From Lonely, Broken hearts
  To Bandaged, but not Broken wounds
From nights filled with Pain and Tears
  To those with Blank Stares and No Sleep
From Anger and Aggression
  To Love and Care
From Stubbornness and Misunderstanding
  To Comprehending and Patience
Sweet lyrics of every emotion felt
  The Hurt
  The Hate
  The Pain
  The Confusion
And dripping blood
  From wrists only wanting to be Kissed
A Body and Mind
  Wanting nothing but to be Wanted
     To be Understood
     To be Loved
The Trust needed
  In order to Fix what was Broken
What was Missing was once Found
A night of repeated Love songs
  Open trust
  Cracked voices
  Secrets no one knows
What makes you who you are Today
From someone willing to Hurt
  To someone wanting to Love
From Lonely, Broken hearts
  To slowly, welling ones filled with Love.

He's surreal
He has this power over me
Not in a controlling way
No one controls me
It's more of a loving way
Oh, and he tells me he loves me!
He claims to love me so much
I love it when he tells me that
I love him too.
More than anything else
Maybe that's why I miss him so much
It's like all those love songs are about him
Everything finally makes sense
I'm not sure what I miss most
Whether it's his...
Smile
So kind and loving
Eyes
Filled with both love and lust
Strong Hands
To hold me steady so I don't fall
An Amazing Personality
To show he cares, and keep me smiling all the time
I don't know what it is that has me missing him so much
Perhaps it's all of him...
I just miss HIM
Either way I know for a fact
It is eating away at  me
I want him with me almost always
Just to know he's there
It's just comforting
What *is this...?

Strobe lights flashing
Every which way
Catching the texture of my dress
As I twist in front of you
Your hands on my waist
Send me higher with every move I make
We make an amazing couple
You with your chocolate skin
Me with my warm mocha shade
I am no longer me
I am a new me
A more adventurous version of my former self
You ask me what I have done before I arrived
I simply answer this:
"Me? I have done nothing, for I have always had this side, I never let it out, lest someone notice"
The boy simply replied:
"Yet you allow us all to see now? To notice you now?"
I kiss his cheek
"Dear sir you must understand we be at a party; I must have my fun"
"Then your fun you will have,"
He replied
He grab me by my waist once more
And again I turn into a home for butterflies
They are all I seem to be able to feel
Suddenly
It is time to retire
We leave the dance floor
and go to our separate cars
We arrive to our homes
I crawl into my bed
Turn off the light
Toss restlessly
as this is the one time
My reality is better than sleeping
I do not want it to end
Yet eventually
Sleep seduces me
The most amazing night
and it had to end
yet it seems I have found my prince
For once everything feels right
It was magical

Strobe lights
Flashing different colors
Every which way I look
They catch the texture of my dress
As I shimmy beside you
We are a strange couple
You with your pale skin
Me with my sweet caramel twist shade
The song changes
This more upbeat
The florescent lights flash faster
The bass thrums in my heart
My body starts to feel the music.
I let go and allow my body to do the rest
I feel a tap on my shoulder
Him.
This boy
I declined
Because of an age difference
He bows and asks for a dance..
I consider
I look at my date
With a stern look upon his child-like face he nods his head at me
He doesn't like this newcomer
Yet
He let's go of my hand as if to say
"It'll be okay for one dace"
I go take this newcomers hand
And dance a slow dance during a fast paced song
Odd...
The song is over as fast as it started
The guest thanks me
and sends me back on my way
back to the boy awkwardly waiting for his mistress to return
A smile immediately illuminates his face
"We are just friends," I think
"We must be..."
As the night progresses it is soon time to leave
He kisses me on the cheek as another once once did and goes off on his way
As I do mine
I see the visitor once more but I decide to evade him
For he is not worth my time
He does not notice me
Good.
I am off
Off to sleep
Now safe in my bed
Homecoming?
Perfect way
To end my night.

Once dark brown matte lips
Now covered in a shiny gloss
Soft like babies skin
Puckered so perfectly
Deep brown eyes
Seeming endless like the ocean
Full of their mystery
Calloused hands
Much larger then mine
On the back of my neck
The other on the small of my back
Pulling me closer
There's no space between us
No sound
Except our rugged breathing
His hands move up my spine
My back arches
Chest rising
His lips move from my mouth
I opened my eyes in disappointment
The good feeling is gone
They move down my neck
His hand traces my jaw
Down my body to my hips
I let out a moan of pleasure
He responds my continuing to kiss me
He eventually moves to my stomach
The tension between us starts rising
A whole new level of ecstasy
No drug could compare to this
We needed it.
We craved it.
His eyes now locked on mine.
He started to explore on his own
Pinning me down
He has his way with me.
When he's done
He cradled me up in his lap.
Like a mother with her child
Back and forth he rocked me
Till we both fell asleep
With a smile of satisfaction
On each of our faces

Restless mind
Restless body
Restless soul
Eyes crying a river
Every night
A lullaby to sleep it seems
A nightly routine
Feeling of loneliness
Feeling of doubt
Feeling of sadness
The need to just shout
A numb mind
A face dried with tears
Only one solution
Make the hurt my heart feels
Go away
A slice for my mind
A slice for my body
A slice for my soul
A life full of lies
A life full of disappointment
Never one to give in
But one to feel the consequence of considering
One slice for lies
One slice for disappointment
Why do I do this to myself?
Cause myself so much pain?
I wish I could end it all
The hurt
The doubt
The pain
I should take one for the team right?
Let's see...
Maybe they'd all be better off without me...

You want me
I want you
You're mine
I'm  yours
We fixed that problem
Two people
Instant spark
Fire.
You put your hand on  my hips
A match is lit.
We are set on fire.
Your lips on mine
It's all I feel.
Nothing else matters
The fire stealing my essence.
I feel like a fire pit
Baby, douse this flame.
Don't leave me.
Hands move to my waist.
Oh dear.
My arms around your neck.
Don't you feel this?
Pulling me towards you.
The heat is too much.
Hands all over your chest
Yours at my hips.
Douse this fire.
Put some water on me
This heat is getting crazy
You pull at my belt
Oh dear
Too late
No stopping us now
Clothes cover the floor Passion and Fire
Almost like fighting
Only with Love
More affection
Same drive
Same fire
Ruffling sheets
Moans
Groans
Muffled noises
Gasps and rapid heartbeats
Slowly turning to steady breathing
Then to silent snores
No more fire
Ash is left behind on our souls
A pleasure indescribable
A fire lit, then put out
Burns left on our skin.
I put my arm around you
Our eyes jump open as another spark flares.