single tear
For me please
I wasnt worth you time
You spent it with others
Remember me

I told you I still care
And that I loved you
But nothing
Helped
Remember me

So again please dont cry
Cause this isnt a lie
I did die
Cause of you
Just remember me
The way I used to be
Before you destroyed me.

You say
You remember
My face
You say
You remember
My touch
You say
You remember
My voice

So if you remember
All of that about me
Then tell me
Do you even
Remember my name?

Soft
Delicate
Small
Fragrant
Pink and white
Flutter to the ground
To form a gentle blanket
That gently rustle
In the cool spring breeze
I watch in awe
At your beauty
As I leave this world
My mind will fall to you
Oh magestic
And delicate one
Whose name is
Sakura

Throughout my life
I have felt nothing but pain
I know most of it is my fault
But realize this
It has shaped me into this
This stronger person.
Hate Me
Hurt Me
Say what you want
I will still be standing
Watching over you
Protect you with my life
Hold you up when you fall.
Until I am no longer needed.
I stay quietly next to you
Shadows and Dust I will remain.

Vicious
Magestic
Loyal
Pure
Predatoral instinct
Emerges from darkness

He catches the scent
Of his next prey
Is it an animal
Or is it a human.

He follows his target
Down the street
He watches her
Her body movements
The way her skin glows
In the perfect moonlight
Her hair framing her perfect face.

His stomach churned
Was it hunger
Or the urdge
The urdge for *******
He wanted her
No
He needed her
To save his soul
And heart
From darkness's curse.

She rounds the corner
And he follows close
Only to come face to face
With her
She felt him
Inside her mind
Her heart.

He claimed her then
Making her his.

The wolf
Claimed his Salvation
Forever walking beside him
The wolf and his Shadow.

Facing your darkest fears
Waking up in cold sweats
Going to the mirror
And what do I see
Me..
But I see the cuts on her skin
Blood flowing from each wound
Pooling on her chest
Her shirt is ripped
Blood soaked
As pieces of bone
Are easily shown
She smiled
With the ****** mouth
What is the matter
I am you
You ignored me for too long
Ill show you what you do not wish to see
She reached through the glass
Grabbing my arms and pull me through
I saw tortured souls
Chained to the ground
As their tormentors whipped them
The whips tore their flesh from bone
As she lead me further
I saw demons doing strange rituals
Sacrificing souls to fill their masters desires.

I turn to run back
To escape into my safe world
Chains shackle my wrists and ankles as the sky darkens
To a dark crimson
She laughs and pulls the chains
Dragging me until I fall back onto
A cold stone slab alter
I try to struggle
Only to hear sinister laughter
A flash of silver
Before my eyes
A flash of pain in my chest
And smell of blood
Fill the air as my heart
Is carved from my chest
The chains grow slack and fall away
As my life force flows forth
Along the ground
I draw my last breath
And die...

Blinking rapidly
I am back in my room
I see her smile
A heart chilling smile
Death lingering on her lips

"Show me your greatest fears
And I will show you eternal hell
I promise...."

Tears can mend
A broken heart
Hide a shattered soul
Can speak in volumes
Unseen or felt

Words that cannot
Be expressed so easily
The emotion bottled up inside
The good and the bad

They can be shed
With each new life
And spilled when another ends

Without these
We are shells
Hollow beings
Walking around
Not caring
Not concerned with
Daily struggles
Or constant battles

So they chose
To forever be this way
But those who shed tears
And look at the moon at night
Please remember...

Tears can mend a broken heart
And hide a shattered soul
While the moonlight
Guides you
On your freedom journey home.

He walked the hall
Deathly quiet
With a black book in hand
He wore a black floor length robe
He knew the times
When each life ceased
You see he was
The soul collector
But you know him
Best as the grim reaper.

Today
He was on a mission
To take a soul
On its journey home.
A soul of his choice.
And there she stood
Looking out the window
Her skin pale
Contrasting her raven hair.
Jade green eyes
Looked almost lifeless
As she watched the blossoms
Of the sakura trees
blow in the breeze

She smiled seeing him
As he reached for her
"You came for me..
I am glad..."

She died as she took his hand
As he led her away
He cherished her soul

So he sat on the throne
Waiting to start the next mission
However he wont be alone
The soul he took
He chose for his bride
His angel of darkness
The only comfort
For his  eternally tormented soul.

She walks alone in the darkness..
Her own solitude as her guide...
Her friends are the demons ...
Deep inside her mind....
her only hope is in her heart...
A promise to keep hope alive....
That makes her do everything...
Just to survive...

And yet it isnt enough...
She is trapped...
Alone in the darkness...

He tormented her...
His laugh echoed in her ears...
As she searched for a way out...
Hope seemed lost...
Until...
He came...

Her savior...
He found her...
In the shadows...
The glimmer of hope..

Shined in his eyes..
As he took her..
And held her close...

She walked in darkness..
But no longer alone..
He protected her..
His beacon of hope..
Her hope for the future..
The Archangel and his Shadow.

Snow softly falls
Forming a white downey blanket
Upon the cold ground
Where it finds a woman
Looking down
Upon a single tombstone
She weeps
Like she has done
For 5 long years.

Her loving husband rested there
Cradled in the earth
Along side her daughter
Who barely had begun her life
Now rested with her father
Un aware of the dark
That lurked in the world.

