the eyeliner
i left on your pillow
will haunt you
for days

the system
is breaking down
i cannot see straight anymore
the mystery
is an open frown
i cannot feel bad for a sorry *****.

scream the words like you cannot
speak any softer
and remember how i fought
for you to love me after
i stabbed you in the neck
with my depressive borderline destruction

do not break
my darling soul
live past me
and love

do not hate
my love is full
run away, fast from me
and the angels call from above

How his arm got there
Wrapped around my waist
Like a bow
Like honey I can taste
I do not know.

Can I tell him to stop?
Impossible.
Can I make his arm drop?
No.
Because you see, I want it so.

My emotions are high,
My heart flutters.
It just feels so right.
Somewhere deep down shudders.
But compared to the joy, it's subtle.

He pulls me closer
When he laughs.
He looks down
At his side, aghast.
I am a puddle.

We had Tie Dye hopes,
and hash laced dreams,
Smoke covers up,
Our heartfelt screams.

I was in pain,
and so were you,
That's the only thing,
I feel is true.

Numb me,
Numb me,
Numb me more,
I would smile,
as you'd implore.

My Fingers covered,
in the lightest green,
as I packed the bowl,
for my hippy queen.

Foot thongs,
and dream catchers,
little things,
That ease pressure.

Black leather,
a Devilish smile,
We were happy,
for a while.

I'm the star you didn't notice
I'm the rainbow that didn't catch your eye
I'm the soft breeze that you brushed away
I'm the beat your heart missed
I'm the face in the crowd that was drowned
I'm the cry in the night you ignored
I'm the one who watches you whom you cannot see
I'm the song you never sing anymore

I'm the lesson you didn't learn!

Only after we fell apart,
Only after we crumbled to the ground,
Only after the last flame that was burning for us was put out,
Only after the crushing feeling started in my chest,
Only after the tears were streaming down my face,
Only after the distance between us grew unbearable,

Only after you left,
Only after all our promises were never to be answered,
Only after all our plans were never come true,
Only after I forgot how to breath,
Only after I forgot what feeling okay actually felt like,
Only after darkness was the only thing that filled my days,
                        and waiting for you was the only thing that I knew how to do,
Only after, expectations failed, hopes were ******, and feelings were spared,

Only after time alone,
Only after time with my thoughts,
Only after time to reflect,

Only then, did I see the flaws I had blinded myself from seeing,
Only then, did the realization of what we were fighting, the loosing battle, begin to show,
Only then, did I realize the toll it had taken on both of us,
Only then, did I realize how straining it was for both of us,
Only then, did I realize, that you are the one that I love,
Only then did I realize how hard we both fought our battle, the battle for each other,

But only then, did I realize, that sometimes the strongest form of love,

                                   Is letting someone go.