Throughout my life
I have felt nothing but pain
I know most of it is my fault
But realize this
It has shaped me into this
This stronger person.
Hate Me
Hurt Me
Say what you want
I will still be standing
Watching over you
Protect you with my life
Hold you up when you fall.
Until I am no longer needed.
I stay quietly next to you
Shadows and Dust I will remain.

Thoughts of suicide
Thoughts of ******
Has crossed my mind
I want to be loved for me
But also I want to be hated
By those that hurt me

Am I twisted?

This cold steel
Cuts deep across my skin
As the pain drowns the memories
Oh the thought of killing you
Is sweet

Am I twisted?

Do you know
What I dream
When I sleep
Let me tell you
I dream of death
Not mine like I should
But yours
Slow
Painful
Warm blood flowing
From wounds inflicted
As I carve your heart out

Am I twisted?

Scream at me
It drives my thirst
To cause you more pain
Your body would be lifeless
But I would have
Your blood curtling scream
Ringing in my ears

Am I twisted?

So before saying anything
During your life
Think on what I want to do
To you
Lets see if you decide
If I am really and horribly
Twisted.

Ever wonder
What happens
When
A demon loves an angel?

They long to be
Next to them
Staying safe
Calm
Wishing and hoping
Their chaotic nature
Would subside

They feel like pawns
In a big chess match
Between good and evil
They cling to each other
Hoping for an end
Where they can be happy
But the cycle horrifically
Continues

A demon wins
An angel dies
And the demon cries
For evil won this round

So where
Does this game leave us
We are seen as a prize
Some to good
Some to bad

But one thing for sure
We arnt the only ones
Who suffer this fate
This is what happens
When Demons Love Angels.

Dear Daddy,

I wanna be like you.
I wanna wear the same uniform
When I get older
I wanna work hard to make you proud
Like you have made me
Until then I will help
Mommy through the hard times
I will help watch my brothers grow
I know you have to go away for awhile
I dont want you to go daddy
But you have too
To keep mommy, me
And my brothers safe
Never give up daddy
One day
You will say
Thats my daughter
Thats my soldier.

I seem to think
Of you alot lately
This time
I want to break down
Cry
Scream
But mostly die

People tell me that you
Dont care about me
But I feel they are wrong
Others dispise you
For what you stand for
They do not see
What I see
Or know
What I know.

You have the heart
Of a fighter
Strength
That comes from within
Will power of titanium
Spoken harsh words
When necessary.

And yet thats only brushing
The surface
People have chipped away
At you with
Words
Actions
All of which I am guilty of
I am sorry for hurting you

I know it was from a lie
And I was wrong.
But did I lie
When I said
I love you?
No I dont think
I did

Truth is I still
Love you
And so
I hold onto
These precious
Memories
In the hope
That there is a chance
Before darkness consumes
My heart
And death takes my soul
From my body

All I have left
Are Memories

Dark
Mysterious
Eyes that could lure
The most vunerable women
He just raised a finger
His will was done.

Who could match his will
New within the walls
Lurked someone
Who had a will of steel
Much like the weapons
She practiced with

She never spoke
Her eyes would speak for her
The warriors she encountered
Would lay their weapons down
At this ones feet.

He had heard
Of this silent warrior
So summoning her
He waited

To his suprise
She appeared
Standing in the rafters
Watching him
Instead of jumping down
Her image disappeared
And reappeared in front of him.

As he spoke
Her eyed flickered
She was a demon
When he was finished
A smiles crossed her face.
Her voice was barely above a whisper

"Dark Prince..
You summoned me...
Yet...
You cannot fathom....
The power I can unleash...
But I will stay...
But mark my words...
Tonight...
Darkness will forever...
Be your throne..."

She stayed with him
Staying in his shadow
Her demonic eyes
Flicker
Waiting for her time to play
From her Dark Prince.

He sat in the barracks
Comtemplating over
His life
Relationships
Watching many of his friends die
Some in his arms
Others before his eyes
What hurt him the most
He had no one to call his own
Back home
He shed his tears for his comrades
Behind closed doors
He never wished to be seen crying
For in his mind he thought emotions
Were his weakness

As he sat on his bed
His thoughts drifted to his relationships
Many women had come in and out
Of his life
Hurt and destroyed him
Both mentally and emotionally
Until he met a woman
That even though she was married
And had her own problems
They became very close friends

He tried having several other girlfriends
But they threatened to hurt themselves
If they didnt hear from him
While he was overseas
He found it rather annoying
So the only one he talked to
Was his best friend
They would laugh and flirt around
In a sense it helped him
Get his mind off the battlefield

Other women came into his life
And did the same as the others
As time wore on his best friend
Stood beside him
Silently watching
Little did he know she was more valuable
To him
He realized she had done something
The others could not do
Through everything
She had taken his heart without him
Even knowing

Over time he cherished her more
He longed to hold her close
To keep her safe
But he didnt want to make her choose
He knew someone would end up hurt
He just didnt want it to be her

So he decided to wait
And to this day he waits
For the love that seemed so far away
For inside he was
A Lost Soldier
With a heart
Full of Hidden Wounds.