Wake up putting my feet on the floor
Another day God keeps me away from Heaven’s door
Darkness, something I suggest everyone explores
Nothing will be the same as it was before

I get claustrophobic like a fetus in a jar
My future probably has to do with a bar
That fateful morning I should’ve been in the car
She might be gone but she’s still my life’s star

In the wastelands of unity we gamble
Their deaths truly left me in shambles
Her smile always shined bright like a candle
When I was with her I remained tranquil

In the mesa of volition the demons scheme
The only time I can see her now is when I dream
And it isn’t as perfect as it seems
My friendship with her gave me a new esteem

In the waters of destiny the creatures brood
Death is something no one can elude
Without her my vision is skewed
For her I always had gratitude

I'm a rhythmic mercenary
Hitting you with a vicious, malicious vocabulary
I've been living my life, pseudo-legendary
Her eyes were always bright, luminary

Life is just death's reprieve
One life is all we receive
Her death is something I will never believe
Her spirit connects with me effortlessly

I see her everywhere I go
Her death brought me to new lows
She was the polar opposite of my foe
She had me the minute she said hello

Being alone lets me unwind
Nobody knows how or why I'm ill in the mind
They don't like it when I go silent like a mime
Life often ends at inopportune times

The say nothing is hurt; nothing is lost
I would've died instead of her, at any cost
She was the only one who I could easily accost
She hit a button on my cold heart, must of been the defrost

I spit catastrophes rapidly
Leave you a fatality
Innocent by reason of insanity
Her voice will always stick with me

Now my sanity deteriorates like Chernobyl
It's almost like I'm immune to the sadness of funerals
Our generation seems to have no need for morals
My generation known for disrespecting girls

Am I explicitly gifted or inconsistently wicked
Feels like my souls been torn out and twisted
It's got me adapting dynamically, changing my mentality
Truly what is the real reality

Living life with a new found belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
From a generation polluted with ignorance

I'm a sadistic mystic
Artistic, and pessimistic
True art is about pushing limits
You want the full view, only giving you snippets

I found a true accomplice when her path crossed mine
She always kept me high, like we lived on cloud nine
She always killed my pain, anodyne
Since she's been gone, I'm waiting for the sunshine

Another day, another coffin rots away
Losing five friends left me in disarray
Trying to live life day to day
Until the day God takes me away

I guess I'm just too ******* real
For a world that is too ******* fake
Maybe that's why the Devil and I made a deal
And now my soul is at stake

Now duality's a reality
But how is that when reality is a fallacy
I hear you whispering, saying you hate me
But I could give a **** less personally

Now I'm seeing worlds of demons and villains as I take my last breath
I avidly add adages to the words that I press
Each and everyday strewn and littered with stress
Her death still feels like a **** elephant caving in my chest

I spit catastrophes rapidly
Leave you a fatality
Innocent by reason of insanity
Clearing my head on this balcony
Disgusted by society
Where you gain respect by committing acts, of notoriety
My mind does nothing but fight me
Everyoneelse thinks I’m off the deep end, crazy

**** around and you’ll become the topic of discussion
Love and corruption, sin and seduction
Society is the definition of corruption
All people do is make assumptions
Born into a corrupt world, ****** up ****
Always keep the purple lit
Got Alice, Cheshire Cat, and The Caterpillar toking it
If you talk **** you’re bound to get hit

In life will all have a different philosophy
Every other man claiming a prophecy
All politicians speak is *******, dishonesty
No one cares that our children are corrupted by technology
Here’s to another day
Another coffin rots away
Life’s just a game we play
Until God takes us away

A new beginning has been presented
Just looking at me, can you tell I’m demented
Her death I could’ve prevented
Now my legacy is cemented
Life is something we can never rehearse
I’ve seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
My heart golden, but my blood’s black
She always stole my breath like an asthma attack

So is this where I belong
Cause at this point everything’s going wrong
One day I’ll be bigger than King Kong
Free my mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
Tomorrow is not a guarantee
When my mind is my purgatory
No one can control me
Your words do nothing for me

