Selena Grace

Selena Grace Sep 2012

A smile
tugging at the corners of my rosy lips.
A thumb
sliding across the tear trailing down my pinkened cheek
Soft lips that burn off the old love
and give life to a feeling more pure.
Take example
from the pheonix.
Warmth
from the cold
Hope from despair
Such love sprung
from such strong friendship

Selena Grace Sep 2012

The Heart

The innocent heart falls
The fallen heart breaks
The broken heart mends
The mended heart heals
The healed heart guards
The guarded heart grows lonely
The lonely heart falls

Selena Grace Sep 2012

The Guilt

What do u want me to do
I thought this would stop when you got over me.
And r u really over me because you still seem really attached to dating me.
I don't mean to be blunt.
Ugh this ****** me off!
I thought it would stop when you got over me.
The guilt.
I thought it would disappear
But I still remember what I did to you.
Its imprinted in my brain
And it wasn't even that bad!
Its not my fault I don't like you that way!!
Why do I have to feel bad about it!
I know it was worse for you;
loving someone your so close with when they're off with another guy.
And you don't think its fair.
Well its not
But life isn't fair.
And I'm not being unfair.
In fact I'm being mighty ******* understanding
I always have been.
I've always let the stuff you say slide because I felt so bad.
And when you were over me the bad was suppose to go away!
Because I'm not suppose to hurt you anymore!

Selena Grace Sep 2012

My Fault

Take a step back and try to understand.
It's really hard for them.
And it's your fault anyways.
So you have to let them hash it out.
And they can take it out on you because it's your fault.
But it was out of your control.
But you still could have handled it better.
Well it's in the past.
You guys were supposed to close that chapter.
But apparently old themes are continuing into the new pages.
Ink spilling across what used to be flawless.
And tucked away feelings creep back.
Because you still blame yourself for what happened.
And they still make you feel guilty.
You only feel bad because you love them.
You only try to understand because you care so much about them.
Can't they make it just a little bit easier on you.
Can't your troubled mind get eased.
You can't fight again.
That was supposed to stop at the end of last chapter.
We're supposed to write new words and recount new memories.
I can't fix this problem.
And I feel helpless.
And it's my fault.
And I'm a *****.
But I'm trying.
And I care.
And I love you.

Selena Grace Sep 2012

Look Up

The first step is just that.
A step.
One foot in front of the other.
Over the first small barricade.
Turn.
Look up.
Wait.
But not too long.
You can do it.
Test the water.
The timing's right so embrace it.
Let it pour over you.
Washing away the light coating of grime.
Cleaning the small cuts left visible on your skin.
It takes away some of the sting.
Submerge your head in the stream.
Scrub out the trace off fingers running through your hair.
Rinse. Lather. Repeat.
Repeat until you're clean of all his dirt.
Wash the linger of lips of your cheek.
Shave off those feelings until you're smooth again.
Watch it slip down the drain.
Your clean and presentable.
There. That wasn't so bad.
Didn't take as long as you thought.
Get out and dry off.
Now face the present.

Selena Grace Sep 2012

Breakup Songs

You left me here to swallow the tears
And gulp down the rising lump in my throat
The repeating words of breakup songs drumming in my ears
Why do you get to be the one who leaves this unscathed
When I put so much into you and I
You're off having fun and I look at every couple here and think of you
How do I even know if I cross your mind
The endless cacophony of sad hurt words
This isn't working for me anymore
When you leave it hurts
Then I think I can be okay
But that's when you sneak right back into my mind and break another piece of me
So I listen to songs telling me that when I don't think I can make it through I'll get over you
Or that if you just leave I can deal with the mess you left for me
But I don't really want you to leave
I can tell myself it'd be easier without you
But being the clumsy girl I am, I fall right back into your arms
And it's not a big deal!
Because I'm so young!
And there will be other guys!
That's not my fear though
My fear is there's no other you
No one to treat me like you did
To kiss me like you did
But of course now you don't kiss me and treat me like you used to
And now there's no one to

Selena Grace Aug 2012

His Push

He looked away when you turned towards.
You talked to me as he ignored.
You gave me love when he took it away.
He made me hurt. You made me okay.
You made me smile after he made me frown.
You picked me up when he broke me down.
You made me fly when he pushed me to earth.
He broke my heart so you showed me it's worth.