I apologized to you
I told you that we are free
But, oh the damage
You have done to me

I'm hanging off the edge
Because the pills I take
Never get there anymore
The pills I took before

As directed, and you knew
You knew very well my health
And yet you stuck in my face
Yanked it from my brain

I was never insane, but now
I'm not so sure

Take it, Starla, take and eat
Fly with butterfly wings
I did until I crushed, crash
A heave and a thrash

I thought you would help me
You hurt, you provoked a curse
My being, my blood, my happiness
Flows out of me like a flood

Why? It's not on you, right?
I told you no, I told you no
But now I know

I'm losing myself, and I know it
And running away didn't help
I need solice and balance, but loathe it
I need too stay sane, or else

Moments of life blaze before me
Before moments of pain settle in
I break from the chains so to be free
But unweildly I'm choked by the wind

Where does it end, if at all, am I nearing?
this cycle of woes on repeat
What I've caused, is not worth any healing
I'm kept in such dire defeat

Whom have loved me, I meant to say sorry
Those that don't, I cannot put a blame
My Life chapters; they end melancholy
And the book that I write has no name

A peak is a peak cause' it falls
Awareness waits the other side
And brick after brick, I'll build walls
So that I have a place left to hide

Have everything, say, I have nothing
And I know because I see whats real
You don't know because you'll never know me
And I can't form the words that I feel

The mind is is planted and nourished with the soul
We grow despite ourselves and root deep to the stable ground where it is Safe
Though wantingly, we reach up towards the sky so desperaty I've thought-
Why root outselves when it's the sun we want?
But I have perched on many limbs brazen in the light, to know the sun does fiercely scorch those trespassers who come too close
So down again to land a sturdy mount, and up I look again in wonderment to what's untouchable.
The earth I stand; the medium of two strong forces, safely holds me, where the shallow warmth of light breathes softly from the sky-in the peace I stay where there's solidity of life, from where I kiss the forces in the sky. With certainty,  cradled in my safety nest; a hammock of sand and dirt so restful, gives me solitude to wander into dream about the stars

Harden me with what scares me
It's going there anyway, baby-
Spin the truth so my heartstrings
Pull, all the soul I have left

tug,- a tear, nothing's left here
A Stitch won't fix the mess
Unraveled, unclear, a knot
A mangled heap, I'm bare

Not broken, not bent, unkept
Take it, take it all off, baby
Because whatever's left, is.
I have nothing more to give

Take it from me, because with it
Leaves the pain- and all the more to gain
I won't look back again, those
Listless threads left in the wind

Not sadness, not regret, I'll shed
The poison of that tie, baby
Scary is the thought of staying
tangled in the gauze of your sins

Freedom, unravels the light from within

I could wait here, watching the world spin
Slow dolorous motion, take my time
I don't wish to be at the start again
I'll resist Gravity, if need be.

Heave against waves, I'll choke on the sea
Creatures of all lagoons, levitate me
I am not afraid to fly, but to sink
Drowning is such a dulling end

Break me again, desperate Tide
I dare you halt me with your silly trysts
Against the rocks, the crooked grooves
That tear at my flesh, and sever my bones

I don't want to go home, ill take this
These evils are nothing to my anguish
I won't die upon your plate, foe
I'll bite at your soul, engulfing it whole

Treason is the word of kings
Who fear the end of their reign
Fear gets them there in the first place
Powers are none, when you fear the fall

I don't want to go home, I can taste it-
The cusp of a delicious life
To fail is half the strife, swallow the knife
There can't be another chance

Never it easy to reach for the stars
But I'm not reaching, just fighting
The demons at bay that seem to  
Keep the Forces from going my way

I don't want to go home, I'm halfway there
A stones throw to the -lay of the land
With me. The breeze lends an ear and suddenly-
A favorable lift of the sails

And so, as I know it.
My fight prevails...
I'll tear every wall
In the wake of my trail

...you...
Live in shadows, no one can see
Who you really are, you don't know
And something so lost, finds a way
To tear into the strongest cloths
You make holes everywhere you go

But it's the dark that makes you feel
You can damage all the decent fabric
Of those you had greeted many times
your demons, feather in the dusty room
And settle on untouched beauty

Flit flutter- your inconsistent beat
Makes me want to swat you far
No. I won't **** you. The lies you live
Is a death sentence in itself -heavy...
With a burden that makes you need

Greedy with desire to Hover over flames
Your true kryptonite; desire more, more
light- and too shallow,  you see it all the same
You can't distinguish the true sun
So you flock to the buzzing hollow glow

You find it hot, but never hot enough,
Fore long- BURN- as I'm sure you will
Like that! A flicker, and out! You stagger
You plummet, dissolve, gone so easily.
A remnence of ash too small to remember

What I would say, if I dare
I'd say that life is to be lighter
Death a mere path to something else
That we do not know, et all

Pity on those who think,
But do not know.
Salt on those who know,
But do not think.

Find somewhere in between

Where buds can blossom
Without hesitation, and
Minds can shift -
Without resignation

Let harmony carry our thoughts.

Pursuasion is the worst of sins
For those who slickly speak
In tongues that whisper fictitious whims
Leading you to darkness.

Doubt idly leans on
Those who hang heads low
And talk of maybes and almosts
Without a chin to spare.

Pursue a path to growth.

The price of knowledge only accrues
Don't limit this power where-
In these small hours we can waste
Swaddled in naivety.

Shed upon our small existence
Humility and love
Openness and kindness
Who knows what is above?

Accept beliefs of others.


Let's live Life now,
it IS all we know
So let it be, as is
Dream, Create, Learn and Grow

Find something you can give.