Selena Grace

Selena Grace Aug 2012

He said

He said:

I love you.
You're beautiful.
You'll always be my baby girl.
You're the only the girl to make me cry.
The only one who catches my eye.
You're the only one.

He said:

I'll wait.
I'll wait forever.
Some day things will have to get better.
I will always be here for you.
I love you.

He said:

I need you.
Please, I beg you, don't leave me.
I'll treat you the way you deserve to be treated.
You're a goddess.
An angel.
I love you.

I knew:

He loved me.
But I was not his.
My heart was somewhere else.
Not easily reached.
And I loved him.
In a best friend sort of way.

I said:

I love you.
I need you.
But no, not like that.
It's time to get over me.
Let's face the fact.
It's for your own good.
I promise.
I swear.
I love you.
I do.
No more nightmares.

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Leading

Dipping past the forest line
Extinguishing the astonishing view
Leaving not in haste but with tenderness
Blessing the sky with the colours of your warmth
Marking the clouds with your light
Painting across the darkening canvas
Leading the night to take your place

For mom<3

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Wandering Back

Your fingers fold into mine and just like that I'm back.
Back to everything we had before.
So we leave.
We wander from everyone's wandering eyes.
Our hands release.
Because before was just a game.
Our feet keep time while we're gone.
Kicking up sand that mixes with the sound of our hushed laughter.
Light flashes in the corner of our eyes.
So we run.
Because we need to be where they can't find us.
Then just like that your hand finds mine.
You pull me into the woods and lace our fingers together.
Locked and intertwined with mine.
Your skin pulsing with its usual heat on a cold starry night.
I jump with every flash of a headlight as we roam the road's shoulder.
I can't lose this moment.
This moment that is my world enclosing around me.
Your arms wrapping around me,
holding my heart in my chest,
when it beats so strong it might jump out.
I look into your eyes.
If you gave me some paper I could draw them with my own closed.
I could draw them like a map for you.
If you followed it, I bet you'd find my sanity where x marks the spot.
And just then when I'm so confused that I'd like to follow the map myself,
Your lips lock mine.
My world and my sanity so far gone.
And it's then that I realize the mistake I'd made.
It wasn't this.
No, not this kiss.
The mistake was my fear.
My heart wouldn't have jumped out of my chest.
Because, silly me, I don't hold my heart anymore.
That place has been vacant for awhile since you took yours back.
No I couldn't hold my heart.
Because you do.

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Protection

Creaking soundly forward and back
Mother sits down, baby in arms
A blanket rests across her lap
Layed out to protect her love

The rocking chair is sturdy
Sufficient for them
A mother's favourite place
A childhood memory

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Contrast

He's sad.
I need to help him.
He needs me.
I can't give him what he needs.

He needs me.
No, he needs me in a different way.
I'm his friend.
He needs more than that.

He needs a friend.
He needs me.
I'm his friend.
Not in his mind.

He needs love and support.
No, he needs someone to love him.
I do.
Not that way.

But, he's sad.
He needs to get over it.
He can't.
Because you won't let him.

He knows I don't feel that way.
Cut him off.
No.
He needs me.

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Three Hearts

Three hearts entangled,
A girl and two boy's.
Which ones get mangled
And treated like toys?
Which ones need mending?
Which ones stay full?
What hearts need defending
From the maddening pull?

Two hearts get broken,
A girl and a boy's.
But what really happened
Beneath all the noise?
One heart broke free,
But what did he break?
Did he break me,
During his escape?
And the other boy's heart,
All twisted with mine,
Fell right apart,
As on ticked the time.

Selena Grace Aug 2012

Askew

You grabbed my hand and you led me away.
You showed me a way to get through the day
You lifted me up and you made me okay.
You told me the hurt would fade away.

I stayed there with you,
Until you mentioned her.
But that didn't last.
That week was a blur.

It was back to just us.
But no. Not really.
Because my heart still ached
For the boy who made me silly.

A month ticked by,
And your feelings grew
Toward a poor broken girl
With a heart so askew.

Then one day he came back.
Said he'd made a mistake
And my heart straightened up.
He was a risk I would take.

It must of felt
Like I picked him over you.
But there was never a choice.
Not with a heart so blue.

I fell in love.
And you're the one I told.
But when you heard those three words
In your heart grew a hole.

You waited for me
To fill it again,
But you shouldn't have waited
For his love to end.

That day came.
And you had been waiting.
But when I realized this much,
I started debating.

How could you
Escape the hole
With me so close
Creating the pull?

So I said we couldn't
Be as close as we were
And you ended it completely
To get over me for sure.

And we hugged,
As we cried,
And whispered
Goodbyes

It took a toll,
Being apart,
As you took time
To fix your heart.

Today you came back.
You said it was done.
We could be friends,
And finally have fun.

But I can't forget
The hurt that I caused
To a heart so strong
That found me so lost.

The world, the world is mine, but you're not there.