I gawked at her nine mind years
hooked three heart weeks later btw
f’ed a year before the day btw
three dogs, no kids
but she can really cook
so we lived happy btw
friends, church, family, dogs, house,
night, day, time all slipped away btw
yes, we aged, grew old-er btw
fell into cancer,
bad weather, lost it all, but well insured btw
no perfect couple, marriage but still around btw
until our slow last gasp,
last glance in the sun’s cast btw
on our old back porch with no one

I'm dying
Inside
Btw.
Totally shattered
Crumbling
To bits
And you're
Not here
You're not answering
Btw
I knew this would happen
If I told you
I knew it would affect you
And now
When I need you
You're gone
I'm not mad
Btw
Just sad.
I understand
I just wish
I hadn't
Told you.