Sitting here in my own head. Wishing I was in your arms instead. The depth and love in your eyes. You now share with other guys. Hearing you say "I love you." Used to shake me to my core. Now I am just depressions *****. She's feisty and unforgiving. But I'm fighting for a life worth living.

Even being friends comes to an end. You helped me heal wounds and reopened them and deepened. Can't believe you're so shallow, you went off the deep end. I invited you into my life and took pride in that, you played me and my ex, you even pried in that. You ran to me because of your crazy *****. Judging my life now, even though yours needs fixed? Don't you dare judge my situation. You're looking hungry, whens the last time since you ate son? You wanna go rounds? Because I'm nothing you know about. I'm glad you finally showed your intentions, because our paths are going different directions. Life is going to ******* up more than my fists can. So whens its time, take those lumps hand in hand man.

I'm shaking because I'm nervous. I'm thinking do I deserve this? I'm up late because I have a date tomorrow. She'll be in my car though. I'll be driving safe as the car goes. She's so splendid. Beyond my intentions not intended. So filled with poise and excitement. It's so late I wonder where the time went. I even shaved and plan to behave. I haven't felt this rush in so long. This is to right to be wrong. I hope I'm on the right floor because I feel elevated. No argument here, she's to perfect to be debated. I feel my blood rushing and pulsing. She isnt getting half of my heart, she's getting the full thing. She's so beautiful and sassy. More elegant than classy. She is perfect, like no other.

I feel criminal with this context. Hidden subliminal in this text. I'm vexed at what's next. Tired of writing on being wrecked or how I haven't slept. I wanna find love except, like chess it can't be held in check. Thoughts twirling in my head like a tornado, I can't help but feel winded. I wanna climb this mountain of love and be ascended. But its been taken from me rescinded. I thought I finally convinced it, but I'm still alone so I guess I didn't.

My heart is ripping, tearing and aching. It's unfortunate beating I'm taking. It pumps and courses with pains past. Alas why does it hurt so I ask? It reverbrates with echoes of distant I love yous. Broken and taking frequent abuses. I slip into conscious thoughts of fond memories. And my smile fades when I recall what you did to me. Shadows and fragments of the woman I loved slowly decay. Sobbing and shouting my voice begins to fade. The thoughts of you remain, my hold on reality is slipping away. I loved as in a dream, I lay awake at night and listen to my heart scream. You're elegance and beauty were never compared. I dare say the walls of my heart are broken beyond repair. I close my eyes for an instant. And am so close to memories so distant. I'll be whatever you branded me, just please disappear my love and free me from this insanity.

This is a bad movie, I don't like this scene, I've been recast. You had my heart and ripped it. Almost like it was scripted. I feel played, you put on a good performance I must say. I'm trying to act fine, even though you dropped me like a bad line. My love was rejected, on my own now redirected. Now I'm the star of my own show, feeling brighter now check my glow. I'm in a better sequence, maybe on a roll with no deliquence. I'm the lead role of my life as I expected, you will no long be credited.