In her hands
She held 4 roses.
Each red and lush
Full of life unlike her heart
Which cries infinite tears.

Her world shattered
In an instant
As the truck hit the car
Claiming the fathers life
The daughter singing in the back
Now screamed as the car rolled
Until it stopped
And silenced her forever

She placed the roses on the stone
Gently in the soft downy snow
One day she would join them
But until then
She would visit
Everyday
And carry roses
Into
The cryptic,
cold place.
The only color
That mirror imaged her inside
Her lost heart
Mirrored by
The Gothic Rose.

They watch
In silence
As their loved ones
Prepare to leave
For many months
They wont be able to touch them
Kiss them
Spend every waking moment with them
But they hold their heads high
For they knew
Once their loved ones joined
This would happen.

As they watched them fall into formation
They stand proud
Though they know many
Wont come home
They stand ready
For the day they feel the warmth
Of their arms around them

These do cry
But you do not see
They hide the tears very well
Behind a mask of strength
If you think the military is tough
You should see the men and women
That stand behind them
As they form the silent ranks
Of the US Military.

An angels touch
Soft
Warm
Loving

An angels voice
Peaceful
Sweet
Caring

An angels embrace
Protective
Nurturing
Calming

Her heart
Never swaying
Full of love
Undying loyalty

I look up to heaven and cry
"I am down here....
Will I ever feel that again...
To be touched by my angel.?"

"Touched by an angel... Loved for all eternity.."

Have you ever
Said hi to the one
Who supposedly
Said I am in love with you
To your face.
Now they wont give you
The time of day

Why couldnt you
Just say
I want to remain friends
Instead I waited
No word
You kept on in your life
But left me behind
I thought you loved me
I thought you cared
But it turns out
I got the cold shoulder
You turned your back
And walked away

What did I do?
Answer me that
Did I hurt you...
Cause if I did
I am truely sorry
I hope you can forgive me
One day

All I have to go by
Is your silence.
So until you
Can turn and face me
You will never know
What it is like to be
Truely Alone.

Thoughts of suicide
Thoughts of ******
Has crossed my mind
I want to be loved for me
But also I want to be hated
By those that hurt me

Am I twisted?

This cold steel
Cuts deep across my skin
As the pain drowns the memories
Oh the thought of killing you
Is sweet

Am I twisted?

Do you know
What I dream
When I sleep
Let me tell you
I dream of death
Not mine like I should
But yours
Slow
Painful
Warm blood flowing
From wounds inflicted
As I carve your heart out

Am I twisted?

Scream at me
It drives my thirst
To cause you more pain
Your body would be lifeless
But I would have
Your blood curtling scream
Ringing in my ears

Am I twisted?

So before saying anything
During your life
Think on what I want to do
To you
Lets see if you decide
If I am really and horribly
Twisted.

Hmm how to discribe
You
As I see you
Two faced.

You smile
And talk buddy buddy
To me
But behind me
You throw me in the dirt

It is people like you
That really get me angry
Why be one way to my face
And behind me another

Take a good look
And see the damage
Your forked toungue has done
For now
I dont want to
Even be your friend

For when I found you
Two faced
I realized
Friendship wasnt worth saving

So be two faced
And the world will see
How you really are
And who you are
Two faced.

Two men struggle
For one womans heart
One has her physically
The other has her emotionally
And mentally
The one who has her physically
Wants nothing more
Than to love her
And for her to love him
In return
Though he doesnt understand
She has been hurt
Time and time again
He doesnt understand
Her withdrawals
Her fears
Her thoughts
Though he tries
Only to hit a dead end
Everytime
For she wont talk
The other man
However
Showing her a world
The one she always dreamed of
Stays next to her
Shielding her
Protecting her
Loving her
Listening to her heart
Crying when she feels pain
Anger when she feels agony
Her stronghold
When she doesnt have anything
To stay strong for
The other man sees this
In her eyes
So he tries to enforce his ways
Upon her
Trying to make her think
Her angel
Doesnt care for her
Like he does
However
She doesnt believe him
She refuses too
They argue everyday
About the other man
She defends her position
But the toll on her heart
Is much more
What is she hanging on too?
The piece of her heart
Where she feels safe
A memory of a smile
That melts ice
The arms that held her safe
Even if it was for a short time
Is it really so wrong to long for it?
For an end?
Of this continous
War of the heart.

Ever wonder
What happens
When
A demon loves an angel?

They long to be
Next to them
Staying safe
Calm
Wishing and hoping
Their chaotic nature
Would subside

They feel like pawns
In a big chess match
Between good and evil
They cling to each other
Hoping for an end
Where they can be happy
But the cycle horrifically
Continues

A demon wins
An angel dies
And the demon cries
For evil won this round

So where
Does this game leave us
We are seen as a prize
Some to good
Some to bad

But one thing for sure
We arnt the only ones
Who suffer this fate
This is what happens
When Demons Love Angels.

I am
At a crossroad
How much
Am I going to
Take from you
You've won

You broke me
I never thought
It would hurt this much
But rest easy
You've won

You may
Have taken my sanity
And left this shell behind
But I will survive
Mending these pieces
That you crushed
Beneath your feet
You've won

Once I heal
Once I recover
Dont even try
Because you
Think you will win
But this time..
You wont win.

But until that time
You've Won.