tell me about the sea
tell me about your favorite things
your fears, your dreams
don't waste precious moments with small talk
tell me about what you love
what makes you feel alive

i will not
i refuse
to fight for your attention.
if you want her and i
then choose her
because i will not be a second choice.
don't believe for one minute that this does not pain me
because it does.
i've been here before
and that is why i must leave before this tears me apart more than it already has.
you simply cannot tell me you have feelings for me
and then continue to see her every other night.
sorry honey
it doesnt work like that.
at least not when you're talking to a girl that knows her own self worth.
do you say the same things to her?
silly boy
you must not know
that i know how boys like you work.
you recycle your words and affection
that does not make me feel special
so do not tell me that i am special.
i know that i am
but you are not treating me that way.
your act is getting old
and it is time for me to leave.

i am beautiful.
please repeat this while staring into the mirror
until you believe it.
you are beautiful
please do not fight me on this
because you will not win.
everything has beauty
if you dare to come close.
everyone has a story
if you care to hear.
you are beautiful
allow yourself to acknowledge this simple fact
stop hating your reflection
you were made this way for a reason
stop doubting your worth
even though that is what the world has conditioned you to do.
you
cannot be measured
for you are much more.
words cannot amount to all that you are.
start believing in yourself.

I need to turn this sadness into poetry
So it will mean something and be worth it.
How can medicine make me happy
When all that I want is your arms around me
You are ruining my life but you are unaware.
Why
Am I not enough for you
Is my laugh too loud
Does my beauty scream out to you
are you afraid
Of falling for the girl who could change everything
Or
Are you simply that oblivious?
It turns out that I am enough
For you
For me
And for everyone.
I cannot make you realize this
But your feelings, or lack thereof,
Do not determine my worth
Or my immeasurable sense of life.
I want to live
And you are preventing me from that as of now
So I suppose
That it is time
For me to stop focusing on you
And to start focusing on
Me
Wherever that may lead.
I’m ready to let go
Of you
And the things that I know
I will venture into new territory
Explore the beauty around me
Its time to stop chasing people
And to start chasing what I want in life.

my stress is goin up my emotions are outta whack im crazy for a boy who wont like me back i feel like im deteriorating cant stay awake sleep seems like the better option i just hope i pass my ap exams but doesnt mental health matter more ive gotten quieter i have nothing to say just trying to live day by day someone please notice my suffering im not quite sure what happened here or when things got worse i want to sit in the sun and laugh but there are thunderstorms in my head so i sit in silence instead.

i just want to be me
fully myself
not the version of me that you want me to be
but how can i do that if im unsure of myself
i am blooming
into a beautiful sunflower
but im not there yet.
how can i express myself
without reaching my full potential?
i will show you who i am today
and it may differ from what i show you tomorrow
i will grasp onto the present
and stop waiting
waiting to grow
waiting to discover myself
because who i am
cannot be put on hold

i don't know why all of my poems are so sad
i am happy
well
i am trying.
i'm living day by day.
things really have gotten better
for the most part.
i am my biggest obstacle to pure happiness.