Now you’re saying I’m your salvation
Who the hell are you? What’s your relation
I miss seeing her eyes ablaze with elation
Her death was my inevitable damnation
Since her death I’ve been nothing but diffident
Like a lost dog, I’m timid
I’ve always been seen as different
But to that opinion, I’m indifferent

Living life with a newfound belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
Today’s generation is filled with nothing but ignorance
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
Life is all about mind over matter
Look at the wall covered with your brain splatter
All because these rhymes blew your mind
I’m a rapper of a different kind

I see worlds of demons and villians as I take my last breath
I avidly add adages to the words that I press
Each and everyday strewn and littered with stress
Life’s just a savage game of chess
A new beginning has been presented
With her gone it’s like I’m living out a life sentence
Never again will a person so perfect be invented
She truly had an awe inspiring presence
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Living life with a newfound belligerence
Like a high off of ten different barbiturates
Today’s generation is filled with complete ignorance
This cypher shall be thy deliverance
Since her death I’ve been nothing but diffident
Like a lost dog, I’m timid
People have always seen me as quite different
But to that opinion, I’m indifferent
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Life is all about mind over matter
Look at the wall covered with your brain splatter
On some Ice-T ****, rhymes that blow your mind
True love is hard to find
Do you live life as you want to
Or do you follow everything society tells you
In the end society will destroy you
No matter what, stay true
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Just rolled up, five & dime
Every morning, rise and grind
Now I’m flying away with Peter Pan
Gone, gone, gone away, Never Land
So here’s to another day
Another coffin rots away
Life’s just a game we play
Until God takes us away
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Tomorrow is not a guarantee
When my mind is my purgatory
No soul can control me
Your word’s do nothing for me
Now you’re saying I’m your salvation
Who the hell are you? What’s your relation
I miss seeing her eyes ablaze with elation
Her death was my inevitable damnation
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No matter where I am, I’m writing a verse
I’ve seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
My heart golden, but my blood’s black
My thoughts stretch to oblivion, like you leg on the torture rack
Is this where I belong?
This is only the beginning, not a swansong
I’m bound to be bigger than King Kong
Free my mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
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Is this where I belong?
You're up your girlfriend's *** worse than her thong
There's more to life. It ain't no sing-along-song
Free your mind, get ***** eyed like Cheech & Chong
You think what I say is wrong?
Ha no, you're wrong, one day I'll be bigger than King Kong
I'm just getting started, **** a swansong
You can't **** with me mentally, I'm too headstrong

You're acting like I'm your salvation
But I truly hate you, even if there is a blood relation
I'm one of a kind, no duplication
I'm not scared of damnation
I've already proven my heart and dedication
We live in one hell of a free nation
You're choking on society's ****, eyes blazing elation
You're a copped out, drop out, at least I'm finishing my education...

Another day
Another coffin rots away
Life’s just a game we play
Until God takes us away
Tomorrow is not a guarantee
When my mind is my purgatory
Why does society insist on controlling me?
The ignorance of this generation astounds me
Let my mind wander and start a verse
I’ve seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
Escape reality, Peter Pan
Gone, gone, gone away, Neverland
My heart golden, but my blood’s black
My mind breaks me, torture rack
Mind racing, super sonic
I never understood any of Shakespeare’s sonnets

A fool because I chose a fifth year
Step into my shoes, you wouldn’t be here
You would’ve offed yourself
Your urn collecting dust on your Momma’s shelf
Was her death my karma?
In the end, a pause, comma
In my journey, just put me in a coma
Wake up with a whole new persona

24/7 Chiefin'
5 star feastin'
I spit fire
On this school time cipher.

Skipping through Wonderland with Alice
Work hard, hands calloused
Epitome of daftness
Mad Hatter passing me the Caterpillar's chalice.

Sitting on the roof of this church, about to start a verse
I've seen too many loved ones dead in a hearse
Now I'm floating, fading, through the clouds, Peter Pan
Going, going, gone away, Neverland.

My heart blacker than a crow
Steady, spitting catchy flows
Never ******* with sketchy hoes
Call it keeping my door closed.

Growing up I was hooked on phonics
Now the young one's blazing the chronic
Mind racing, super sonic
Billy Shakespeare wrote a whole bunch of sonnets.

