Tears can mend
A broken heart
Hide a shattered soul
Can speak in volumes
Unseen or felt

Words that cannot
Be expressed so easily
The emotion bottled up inside
The good and the bad

They can be shed
With each new life
And spilled when another ends

Without these
We are shells
Hollow beings
Walking around
Not caring
Not concerned with
Daily struggles
Or constant battles

So they chose
To forever be this way
But those who shed tears
And look at the moon at night
Please remember...

Tears can mend a broken heart
And hide a shattered soul
While the moonlight
Guides you
On your freedom journey home.

Ever wonder
What happens
When
A demon loves an angel?

They long to be
Next to them
Staying safe
Calm
Wishing and hoping
Their chaotic nature
Would subside

They feel like pawns
In a big chess match
Between good and evil
They cling to each other
Hoping for an end
Where they can be happy
But the cycle horrifically
Continues

A demon wins
An angel dies
And the demon cries
For evil won this round

So where
Does this game leave us
We are seen as a prize
Some to good
Some to bad

But one thing for sure
We arnt the only ones
Who suffer this fate
This is what happens
When Demons Love Angels.

They watch
In silence
As their loved ones
Prepare to leave
For many months
They wont be able to touch them
Kiss them
Spend every waking moment with them
But they hold their heads high
For they knew
Once their loved ones joined
This would happen.

As they watched them fall into formation
They stand proud
Though they know many
Wont come home
They stand ready
For the day they feel the warmth
Of their arms around them

These do cry
But you do not see
They hide the tears very well
Behind a mask of strength
If you think the military is tough
You should see the men and women
That stand behind them
As they form the silent ranks
Of the US Military.

Once upon a midnight dreary
While you ponder weak and weary
Images of blood that is shed
Dance around inside my head

Chains jingle from above
As they hold you still my love
Why do you fight it dear
Is it out of fear
Struggle fight
With all your might
But I promise one will die tonight

Shudder as you feel
The sharp blade of cold steel
I get to play
Tonight is my night
Scream and cry as much as you like
No one will hear
They wont save you..
I am your fear
"Stay away from me.."
" Why... Im your perfect enemy.."

Now you ponder weak and weary
As death lingers close
The room is dank and dark
Careful what you wish for
Just like it once said...
Nevermore

Should I die tomorrow
Will you carry me down that isle?
How would you handle
Seeing me lay there
As if sleeping

Will you carry me down?

Your tears would fall
Upon my cold skin
Never to feel the warmth
Of your touch
Never to see
Your smile
Nor to hear your voice

Will you carry me down?

Could you face me
As they lower me into the ground
Under the ever graying skies
Would the rain wash away
Your sadness
And pain
As they shovel dirt
Onto me
As I lay
In my final resting place

Will you carry me down?

Would you visit me
Every year
On the day of my death
Or would you walk away forever
I am asking you

Will you carry me down the isle on that final day?

After a long day
I lay down
In my empty bed
As I drift to sleep
My mind formulates
An image

No not fabio
No celebity
Just a man
Ordinary in looks
That is pefect for me.

Sitting beside me
Hes easy to talk to
We talk about so much
He smiles through most if it
Until he reached over
And touched me

Leaning in close
He kissed me
I felt everything
All his emotions
Just from that one kiss

"I have to leave you tonight.
I will see you again my love..
Until then I love you."
He said as he faded away.

I awoke feeling warm
As if someone held me
Throughout the night
I smiled

I feel I know him
But your name never leaves my lips
For now until I see you
You are my Dream Partner.

Walking
Alone
With only my thoughts
I tend to look back
At my decisions
In life

Where they the right decisions?
Harmful decisions?

Someone important
Once said
Dont look back
And above all
"To Walk the path of life
One must walk their life
With no regrets."

I had to weigh everything
My family
My happiness
My self worth
My heart
My health

I made my choice
I chose them.

So I have sacrificed
For my choices
But I did it
Because of that
I have
No Regrets.

Lets talk
About my power
Its very simple
And very common
We all use it
A pen.

Writting words
Of pain
Love
Joy
Hope
On paper
This powerful tool
Has been weilded by many.

It has the power
To tear countries apart,
Bring about peace
And put into place
Laws to protect
Us and the future
Of lands.

I can write with it
And hurt everyone around me
I have done it
Many times over
Now the final bit of power
I weild from it
Will be my own undoing.

So be careful
With this power
Protect and use it wisely
This pen can create
Or destroy
Which will you choose?

Sitting here
Alone with my thoughts
My emotions
One thing
I cant seem to shake
Is the feeling
Im losing you.

