**** the wind and how it whispers your name

******* love notes all the same.

I don't want your scent to drive me crazy

I don't want my senses all hazy

you're no **** good for me



**** the memories and how I wish for you again

******* not worth all the pain

I don't want you to keep trying to  save me

I don't want to dream about you  but

i don't want you to disappear.



I Know.

I wish it was ******* different too.

You know how you **** me in tiny pieces

each molecule a more painful death.

I die a little each day to love you more

I lose all sense of understanding

acceptance is all there is

a slow sure death

a painful ride to heaven through hell

and there's no other way to go

not so easy when you have to stare your fate in the eye

watching yourself die

one molecule at a time

glad that it even happens at all.