They say I'm a fool because I'm doing a 5th year
If you had lived my life, you wouldn't be here
You would've offed yourself
Find your urn sitting on your Momma's shelf.

Find me chiefin'
Your ******* her knees, feastin'
I stay high
Because you all stay low

Got you all hooked on this flow
My heart blacker than the feather of a crow
Marching to my own drummer. None of my ducks in a row
Never again will I sink so low

Growing up I played alone
Talking to voices on a broken telephone
Teachers saying I matched the guidelines of a psychopath
But that was the past

Blazed, on the roof of this church, about to start a verse.
If you're reading this you might just find me laying in the back of a hearse.
My way or the highway like I'm Fred Durst.

I'm drifting away, gone, Peter Pan.
Gone, gone away in the sky, Neverland.
I can see myself going out in a blaze of glory! Custer's Last Stand

Scribbling, writing, back of the class.
Only thing I pay attention to is your girlfriend’s ***.

You say you hate me? I don’t give a ****.
8 Women, who stay true, and that isn’t luck.
Either I’m a nice guy, or I’m a *******.
Tap you out, throw in your white flag.

Lately, every day is the ******* one ever.
Yet I still play mind games with hoes. Clever.
I’ve got these loyal ladies on lock, forever.
No one likes me? **** that. Whatever.

Inspiration from Hopsin.
Your ***** out there ******* other men.
Call you Daniel. Throw you in the lion’s den.
You stay losing, can’t find a way to win.

Am I a ******?
I tend to think so.
I try not to show it though.
Float down the river. Go with the flow.

Caught in the rain.
Strike you dumb. Shot through the brain.
Do you live your life like you want to?
Or do you live it the way society has told you to?

Man this isn’t you.
You are the one for people to go to.
Stop and think. Your true friends are a select few.

She got a wicked smile. Straight beaming.
I’m on my own level. Steady scheming.
Get lost in her eyes, daydreaming.
Her eyes gorgeous, always gleaming.

I'm not afraid of death.
Just afraid for whoever will witness my last breath.

Scribbling, writing, back of the class.
Only thing I pay attention to is your girlfriend’s ***.

You say you hate me? I don’t give a ****.
7 Women, who stay true, and that isn’t luck.
Either I’m a nice guy, or I’m a *******.
Blow you up, with a frag.

Lately, every day is the ******* one ever.
Yet I still play mind games with hoes. Clever.
I’ve got these loyal ladies on lock, forever.
No one likes me? **** that. Whatever.

Inspiration from Hopsin.
Your ***** out there ******* other men.
Call you Daniel. Throw you in the lion’s den.
You stay losing, can’t find a way to win.

Am I a ******?
I tend to think so.
I try not to show it though.
Float down the river. Go with the flow.

Caught in the rain.
Strike you dumb. Shot through the brain.
Do you live your life like you want to?
Or do you live it the way society has told you to?

Man this isn’t you.
You are the one for people to go to.
Stop and think. Your true friends are a select few.

Man shut the **** up.
Your religious ******* causes us to throw up.
You want to be a priest.
More like a child ******.

Yes, I read the Bible.
But you take it to literal.
There’s no punishment for homosexuality.
Yet there is for divorce.
You sure as hell ain’t no holy force.

Weeks have gone by.
Yet I watch this sunset and cry.
Not enough courage to ask God why.
To many people build you up with lies.

Without you I'm stuck in limbo. Suspended in free fall.
Falling to my hands and knees like I'm learning to crawl.
So many fake smiles flashed in the halls.
My tears still pour like Niagra Falls.

How I express my feelings in through the flow of this pen.
Without you my heart needs time to mend.
At Heaven's Gate, we'll meet again my friend.
This is only the beginning. Not the end.

The beginning of something beautiful.
The love we had for each other wasn't juvenile, but rather fruitful.
A perpetual... Love, to last eternal.
Without you my life is null.

Because together we'd watch the sunset.
Learning to live life with no regrets.
Relying on God to handle our inevitable debts.
Life in the end is a game. Quite like chess.

You were truly the best.
Beyond caring. Unlike the rest.
I'll always miss you greatly. Never the less.
You will forever hold a spot in my chest.