You have
Watched over me
Protected me
Love me
In such a way
Many cannot understand
But something lingers
In the darkness
Waiting for the right time
To pull me back
Back into its clutches
And keep me chained
Never to see you again.

Why does this happen
Why let me taste heaven
Happiness
In my loves arms
If you just
Are going to take it away
And condemn me
To walk this world alone.

I feel them closing in
And I know what they want
Bind me to you
Forever my love
Before I lose my way forever
Condemned to walk
In this mortal world
Forever searching
And Forever Alone.

I watch you
From a distance
Walking alone
Looking around
Remember me

You smile though
You want to cry
Why
Why do you hide
Remember me

You left me without
Saying goodbye
Yes I cried
But I also died
Remember me

Do not shed a single tear
For me please
I wasnt worth you time
You spent it with others
Remember me

I told you I still care
And that I loved you
But nothing
Helped
Remember me

So again please dont cry
Cause this isnt a lie
I did die
Cause of you
Just remember me
The way I used to be
Before you destroyed me.

My heart
Heavy
With a burden
Unlike anything
I have ever felt
I lay at your alter

You spoke
Of letting things go
Wash away like waves
Upon the shore.

Forgivness
After everything
I have seen
Done
Heard
It is hard
And it hurts
To let go.

Its shaped me.
Though I do not understand
Why
Nor will I
Until the time is right

Teach me
Your ways
Through
Your Joy
Your selfless ways
Your compassion
Your tenderness.

With you to guide me
In my ways
I will learn
And walk the path
Of the Enlightened Heart

I promise
I wont let you fall
I promise
I will hold you close
When others turn away
I promise
If you push against me
I will hold my ground
I promise
I will be your armour
Shielding you from harm
And when you feel yourself fade away
I promise
I wont let you become a memory.

I regret
Feeling the way I do
About you
I have to admitt
It was fun while it lasted
But now I need closer

I wanted to believe
That I would have a chance
At love
Being happy
But what did I get
Silence
What are you afraid of
Me rejecting you
Judging you
I never rejected you
Matter of fact
I accepted you
Completely
I never judged you

I wanted to protect you
I told you that
Many times over
Now I am left alone
And full
Of regret

Your broke my heart
With your silence
My only regret
While I pick up the pieces
Is that instead of silence
You had destroyed me
All I feel now
Thanks to you
Is Regret.

Have you ever
Said hi to the one
Who supposedly
Said I am in love with you
To your face.
Now they wont give you
The time of day

Why couldnt you
Just say
I want to remain friends
Instead I waited
No word
You kept on in your life
But left me behind
I thought you loved me
I thought you cared
But it turns out
I got the cold shoulder
You turned your back
And walked away

What did I do?
Answer me that
Did I hurt you...
Cause if I did
I am truely sorry
I hope you can forgive me
One day

All I have to go by
Is your silence.
So until you
Can turn and face me
You will never know
What it is like to be
Truely Alone.

Walking the narrow streets
I feel your presence
Everywhere
But I am alone
Where are you?

I rub my arms
Continuing to move forward
The current of life
Pulling me along.

I dont feel safe
You left
No word
No sound
I cried
I screamed

What would it take
For you to come back
If I could have one wish
It would be you being here again

I find myself
In front of your door
Peeking in the window
I see you
Drinking away your sorrows
Let me in
One last time
Sing the song
You sang to me
Before you left

I wanna hold you
Console you
Why wont you let me
Self pride
Ahh let it go
I loved you
Didnt you see...

Now your asleep
On the sofa
And having a nightmare
The high pitched scream
As a car slams into me

You blame yourself
Since that night
Ill sing you this one line
Throughout time
It wont rain all the time..

So ill see you on the other side
My love
And keep you warm from above..

Rain falling down
On the ground
Forming tiny rivers
and puddles
Watching children play
But why am I the only one
Getting wet
Then I realize
I am the one crying.
What is causing me to cry
Everything
Anger
Love
Hate
Pain
How I wish I would not feel this way
I wish to be an empty shell
But without the rain
I realize I wont be human.
So I let the rain fall
And remain silent in my sorrows.

Things happen for a reason
With no concern of the affect
I thought I moved on
But I see
I am just not over you.

We talked for days now
The old feeling came alive.
Everything hit hard
All at once.
I am just not over you.

I want to see where it leads
I want to see these feelings grow
But all these feelings
And desires
Proves
That I am just not over you.

I look outside
At the world
My mental state
Is shaken
And spirit torn.

