I'm shaking because I'm nervous. I'm thinking do I deserve this? I'm up late because I have a date tomorrow. She'll be in my car though. I'll be driving safe as the car goes. She's so splendid. Beyond my intentions not intended. So filled with poise and excitement. It's so late I wonder where the time went. I even shaved and plan to behave. I haven't felt this rush in so long. This is to right to be wrong. I hope I'm on the right floor because I feel elevated. No argument here, she's to perfect to be debated. I feel my blood rushing and pulsing. She isnt getting half of my heart, she's getting the full thing. She's so beautiful and sassy. More elegant than classy. She is perfect, like no other.

I feel criminal with this context. Hidden subliminal in this text. I'm vexed at what's next. Tired of writing on being wrecked or how I haven't slept. I wanna find love except, like chess it can't be held in check. Thoughts twirling in my head like a tornado, I can't help but feel winded. I wanna climb this mountain of love and be ascended. But its been taken from me rescinded. I thought I finally convinced it, but I'm still alone so I guess I didn't.

My heart is ripping, tearing and aching. It's unfortunate beating I'm taking. It pumps and courses with pains past. Alas why does it hurt so I ask? It reverbrates with echoes of distant I love yous. Broken and taking frequent abuses. I slip into conscious thoughts of fond memories. And my smile fades when I recall what you did to me. Shadows and fragments of the woman I loved slowly decay. Sobbing and shouting my voice begins to fade. The thoughts of you remain, my hold on reality is slipping away. I loved as in a dream, I lay awake at night and listen to my heart scream. You're elegance and beauty were never compared. I dare say the walls of my heart are broken beyond repair. I close my eyes for an instant. And am so close to memories so distant. I'll be whatever you branded me, just please disappear my love and free me from this insanity.

This is a bad movie, I don't like this scene, I've been recast. You had my heart and ripped it. Almost like it was scripted. I feel played, you put on a good performance I must say. I'm trying to act fine, even though you dropped me like a bad line. My love was rejected, on my own now redirected. Now I'm the star of my own show, feeling brighter now check my glow. I'm in a better sequence, maybe on a roll with no deliquence. I'm the lead role of my life as I expected, you will no long be credited.

I wonder, am I diluting these illusions of seclusion? I want to borrow your voice because I'm alone. It carries a familiar tone. Please forgive me, I'm trying to atone. I always looked at you so slanted, I always took what you said for granted. Now it's set in stone granite. So many warnings I should've listened. So many words I missed them. I'm missing you and you're with him. I walk my way head up high, secretly wishing I was that guy. I miss you being around, our love was so profound. I hope he treats you right in leaps and bounds. I couldn't bare to stare in those eyes and beg for another try, I thought I already said goodbye?

This took a long time to catch. I guess it's far fetched. I was on the apex, now check out my on point flex. You left me wrecked, now look who saved me next. Now I pose this, I no longer need to be coddled. My current interest is a model. You can be your own victim, I'm done with those symptoms. In my heart you couldn't pay the rent, you've been evicted. You get the picture I depicted? I have to adjust my sights, not used to trying to focus at such heights. As I look down on what we were, I realize we weren't so pure. Now I have a filter on tap to be sure. I'll always remember our start, but now someone else has taken your place in my heart. I try not to be obscene, but it's a curse for me not to be mean. We just don't seem to be in the same grand scheme.

I keep wanting more, I'm yearning. The wheels of my mind keep moving, they're turning. The fire in my heart is so hot, it's burning. I feel the waves of this ocean of emotions. I get the idea but you missed the notions. I'm used to rejection, but upon inspection, I didn't deserve the ejection from our relationship. I heard words I never wanted to leave your lips. I sit here in contemplation, wondering what went wrong in our relations. I only ever wanted you to be happy. And all I can do is remember and be sappy. I grimace as your image passes through my mind. In your love, myself did I find. All I can do is remember, I want our connection to be dismembered. You bring me so much pain now. I'll always love you, that much I vow. Until our paths cross again, you'll always be my friend.