You pushed me away
You pulled me near
I tried to pray
No matter what I do I always felt the fear
Always fell down the stairs
I started running and running
The world started to look less cunning
Then all I saw was red
I was free
I was finally dead
I was as happy as I could be
That didn't last long
You were way too strong
You see I thought running was the answer
I couldn't be any more wrong
The thing is I did not know you were a necromancer

I lost my best friend the day I made that choice
It's torture that she can't remember my voice
All the pain I caused will always eat me up inside
You were there for me
Turned a blind eye on my flaws
Followed all the law
A strong sense of the cause
I'll regret forever that I hurt you
You held me together with your glue
You always came through
My decision is the reason you are gone
And I wish you could hear this song
Of the hurt, pain and the rain
But maybe you, not remembering will be a gain

These are more than words on a page
They are alive
Holding my demons captive inside
Unable to ever die
They strive
They thrive
Makes my thoughts go into overdrive
They will always survive
Move and wither for attention
Waiting to be mentioned
Trapping me into another dimension
I need an intervention

Can't you hear my screams
Oh wait you put them on mute
Thinking this just one of my reoccurring themes
You just sit there and brute
I go out in my costume
Pretending to be what I am not
She is okay, you just assume
There is way more to my story than the plot
In case you forget
I am afraid to get caught
In all those lies I bought
So I sit here and rot
With all of my thoughts
I couldn't be more distraught
Wishing it would all stop
Somebody has to play cop
Before it's too late and I drop

Painless sleep
Is that too much to ask?
I sit there weeping
As I drew my bath.
The water slipped through my fingers
Like every compliment I got
Drowned underneath me until I forgot.

Sitting in the bar just drinking
Tired of waiting for someone who will never come
My brain going overdrive rethinking
I will never reach an outcome
Throwing my glass at the wall
Remembering how it feels to be small
Thinking of where I went wrong
Drowning all of my sorrows and mistakes
Why do I have to be so fake
Looking back and remembering how it feels to have a real smile
Always acting as if I am on trial
But I can not I am too scared
Everything in my fantasy
Just sitting by myself drinking Hennessy

Filling the voids in my heart
With the lies, they will tear me apart
My death will come to no shock
Their words will be a constant mock
As people will soon realize it was about time
I had to pay for my crimes
My words soon turn into the songs they play in the summertime
In the most heinous possible way, they will boast
The ones which I love will betray me the most
My soul will slowly decay on overdose