waking with joyful exuberance
choosing what attitude to wear with the day
grey skies call for a sunny disposition
determined to keep negatives away
light streams gently from fingertips
delicately touching others with warmth
surprising them with smiles
unfurling calm in your wake

Parenthesis, one, Parenthesis
Oh how my heart does soar
The simple notice telling me
I'm in your thoughts once more
Words, black and white, on screen
Transfer into my soul
Interpreting your meaning
Not wanting to let go

Parenthesis, two, Parenthesis
What riches! more from you
I'm greedy in my desire
to learn your wishes true
To keep this brief connection
no matter how tenuous
We bleed onto these crystal screens
Sharing all inside of us

Alas, no more Parenthesis
Blinking cursor is all I see
Hoping, praying tomorrow will bring
Continuation of You and Me

The 'us' we see and
the 'us' others see create
unique duality
high wire balancing
praying not to fall

hard outer shell but
soft side within, not
unlike crustaceans
we scurry to and fro
intent with purpose

only when we're truly alone
be it crowded street or
safely home,
can both halves
combine as one

Finally at peace

pushing and pulling, eddies swirl 'round
so difficult to trust in this love we've found
fairy tale endings too good to be true
darker shades of life confusing my view
never having known love's ache
clouds in judgment, feelings forsake
go on defensive 'cause that's all I've known
overwhelmed by the gentleness you've shown
to want you so badly, I lose control
feeling the madness deep in my soul
Still, knowing the gift that lies within grasp
if only I can trust, in your heart, at last.

paint my world with vibrant hues
emerald greens, sapphire blues
lyricist with color, canvas
emotions swirl 'round your brush
multitudes of whites and greys
illuminate the darkest days
when masterfully controlled by you
paint my world with vibrant hues

a single tear rolls down my cheek
I see your life in focus
a world I thought that I'd fit in
now knowing that it's hopeless

surrounded by a quiet grace
there's love, and peace, and laughter
I have no business in this place
no happy ever after

I stand outside your happy hearth
ashamed for my mortal sin
forever doomed to be the one
on the outside, looking in

moments apart are an eternity
    hours together are a blur
        wrap space and time fabric
            around us forevermore

Swallowed up by feelings, needs, wants, wishes
stifled thoughts beating against ivory cage
muffled heart beats, ka-thump, ka-thump
pure emotions puddle, then drip through your fingers

It's good to be alive
  no matter worries, struggles, surviving
    breathe in, blood pumping
You are loved by someone

It's good to be aware
  inter-connected, a ripple in the pond
    stream of consciousness
You have value in this world

It's good to be alive

existence is perception
colored by opinion
  tainted by influence
modified by judgment

  you are my soul
living outside of me
  feeling my sensations
mirroring my love