Your hands slid up
To my waist,
Slip-sliding across my skin.
Your face buried
In my hair
You breathe me in.
You edge closer
Bringing us both to
The brink of insanity.
I feel your breath caressing me,
Your lips soothing me,
But the sound you made drives me forward-

I grip your hair as I bring you
Close
I kiss you
Hard
But your mouth soothes me
So instead...

We float away

Open your eyes to nothing-
panic hides in your chest,
you cling to nothing-
your muscles are tight
Did you know your muscles can be strong enough to break your bones?
don't think about it.
Close your eyes again-
breathe, just breathe.
Who else do you know has this fear?
Someone, someone
not just you
or is it?
The Darkness
are you afraid of it
or are you afraid of yourself?

Brown eyes, liquid dark,
step inside
no struggle, just quiet,
look around
what have you entered.

Inside the silence echoes,
but you can see the shards all over the ground
mirror, shattered,
blood pooling around your feet
look at your hands.

Fingerless stubs
stop picking up the pieces?
Choices
Life choices
Liquid brown eyes,
they hide laughter
is it real,
or cold, fake,
something to be afraid of?

Can you hear it?
The hole torn open, weeping, weeping,
Always weeping.
Can you hear my heart's hunger?
It reflects upon my bones,
peeking through my skin,
Revealing inside it how little I live on,
I would have gotten lost
Nothing wrong with being lost
But now I am horrified
My pants fall off.
Can you hear it?
The monster creep-crawling inside of my soul
Scratching, clawing,
Twisting its way out of my heart,
My eyes wild
Hungry
Searching
Lost.
You left me cold, contemptuous,
I burn with rage and anger-
Can you hear why?
Fear this, the monster we've created
Together,
From someone so unique and beautiful
From someone who loved and wanted nothing more than love in return.
Look at what we've done,
Sometimes I can't breathe.
Can you hear it?
Bones seeking exit,
Heart twisted and scarred,
Breathing so limited,
I don't exist in here anymore.