Today you wrote a letter
Intent on saying goodbye
You packed your things and moved away
Without even telling me why

You said the words began to cry
When the tears mixed with your ink
Your mind was confused and cloudy
You could barely even think

You told me that you're sorry
To have to leave this way
You hoped that I would understand
You simply couldn't stay

I've always loved the written word
Even letters I couldn't face
I tried to find the reason why
But found an empty space

Now words no longer have meaning
They're just an empty lie
I never thought I'd see the day
When words would simply die

Stuck in a sea
Of undying greed
My eyes have finally turned to green
My blood now drips out of all seams
And all my courage will indefinably flee
How can one see
When the darkness over powers me
A scratch of the skin
My addiction begins
A relapse or two
Stuck not knowing what to do
Sweating and trembling
Fretting so menacingly  
My thoughts race
Pacing in place
Mind now filled with vacant space
My heart is erased
These drugs open arms is something I must embrace
My innocence has been defaced
My conscious has been misplaced
My mistakes I retrace
I give in to my sins

How do you better yourself
When your losing yourself
Your mind is fuzzy
Nose is stuffy
Eyes are ******
Mind is running
Thoughts are rushing
Your heart is cold
Like a ******* ice pack

The demons of my past
Seem to never fade
An endless opening in my heart
Similar to the ever glades
Monster in the brain
The devils slave
I'm a murderous beast
A carnivore with the need to feast
Well at least
I will meet my defeat
But only once i meet a foe that's worthy
A shadow of a man
Is all that's left
Nothing but echoes
When i pound my chest
All human feelings
Have exhaled from my breast
And the only noise i make
Is a hollow whisper under my breath
And it amazes me how blind people can be
That when I'm in there view
Hate isn't all they see
I'm a heathen
A demon
Craving your screaming
Feeding
Needing
All of your bleeding
That breathing
Should be fading
Your soul
I should be taking
Your mind
Is now blanking
Iv'e murdered again

"Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?"

- Infinite silence. -

"Everything becomes real after you realize
How many people don't care about you."

"You might not know this,
But I'd go out of my way
Just to make sure you're okay,"
[She said with a downcast glance.]

"I don't think I'm emotionally stable enough for that."

- Suddenly, it's hard to breathe. -

Sometimes I get so sad that
I completely shut down...
And I feel like it's easier to sail away
With sadness
Than to battle the current
Trying to make my way back
To shore.

"When did this happen?
When did your scars become on purpose?"

"Just go and leave me alone."

"I miss the days when things were simple,"
[She whispered as she softly shut the door.]**

I stare blankly at the wall,  
And it doesn't matter
what anyone says to me
Because in that moment,
I don't exist.

You and I were different,
But it all started with a smile.

We came from different worlds,
And I actually believed you loved me.

After everything, I must confess
I need you.

But you never came back.

I think the worst part wasn't losing him...
it was losing me.

But there are no happy endings:
Endings are the hardest part.