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 Mar 2014 sea draggin
AJ
I am feeling really sad right now.
And I don't want to talk about it.
And I don't want to think positive.
And I don't want anyone to try and fix anything.
And I don't want to confront anything.
And I don't want to calm down.

I just want to listen to my sad music playlist.
I just want you to hold me and not say a word.
I just want to cry and cry and not worry about
How loud I'm being
Or how dramatic I am being.

I just want to cry
And I just want you to hold me.

I feel like I'll never be able to breath again if I don't.
 Mar 2014 sea draggin
AJ
Some people are madly in love with me,
And it makes me so sad.
I know some of you might not think of much me,
But I regret to inform you that I'm a real heartbreaker.
The way I walk around this earth,
With my high heeled attitute, my mermade hair, and my blue dragon eyes.
"She'll save me,
She's magic."
It's completely false.
And completely tragic.
I can only reflect what you're putting into me.
I try not to use you all,
I really do.
I didn't want to be your first time baby girl,
I didn't want him to give me his heart on a silver platter.
It didn't matter.
I was only playing a stupid little game.
I can't quite remember the name.
But it's all I know to do.
I'm sorry I'm such a good ****.
I'm sorry I'm so **** cute when I'm high.
I'm sorry I have the voice of an angel.
I'm sorry I can read you so well.
I'm sorry every time I say one of your names there's an electric current
Running from your stomach,
To you fingertips,
And back.
I'm sorry every slip up is precisely planned.
I'm sorry I have you in my hand.
I can't tell if it's a conscience effort or not.
I guess I forgot.
I'm just an alcoholic nympomaniac.
But the real problem with that,
Is that I am unbelievably brilliant.
And I am unbelievably sorry
That you all ran head on into the little web I forgot to unspin.
 Dec 2013 sea draggin
heather
sitting on my bed
i have to ***
all the **** is gone
the screen is still blank
that stupid line blinks
i feel something
something powerful
but it won't come out
so i sit here looking
dumb
until i write a
****** poem about
how i can't write.

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