I worked so hard
For things throughout my life
Only to have them taken
Out from under my feet.

Why are you letting this happen?
What have I done to deserve this?
I work my hands
To the bone
My body wants to break
And turn to dust
But my will wont allow it

When will you let me eternally rest?
Do you hate me so much
That you enjoy watching me
Suffer in agony?

I find myself outside your house
I know you beckon me
To come in and return home
But I cannot
I am not at peace
Should I enter
The Darkness may rear its head
In protest

Please forgive me
As I walk away.
I do not deserve this life
This soul
But you gave it to me
I know
I am special
And these gifts
You have given me
I appreciate them
I adore them

When my time comes
I will tell you about them
How happy it made me
The strength you gave
The power it took
To get up
And
To brush the dirt off
My soul just
To finally
Come Home.

Sadness
Engulfed her soul
Her heart broke
As man
Tore at her body
Everyday.

She cried to the wind
As trees fell
With a sickening crack
It made her stomach turn
As the natural beauty
She nurtured
Was destroyed
For the sake of men.

Waters ran crimson
As pollution
Death
Ravaged her life blood
Her tears would fall as rain
To wash away earthly pain.

We never see
What we do
To mother earth
Everyday
So I will only have this to say.

Her sadness
Will be only for those to wonder
Her body is for those to plunder
But we all return to her
When we are six feet under.

There comes a time
When I have to realize
How I truely feel
About things in my life.

I once thought
I was over things between us
You were happy at some point
When you didnt talk to me

Why am I not strong enough
To tell you move on
To let me go
It is like broken glass
Laying around me
Everytime I think of you
Hear your voice
Or read what you wrote
All those years ago
It is like a sharp stab
To my heart
As if the glass is entering my skin.

I feel I am not strong enough
To stay away
Everything about you soothes
This demon
That has engulfed my soul
It cowers in front of you
As you speak
Your voice like a lullaby to me
Saying I still love you.
I believe you.
But I am afraid.

Im afraid I am not Strong Enough.

Body cold
Lifeless eyes
Soul eternally cries
For an end
Release
From the eternal torment
Of the memory

Alone in darkness
Within four walls
This soul
Yearned for completion
For something like itself
To save it.

An angel appeared
Its touch tender
Honest
Loving
Broke this soul
Scaring it back into the darkness

The soul had seen beneath
A heartless being
Cold
Painful reminder
Of what it had been through

Never again
Did this soul
Want to be in anguish
So as the soul took shape
It stood
Alone in this dark place

A soul of pure light
With a heart of darkness
Never to know
Love
Only to know pain.
Im afraid
I will be her one day.
For you see
The heart of darkness
Will not go away.

Shadows
In which I reside
Feel the raw power
Deep inside my veins

Dark energy
Flows in mass
Amounts
Leaving you cold and afraid

Think you are safe
In the dark
Dont make me laugh
I am the one everyone
Talks about
Jokes about
But when
I come for them
They try to get away
Failing miserably
For the shadows
Are my Dark Territory

I've never felt this way
In years.
22 years to be exact
Until that day
When he put his hands
On my throat.

My life flashed
Right before my eyes
I saw my funeral
My children crying
As they lowered me
Into the ground.

All he wanted was my car keys
But I stood my ground
I said No Twice.
I screamed out
Which caused him to run.

People ask
Are you alright
I answer honestly
No im not fine

I came close
To knocking on heavens door
That day
I escaped
But not entirely
You can call it luck
I call it a curse
Because now

I fight a diffrent battle
The curse he left behind
Utter and eternal
Fear.

Throughout my life
I have felt nothing but pain
I know most of it is my fault
But realize this
It has shaped me into this
This stronger person.
Hate Me
Hurt Me
Say what you want
I will still be standing
Watching over you
Protect you with my life
Hold you up when you fall.
Until I am no longer needed.
I stay quietly next to you
Shadows and Dust I will remain.

Darkness
Here I am again
Standing in front of you
Head down
Blood dripping from my wrists

Why Did I leave..

You kept me alive
Immune from pain
of love and loss
Sheltered
Protected
Safe

Was it for the right reasons?

I took a chance
Walked away from you
I thought I could
Face what was thrown at me
I saw Death
Gave Life
Felt Pain

So Why Am I Here Again?

I dont want to feel
Anything negative that I feel now
The only thing i want to feel
Is Love.

May I?

So In trust
I return to the way
I was before
Just to feel that balance
Restore what was
No longer in balance.

Thank you

My guardian
My love
My friend
Forever by my side

Darkness